A/N: This is a 400 word Drabble. It doesn't have proper punctuation, it
doesn't have complete thoughts OR proper capitalization. It's a technique
that some famous author came up with. I'm just mimicing him. If you don't
like it, feel free to leave your thoughts. :) This is from Inu Yasha's
POV, but I'm sure you could probably figure that out, right?
(^_^);; Ja Ne? (_);;
For a minute, my life stopped. My heart didn't beat, it broke. I don't think I've ever been that scared in my entire life. For a minute, you weren't there. He said.... he told me that you'd gone. That I'd failed to protect you, like I'd promised before. And in that minute I rushed to your side, in the moment I thought you were gone, I wished you were still here so I could tell you all the things I'd forgotten. But then you weren't gone. and while I was still scared of loosing you, I kept my thoughts to myself.
Then, you almost died, at the hands of my own family. Because I was weak. Because I was prideful. and I hated myself for it. It seemed only logical to push you away the way I did. But then you were gone. I didn't see your smile. I didn't hear you laugh, and it killed me a little inside. I couldn't admit it to myself, but I found myself missing you. All of the little things you did. the way you smiled at me and our hands would brush I missed the way you would interrupt everything for a bath and I'd act angry, even though I didn't mind. the only reason I hated you leaving for your home was the chance you'd never come back to see me again. I was .... I am horrible to you, and I can understand you never wanting to see my face again
..... but God I couldn't live with that. I'm too selfish and I'm too greedy to let you slip away like that. and I know, that it sounds wrong, that I'd put your life on the line so I could be happy, but I see the way you smile around me, you're a little happy around me too. I may be insufferable, but I know inside of me that you're happy with me, and my pride and my stubborn way.
..... and I know sometimes you think, that I only love you because you may look like someone else. Because I think you look like my former lover. I guess I have to admit, that at first, that's what allowed you to become close to me. that's why I allowed you into my heart, but then, it was all you. it was because of your laugh and your smile and the way you depended on me in times of need. I guess I got a rush off of protecting you. No, I know I got a rush from being around you. you have the capability to change the world with your mood. and I see it everyday. you're caring and kind, and still stubborn and annoying. It's amazing to me how I can love you so much, and yet detest you.... and sometimes I may not understand exactly how I feel, or why I want to be near you, but can't it be enough right now that I want to be near you? can't that let us make it through the night, because-- just because I feel something so powerful for you, that I'm not sure it even has a name....?
(^_^);; Ja Ne? (_);;
For a minute, my life stopped. My heart didn't beat, it broke. I don't think I've ever been that scared in my entire life. For a minute, you weren't there. He said.... he told me that you'd gone. That I'd failed to protect you, like I'd promised before. And in that minute I rushed to your side, in the moment I thought you were gone, I wished you were still here so I could tell you all the things I'd forgotten. But then you weren't gone. and while I was still scared of loosing you, I kept my thoughts to myself.
Then, you almost died, at the hands of my own family. Because I was weak. Because I was prideful. and I hated myself for it. It seemed only logical to push you away the way I did. But then you were gone. I didn't see your smile. I didn't hear you laugh, and it killed me a little inside. I couldn't admit it to myself, but I found myself missing you. All of the little things you did. the way you smiled at me and our hands would brush I missed the way you would interrupt everything for a bath and I'd act angry, even though I didn't mind. the only reason I hated you leaving for your home was the chance you'd never come back to see me again. I was .... I am horrible to you, and I can understand you never wanting to see my face again
..... but God I couldn't live with that. I'm too selfish and I'm too greedy to let you slip away like that. and I know, that it sounds wrong, that I'd put your life on the line so I could be happy, but I see the way you smile around me, you're a little happy around me too. I may be insufferable, but I know inside of me that you're happy with me, and my pride and my stubborn way.
..... and I know sometimes you think, that I only love you because you may look like someone else. Because I think you look like my former lover. I guess I have to admit, that at first, that's what allowed you to become close to me. that's why I allowed you into my heart, but then, it was all you. it was because of your laugh and your smile and the way you depended on me in times of need. I guess I got a rush off of protecting you. No, I know I got a rush from being around you. you have the capability to change the world with your mood. and I see it everyday. you're caring and kind, and still stubborn and annoying. It's amazing to me how I can love you so much, and yet detest you.... and sometimes I may not understand exactly how I feel, or why I want to be near you, but can't it be enough right now that I want to be near you? can't that let us make it through the night, because-- just because I feel something so powerful for you, that I'm not sure it even has a name....?