His honey dipped eyes glared hard in to the crackling orange and yellow flames of the fire. She was gone there was no way to deny it anymore. Once the wind witch joined the group her beautiful singing that made him smile always in secret, the smell of spring flowers and luscious red roses combined that made him inhale deeply just to keep the scent in his nostrils a little longer, her twinkling chocolate crème eyes that out shone any star in his world, powder pink lips that always had a gorgeous smile, it was all gone she left and since the rainy season had started her scent was hard to find. It was still hard after three years of searching. He whispered her name into the wind and sighed. Jaken looked at Lord Sesshomaru in silence, ever since Rin disappeared he was crueler, more quite than usual, always gone with Kaugra some of the time Kaugra would have bruises on her writs and throat sometimes her kimono was torn, bloody cuts and scratches marred her face and neck. It made Jaken wonder at one time what happened to her but he reminded himself quickly…Lord Sesshomaru had gone with her. / Punishment/ Jaken thought quickly. She is the main reason Rin was no longer here with them. Jaken was startled out of his thoughts when his master arose and mumbled that he was leaving and do not have Kaugra follow him. In a swift motion of white splash of silver swords and red Lord Sesshomaru was gone. / my master what will happen now since your soul mate is now lost forever it seems/ Jaken thought as he rolled over to Kaugra who was curled up underneath the pine tree asleep. / witch you have been nothing but trouble I hope you die a miserable death/ he cursed as he rolled onto his side and let sleep take him.

Sesshomaru walked alone in the dark forest of his brother's name. Inuyahsa was now married to Kagome the girl of the future. Miroku and Sango are getting married in the fall season. Did Rin Marry? The very thought made Sesshomaru's blood boil in his veins. She belonged to no one but him! How dare she let another man touch her! If she ever did he didn't know, he didn't know at all anymore. His intended left him, cold and alone but how could he not blame her. She heard what was said that night to Kaugra, she saw him mark the witch and howl that that the witch was his mate. Sesshomaru leaned against the mighty oak tree and sighed sadly, she felt the hot sting of his clawed hand slap across her face. He remember watching that thin line of blood run down her cheek. Her chocolate creamed eyes looking bewildered at him as if asking Lord Sesshomaru what did I do? Sesshomaru clutched the middle of his chest painfully. He knew his heart was thumping against his rib cage at the painful memory. His mind played the flashback of everything. He slumped into the dirt, he tried so hard to push the tears back, "no not again" he begged to his demon. His demon shook its head and laughed at its human counterpart. "Sesshomaru you caused this, you let the one good thing slip out of our grasp….all because of what?" his demon growled low almost a death hoarse sound that made Sesshomaru close his eyes in anguish. The flashback brought on the most violent headaches that made him nauseated not just by the pain but the images they brought. The harsh slap to Rin's creamy white cheek made Sesshomaru's head snap to the side in the same way. This was his punishment and he knew it every pain he brought to his almost bride happened to him. At the end of it his whole body would shiver, some of the cuts would heal in a few short minutes, but the harsh reality the cuts and bruises he left on Rin would not have healed as fast. She would have to look at herself everyday and wonder what she did wrong, Sesshomaru curled up onto his side and closed his eyes. He listened to the sounds of the forest. He tried to imagine Rin laying next to him, petting his long silver main like she always did. He tried so hard but his mind wouldn't let him have the pleasure of that thought. No he rid himself of a princess that would have loved him no matter what and he knew it all along, the fact of her human state was what caused him to do this horrid act, the woman he fell in love with was human… God why? WHY did he let selfish pride get in the way of this once in a life time opportunity? A woman who would have loved him for what he was not for all the riches the castles the notoriety. She just wanted one thing one small wondrous thing that he knew she would treasure always till the day the world would stop turning…..his heart. He laid there not knowing what to do now. His angel was gone he hadn't seen heard touched smelled anything of hers in three years. He wasn't even sure he would find her….or even if she wanted to be found. Sesshomaru looked to the midnight star sky, "Kami if you can hear me…please let her come back to me. I promise to love honor and cherish her. I will never lay a hand on her in a spiteful way my hands will always be loving on her sweet body. PLEASE let her come back to me…have her forgive me please?" he whispered to the sky. Each star twinkling he glared at the. What right did they have to glimmer and shine like that when his lover left him out of his stupidity. He shook his head and began walking back to camp slowly so he could control his emotions in check. The flickering flame came into view and his heart sank once again knowing that Rin wouldn't be there, Sitting up and waiting on him to return with a smile big and bright on her slender sweet face. God he would do anything to hold her kiss her and tell her how much he missed her. God he wanted so bad to tell her that he loved her that night but his pride…. No he would not get into that now must keep a level head right now there would be another time to let his heart barred him around to the point the pain was mind numbing. He came into camp and noticed Jaken sitting near the flame slowly nodding off. "MASTER!" Jaken yelled as he was met with a foot. "Silence you fool" he said in a hush whisper. It meant to sound angry and cross but it almost came out in to a whimper. His mind was still on Rin and Jaken knew it, all too well the toad knew how much his master missed the human girl… no human woman. He had to admit he himself missed her sweet humming at night. She was annoying but sweet as any sweet treat older human sell on the side of the road. "Master are you alright I know this is the night RI….." "SILENCE!" Sesshomaru roared jolting Kaugra out of her almost dead like sleep. She sat in fear watching the imp toad demon and Sesshomaru who glared the most disturbing glare she had ever seen, but Jaken wasn't fazed at all. "Master are you going to continue with running around with your tail tucked between your legs every time the date of her disappearance comes around?" Jaken asked knowing he may have just said his last words to the great Demon lord of the west. Sesshomaru growled a warning letting Jaken know he was stepping on dangerous ground placing himself out like that. "Jaken you have become very smart and mind spoken or you have become very foolish and seek a death wish to meet the demons of hell now which is it?" Sesshomaru growled low but still Jaken keep his normal same face. "My lord I only wish you to know I too miss Rin, but I am sorry to say this master…you made your bed now you can lie in it. I give you my staff I no longer wish to serve you as long as you are giving up your search for Rin and you are still mated to that thing you call a woman." Jaken tossed his two headed staff at Sesshomaru's feet and began to walk away. "You are going to let him talked to you like that. I told you before Sesshomaru no matter how many times you hurt me I will always be here you can't get rid of me I won't let you find that filthy hum-" Sesshomaru grasped Kaugra by her throat, His eyes blood crimson. "You will NEVER take her place wench you were nothing but a mistake I have no desire to bed you any longer." He snarled out. Kaugra clawed at his hands and gasped out , "If you kill me…. I wouldn't be able to tell you were Rin is…" Sesshomaru stared at her with wide eyes and Jaken froze and quickly turned around. " you wench " Jaken growled low and Sesshomaru's grip tightened, " Where is my beloved bitch! How long have you kept her from me?" Sesshomaru growled low in the back of his throat.