It had been over a year since Castiel brought Dean back from hell, the time when he and Dean first met face to face still played in his mind like a broken record. Dean and Bobby making all the symbols and casting out the incantation to get him to show him self to Dean. He understood why Dean wanted to see him so badly and why he would be mad at him. Though he thought that Dean would be happy leaving the pits of hell and being back by his younger brother's side once more. Now it seemed like that day was so long ago, being around Dean has changed him but he can't tell if it is A good thing or not. Part of him wants to leave his life as an angel behind and hunt with Dean, be a human and finally be able to feel the emotions that Dean and Sam talk about all the time. Though there's a part of him that is scared to do it, because he is afraid of how his father would take to him becoming a fallen angel.

Castiel began walking down a dark alley not paying any attention to where he was going. All he knew was he needed to walk he had this urged to leave his post to where he was a signed and not to stop for anything. Before he knew it he was out side of the motel where Sam and Dean were staying the night. Looking into the window he could see Dean in yet again a magic fingers bed and Sam doing research on his laptop for their latest job. Who knew what they were hunting this time, a nest of vampires, a new were wolf out break or even a mass of break out of demons. With the end coming soon they were probably looking for a way to kill the devil himself. Though non of that mattered any more to Castiel. the only thing that mattered to him now the most was Dean.

Being careful to not make any sudden noises that may alerted the boys that he was there. He didn't want them knowing he was out there, he just wanted to see Dean and he couldn't figure out why but there was a aching in his chest he had never felt before and he wanted it to stop. Deciding it was best just to knock on their door and see what they had come of with instead of them maybe finding out he was out there watching them. He slowly walked up to their motel,room number 1777 how funny was it that the numbers 777 was meant to being a meaning attached to his father. Knocking softly on the door he waited for one of the winchester boys to answer it. Dean came to the door looking through the peak hole and then unlocked the door and let him in.

"Cas what are you doing here?" Asked Dean

"Well I just came to see if you have any new plans as to defeat Lucifer?" He said hoping that he wouldn't seem to weird

"No we don't have any new plans or leads as of yet but we are still doing some digging into how to stop him" Said Sam still looking at his laptop screen

"Oh well then I guess I will being heading out" Castiel Replied hoping to get out of there as quickly as possible

"Hey Cas before you leave can we talk in private?" Asked Dean seeming to have something on his mind

"Uh yes but quickly I need to head back to my post" Casitel said

"Post? uh yea ok follow me" Dean said taking him out of the motel room, taking him to his car

"What is it Dean?" Said Castiel

"Are you feeling alright, I mean the last few times you came to see me and give me a order you seem to be a bit off or even not all there" Dean blurted out

"I am fine I just have had my doubts once more as of lately but it does not matter how I feel all that matter as of now is you stopping Lucifer and ending the apocalypse" Castiel looked at the ground hoping Dean wouldn't ask anymore questions of him

"Cas what do you mean by doubts I thought you knew your father was still giving you the orders as of now in a way?" Dean asked placing a hand on his shoulder

"It is nothing that shouldn't worry you I will be fine like I always I'm this will pass and I will be fine again'' Castiel Said looking into Deans eyes they were filled with a worried look, A worried look for Castiel

"Are you sure?" Dean Replied

"Yes I am sure. now I must go back to my post" And with that Castiel took back off in flight to his post

Author's Note: I am very sorry this chapter is short I will try to make the next one Longer!