Ayan~ Thanks for reading! This is a song-fic of Toeto, which you can find on youtube. Underlined means in Japanese. Italics are the song lyrics. This is Kairi POV, but I'm not sure I got her down right. The word "eto" means "um" in Japanese, "Toeto" isn't a word. "Etoeto" means "ummm" and "E Toeto" means "From Toeto." "Toeto" also isn't a name. It's a Japanese pun. "Toeto" is supposed to be the shy little girl inside of you who can't admit her feelings.

Everything about you now, I love but that's a lie, but what happens actually, nnnnnnnn~

I hate the part of him that goes out on adventure, leaving me behind. I know he has no choice, has to save the worlds (again?), but why aren't I with him? It's not like I'm useless.

Everything about you now, I hate but that's a lie, because I actually, nnnnnnnn~

I love the part of him that always protects me, especially when I need it. I love the part that never fails to make me laugh when I'm sad.

I can't speak honestly, it's too challenging for me, so I keep on lying, with a catty hat.

Sometimes I tell myself that he is safe at home, not in danger. It's too hard to admit that he might die out there, but at least not alone. Never alone.

I don't know when she came, but I feel her inside of me, eto I said, e-Toeto.

I konw there are different hearts inside of him. There's Roxas, for one, and sometimes I can sense a shadow of a heart, a glimmer of a person, just hanging in there, someone who's never cared to tell me their name. Does he know too, I wonder, about the Namine inside of me?

What's important to her, she can't communicate it, that's her name, Toeto.

It's strange to think of myself as shy, but I know that at times, I am. About telling him my feelings, for instance. Blushing, I will change the topic.

She is a timid girl, too shy to speak to you, so that's her, Toeto.

She has hidden herself now.

It's easy to hide out in the cave, or pretend I'm still sleeping. Sometimes it's easier to procrastinate, run away from difficulty, and mostly hide from the truth. The year I had without remembering, that was a very happy year, because there was no worry, but I felt half missing, half empty, so in that way, it was also the saddest year I've had.

I really want to tell you, my feelings from the heart, hesitantly Toeto said no to that proposal.

I find it hard to tell him the things he must know. Especially when it would make him so happy. Am I scared of rejection?

"No, Sora, I'm fine." Actually, I'm crying inside, but don't make yourself sad. Show me a smile.

I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said.

I was once on the verge of telling him. I knew he'd take it well, but right when the words were about to come out-

"Never mind." My head turned away.

Etoeto, I said eto, I meant E-Toeto.

What I say is only what I mean about half the time. I wish someone would understand that.

Red-faced Toeto.

Eto eto cetera.

Blushing, rambling, zoning out... I don't think I'll ever summon enough courage to tell him outright.

She is regretful, and she begins to cry, it's all because of me, she said, Toeto.

It is my fault the he gets injured? Is it my fault that he has to kill? I don't know, but I do know that I don't want to think about it.

There is no such thing you know, please stop crying Toeto, I love that part of you, from heart to toe.

Yes, it's best not to think about it. After all, wouldn't he find a different reason to fight if I wasn't here? He was the type of person to save everyone, even strangers (Namine had proven that). Nothing I could do would change that. So it isn't all my fault.

I really want to tell you my feelings from the heart, hesitantly Toeto said no to that proposal.

I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said.

Etoeto, I said eto, I meant E-Toeto.

Why is it so hard for me? To only say three words? Like a death sentence, hanging over my head, I can only stall for time, procrastinate. Is telling him the right choice, anyway?

At the time I really really want to tell you how I feel, hesitantly Toeto will also bravely reach you.

I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said.

Etoeto, I said eto, hang in there Toeto.

Shaking my head, I turn away. Of course I'll tell him! ...Eventually...

She is there inside of me.

Taking a deep breath, I tap him on the shoulder.

"Um, Sora?" Come on, I can say it!

"Yeah?" That's right, keep going!

"...I...like..." Say it! Say it! "...chocolate cake." I finish lamely.

"Really? Me too! Huh? Why are you so red?" Is there a limit to how oblivious you can be?

Hang in there, Toeto.

Ayan~ Thanks for reading. Please review!