Scars
I have many
All over my body and shell
When they were fresh and new they hurt like hell
But this one, I carry is different from all the others
It has a powerful story beyond the white greenish line that now is apart of my life
It is there to remind me, that life can be very unfair
It can take something or someone from you at any time
But this scar is also there to remind me that I can't always be there to protect my family
I'm the protector my family
But not anymore
It's hard to protect your family
Especially when they are no longer even with you anymore
And this scar reminds me of what is no longer there
But it's not just the thought of that
It's the past that hurts the most
The fights we had
The time I wasted
I could have spent it with them
But I didn't
Right now my father would be telling that no good could come from living in the past
Mikey would be trying me to get to play with him
Donnie would be asking me question that would seem to never end
And Leo…he would somehow try to make me happy
But it's my entire fault that I'm not there to be with them
I took the blade that day
It was meant for Leo
But I couldn't let my older brother die
Mikey and Donnie need him more then they need me
So I took it
And I still don't regret it