Title: Thinking Things Through

Word Count: 433

Author: kawaii hime-sama

Date: (I had this idea while back, but typed it up on) 15th October 2009

-DISCLAIMER- I don't own Loveless, Yun Kouga does. If I owned Loveless, this wouldn't be a fanfiction, now would it?

How is it that,

Everytime he's near, my body goes numb,

But I sense everything ten times more.

I feel every breath, hear every heartbeat,

It's driving me insane, but I never want it to end.

Is this what they call "love"?

I wouldn't know, my name is LOVELESS.

But if this is love, I don't know if I can take much more,

Because he isn't mine, but Seimei's,

From now until forever more.

He was told to love me, more with each passing day.

But even though I know all of this, I have to ask myself,

"Why do I blush at every touch, at every word?"

It confuses me at the best of times,

But at other times, when he's there, and my head's clear,

I know that I trust him with all of my being.

I don't believe in love as such,

But trust is always there.

And he's continually confessing his "love" to me.

I don't get it,

I guess it's because I'm only a child.

Some people could argue that,

But then, I've been through things most 'adults' never have.

It's not my mother's fault, but my own,

But he, he is forever saying that it's not my fault, but it is.

I can see it in his eyes; he's lying to me,

All because Seimei ordered him to.

Seimei, he was meant to protect me,

Now he leaves his Sentouki to do that.

I guess that just shows, no-one can love LOVELESS,

Not even family, he couldn't even stay with me.

As I write this now, I realise something,

That what Seimei did was wrong.

That he had no right to abandon me,

And leave me with my abusive mother.

But thankfully there was one good thing,

Though one right does not dis-count his many past wrongs.

He left me Soubi, his fighter,

Although he and I cannot be 'bonded'.

At least in the sense like the other teams,

And he constantly lies and stalks me.

He keeps repeating that he's "Not a pervert"

I'm only 12 for God's sake! You can't not call that being a pervert.

Yet, I feel that every time he leaves,

I want him near.

But when he is by my side,

I wish him to be gone.

What is this feeling?

What do I feel for him?

Is it hate?

Is it love?

Hate is too strong a word to use,

And love doesn't seem to be strong enough.

So I end my confused thoughts and leave it as is:

I never want to leave Soubi, nor for him to leave me.

-khs
This was such an old idea of mine, but never really got into words, until now.
I haven't much to say this time, so...
Bye-ni!!