Nothing to Gain
Disclaimer: I don't own
Digimon, nor will I ever and I'm getting pretty tired of writing stupid
disclaimers when people know very well that I don't own nor have the money
necessary to purchase it. So let's just leave it at that.
A/N: This will probably
be my last Digimon fic for a while and I plan for it to be different. Digimon
and other Digi-Destined will only have minor parts in this story. It mainly
focuses on all of the twelve Digi Destined growing up, leaving behind their
child hood. Dana is still featured in this and I will try not to give her a
very big or exaggerated roll, but she probably will have one…Sorry. I hope to leave you all in suspense and to
give you a more realistic feel towards the story. This story will also be told
from the person's point of view at somepoints…so if you get confused tell me.
If there is any change between point of views or scenes it will be noted with a
*.
Prologue
In all my life I never thought this would happen to
me. Well maybe I did think about it, but never thought that it would actually
happen so early in my life when I wasn't ready for this responsibility. So here
I am on a plane home for the first time in three years having never made
contact with anyone back home. They all must hate me. I wouldn't be surprised
if they did. I stifle a laugh at the thought of my mother trying to contact me.
By phone, letter and email. It's pretty pathetic what I had done, but it was
the only way I could think of leaving my old life behind. What better way then
to cease contact with all the people whom you know and love?
My friends here in America knew that
something was up with me, but I just denied it. Just like I denied having ever
gotten drunk that night at that stupid party and…oh I can't even say it! That's
why I'm on this plane now. Flight 109 too Tokyo, Japan. They don't even know
I'm coming. How stupid of me. I should just turn back now! I can't believe this
is happening to me! But, I've never been known to have the best of luck. So
here I am telling you my point of view. Here is what happened that day, the day
that I left my old life behind.
*
I woke up early one Saturday
morning, exited for what was to await me that day. That day was three years ago
when I didn't have the many responsibilities that would be bestowed upon me in
another six months. Mind you, I still had responsibilities but not of this
magnitude. Sure it was up to me to save the world a few times, but this! I
wasn't ready for. As I was saying…
I woke on a beautiful Saturday
morning, not a cloud in the sky, glad that another threat was put to rest. The
last few weeks were spent answering questions about what had happened on the
Internet and the others, as well as I were glad that it was over. The Digital
World was still safe from the clutches of human scientists wanting to dissect
it to find out what makes it and its inhabitants click. We managed to lie our
way through the many interviews, except for Joe who kept stammering with fear.
I quickly dressed into a pair of
comfortable jeans, a black and gray stripped turtleneck and a red fleece vest
and put my now somewhat lengthy hair in a ponytail that was quite high. I no
longer had the blue highlights in my hair. I can thank Kimimon, my other form
for that. As soon as I finished dressing I stepped out of my room and was
quickly greeted by the voice of my adoptive father.
"Good morning dear." He said as he
passed me by and stepped into the kitchen where I could smell bacon and eggs
being cooked by my adoptive mother.
As I stepped into the kitchen my
mother turned around and greeted me with her beautiful smile. Even if I wanted
to I could never forget the way she smiled at us when we walked into the
kitchen for breakfast. To me, she had fulfilled her destiny and was happy with
her life and at the time, so was I.
"Could you go and wake up Izzy
please." She asked politely. I nodded curtly and proceeded back the way I had
come.
I soon came to a closed door and put
my ear to it. I laughed when I heard snoring coming from the other side. Even
though I bugged Izzy all the time about his snoring, he still denied that he
snored at all. I quietly twisted the doorknob and stealthily made my way into
the room. I tiptoed to the bottom of his bed and I jumped.
*
A yelp and laughter soon followed Dana's little jump.
She had fulfilled her mission by scaring the heebee jeebees out of Izzy. He
rolled over on his bed and sat up just as Dana sat beside him convulsing with
laughter.
"What did you do that for?" He
asked, rather angry that this red headed hyena disturbed his slumber.
Dana looked at Izzy and was about to
reply when she started laughing again, but this time it would be Izzy who was
the one who would be laughing. Dana was laughing so hard that she knocked
herself off the bed and onto the floor. Izzy tried to contain himself but the
look on her face was just priceless as she fell. Dana stood up with a more
serious look on her face now.
"Mom told me to come and wake you
up, so I did." She said as she turned to leave. "Breakfast is ready."
Just after Dana had left his room,
Izzy began to dress and was out of his room in no time, sitting at the table
with the rest of his family for their morning breakfast.
He soon appeared in the kitchen
wearing an orange T-shirt and blue cargo pants. Dana was sitting at the table
chatting with their father while their mother listened attentively to the
conversation that was taking place. Izzy sat down right in the middle of the
conversation and his mother passed him his breakfast.
"…And just as I walked into the sound
room I slipped and fell right on my butt." Dana said, laughing. "I can just
picture my legs going out from under me." She said gleefully as she continued
to laugh at her stupidity.
Both Mr. and Mrs. Izumi joined in as
well. The house resonated with laughter.
"What happened?" Izzy questioned as
he shoved a fork-full of eggs in his mouth.
"Dana was just telling us about
yesterday when she and the band were setting up for tonight's concert." Mrs.
Izumi stated as she got up and took her plate with her over to the sink area.
Dana giggled. "You should've seen
them all dad. They looked like they had been sucking back laughing gas." She
said. "And Dan. Man does he ever laugh funny!"
"So what are your plans for today
you two?" Mrs. Izumi asked as she began to clear the table. Mr. Izumi had since
picked up his paper and unfolded it, but waited until his children were
finished answering his wife's question.
"Well I thought it would be
obvious." Dana stated. "I have a concert tonight to prepare for and I have lots
of practice ahead of me for tonight."
"What about you Izzy?"
"Well, the rest of us thought we
would go and be their "audience" while they practiced." He said and then gulped
down the rest of his orange juice. "And help with some of the set up."
"Are you going to come tonight?"
Dana inquired to both parentals.
Mr. and Mrs. Izumi looked at one
another.
"I don't see
why not." Mrs. Izumi said. "I think it will be fun. I haven't been to a concert
since before we were married."
Suddenly the doorbell rang and Dana yelled; "I'll get
it!" And quickly bolted out of the small kitchen and down the hall where the
door was. There was a loud crash.
"I think we should move that shoe rack. That thing is
always getting in the way." Mrs. Izumi rolled her eyes in thought as she dried the
dishes. It was obvious that Dana had once again tripped over it in her
excitement to reach the door.
Dana quickly picked herself up off
of the floor and opened the door. She was expecting to see a certain someone
who was supposed to come by and pick her and Izzy up.
"Heeeelo." Matt said as Dana opened
the door, but he wasn't the only one standing there. TK had come along as well.
"Morning." TK said as Dana invited
them in. TK noticed the mangled shoe rack and a look of question crossed over
his featured. "Uh…" He said as he looked at the shoe rack.
"You tripped over it again, didn't
you." Matt said as he looked at Dana.
"Uh…yeah." She said as she ushered
them out of the door way and then quickly pilled up the numerous shoes.
"Dana who is it?" Mr. Izumi yelled
from the kitchen.
"Just Matt and TK dad." She answered
back.
"Dana, dear, could you please put
the shoes away properly this time instead of just piling them up near the
door." Came Mrs. Izumi's voice. Dana cringed.
"Now I wonder how she knew that."
Matt stated sarcastically.
Dana stuck her tongue out at him and
walked into the kitchen.
"Izzy are you ready to go?" Dana
asked.
"Yeah." He said as he got up off of
his seat and then left with Dana, Matt and TK to the concert hall.
*
The concert was a big success. Everyone had pitched
in and helped with the stage equipment. The band was very grateful and also
surprised that nothing had been broken. Davis had been running around the stage
while Ken and Izzy were fixing up the lighting. The crowd cheered the band on
and oddly enough threw stuffed animals and roses at the stage.
"That such a wicked concert!" Davis yelled happily
as the group Digi Destined made their way to the bands dressing rooms after the
concert.
The walked contently as they chatted about the
concert and the fact that tomorrow was another school day. Tai shrieked when he
found out that he still had a history project to do. Finally they came to the
door that lead off into a type of main dressing room, but Matt's fellow band
members and two other girls were standing outside.
*
Behind the closed doors Dana and
Matt stood on opposite ends of the room. Karynn and Tianna had just given her
the greatest news. They had come all the way to Japan to ask her to once again
be apart of KTD or what they were soon to be known as. Silver Dragon. They were
going from pop to rock!
"Are you going to go with them?"
Matt questioned from the opposite side of the room.
Dana just stood there. She didn't want to answer him, but
knew she had too. "If you want me to stay I will." She said. "It's no big
deal-really it's not." She said as her voice wavered.
Matt knew that it was a big deal. A very big deal to her and the choice
he was about to make would hurt her, yes it would, but he knew that this was
what her dream was and he wanted her to follow it.
"I think we should end our relationship." He blurted out without even
thinking.
Dana's head shot up. "What?" She asked quietly. "Did you just say that…"
"It's getting kind of boring being with the same person all of the
time." He said, trying to sound as mean as he could. All the while trying to
contain his sadness while breaking her heart.
"You can't mean that!" She said as her eyes started to water. "Everything
was fine this morning…what happened!" She demanded as the tears streamed down
her face.
"Nothing. I've been feeling this way for quite sometime now." He said.
"I just didn't know how to tell you." He stated coldly.
Dana wrapped her arms around herself. "You of all people-I never
expected this." She said and then looked at him one last time with silvery
tears dancing in her eyes as she fought too keep them from falling anymore than
they already had. "If that's what you want then…" She said and then ran out of
the room and into the crowd of friends waiting for them.
Matt slumped to the floor and held his head in his hands. "I'm sorry."
He muttered under his breath.
*
TK was
about to ask what was going on the door burst open and out ran Dana, crying.
She didn't even stop as she fought her way through the crowd that was her
friends. Izzy ran after her and quickly stopped her. It seemed as if she were
in shock, so Izzy held her by her arms to steady her.
"Dana what wrong?" He questioned.
"I'm going…" She said, as she
seemed to look right past Izzy trying not to make eye contact with him.
"Going?" He questioned. "Going
where?"
"I'm going. Not you or mom or dad
can stop me!" She yelled as she pushed Izzy away and ran off. Izzy just looked
on as she ran away. He wondered what had happened to her to make her ramble on
like that, but her would find out soon enough as Matt stepped out of the
dressing room. A depressed look coming across his features.
"Matt what
happened?" Tai asked with a look of concern on his face.
"I-I dumped
her." He said. His voice barely above a whisper.
"You what!"
Mimi, Sora, Mika, Yolei and Kari stated.
Matt didn't
answer. He just walked away. He wanted to be left alone.
*
After that I ran home and began to pack
all of my belongings into suitcases for my trip. My parents and Izzy came home
soon after I had left. My parents suggested that they leave me alone, which was
quite a good suggestion for I was literally tearing up my room packing my
things. Izzy didn't heed my parent's warning and I knew that he watched from my
doorway as I silently cried myself to sleep that night. He didn't say one word
of comfort. I guess he wanted me to know that he was there without having to
say something.
I left for the airport the day after
with my two friends. My rock career was about to start, but I wasn't at all
exited. Every one of my friends had good tidings to give me, not once
mentioning the night before at the concert. I didn't cry as I boarded the
plain, just waved and said goodbye. It was finally time to say goodbye to my
old life. Too leave it behind so that I could forget. Forget about everything.
That was my plan all along. I did everything I could to forget, including
ceasing contact with everyone I knew.
So here I am now. My plain has just landed in Tokyo
airport and it's time to face reality. I managed to get a cab after that and
told the driver where to take me. I was carefully concealed behind my Calvin
Klein sunglasses as he drove on. For the first time in three years I was going
home.
*
I knocked on the same door that I had entered so many
times before and patiently waited for someone to answer the door. I began to
figit and my breaths began to slow as I heard footsteps from inside. Please
don't be angry with me. Please. I think to myself as the door opens….
*
"Dana?" Izzy asked bewildered. In the last three
years he had grown so much Dana almost didn't even recognize him.
"Yeah it's me." She said as she pulled off her
sunglasses and then was suddenly enveloped in a big hug. Izzy pulled her, along
with her baggage into the house quickly after that. Dana removed her coat and
shoes as Izzy looked at her.
"What?" She asked as she stood upright.
"You look different." He said as he rested his chin
in his palm. "Besides what's with the clothes?" He asked and then continued. "They
look like they're three sizes to big?"
"I-uh…"Dana was about to finish her response when she
heard someone else.
"Izzy who is it?" Mrs. Izumi asked.
Before Izzy could say a word Dana walked right past
him and into the living room where her father was reading the paper and her
mother was knitting. Izzy was right behind her.
"Izzy who is…" She said as she looked up from the
scarf that she was crafting. "Dana-is that you!?" She said quietly as she stood
up and M. Izumi put his paper down.
Dana eyes began to water. Everyone just stood there
until Dana broke into a run towards her mother. They hugged each other fiercely
as Dana cried into her shirt.
"I'm so sorry mom." She said as tears streamed down
her face.
Mrs. Izumi tried to comfort her as she lead her to
the couch where she sat themselves down. Dana continued to cry and Mrs. Izumi
could not understand why she was crying so much. She knew that Dana was crying
because she felt bad about what she had done. It was mother's intuition, even
though she was not Dana's real mother, she could still sense it. But there was
something else that was wrong. Something that had Dana worried.
Mrs. Izumi took Dana's face in her hands and lifted
it to where she could see. The crystalline tears streaming down her face. She
looked into her eyes and something was definitely bothering her. It just wasn't
the guilt of leaving and making no contact whatsoever with them. It was definitely
something bigger.
"Dana tell me what's wrong?" She asked casually.
Dana hesitated a moment. "Nothing-nothing at all. I was
just afraid that you would all be mad at me for what I've done."
Mrs. Izumi stared at her for a moment. Dana
straightened herself up on the couch, slouching a bit to make herself
comfortable. This was unusual because Dana had always sat up straight.
"That's not it." Mrs. Izumi said. "Something else is
bothering you."
Dana looked horrified at her mother's comment. Izzy
noticed and intervened.
"Mom leave her be. She obviously feels guilty about
leaving." He stated.
"He's right dear." Mr. Izumi said.
"Oh no. Something else is bothering you Dana Izumi
and I demand to know what it is." She stated firmly, but calmly.
Dana looked even more horrified now that she realized
she would have to tell them her secret. Her mother wasn't letting this
one go. Dana knew that she would have to tell them sometime, not to mention
that they would find out, even if she tried to hide it. It was time.
Dana sighed and stared off into space. "After I left
everything was fine. Everything started out great. My manager gave me the
perfect sweet sixteen gift when she announced that we had a record contract
with Universal records. It was everything I had ever wanted and dreamed of but
I found out the hard way that these things don't last forever." She sighed and
looked around to make sure everyone was paying attention and then continued.
"Last year was when everything went down the toilet.
Karynn and Tianna were enjoying the fruits of fame and got into drugs, mostly
marijuana. I objected and when asked to try it I declined and shrugged it off
as a onetime thing. Then the parties began. They invited anyone and everyone to
them just to get drunk. I managed to stay clear of the booze, but as I found
out three months ago, even I'm not immune to getting drunk and doing very, very
stupid things." She sighed as her voice wavered. "I'm pregnant mom and now you
know."
*
A/N: Aren't I evil! I am so mean!
I just thought this would make a good plot and the story was inspired by
various things…all of which I cannot remember…*dangit!* I hope you all enjoyed
this part and expect more drama in the following chapters. I would also really
appreciate your reviews! Thanks. ~Ducky
