(A/N) This is my first story, so please be nice! English is my second language so there might be a few spelling mistakes and I'm sorry for that! Soo, I begun to watch Criminal Minds and I was like, what the hell? Morgan and JJ have like a huge amount of chemistry and I'm now halfway through the second season and my opinion has not changed. I would love for them to get together but I know that it's not likely that it is going to happen and I'm so angry for that. So I took out my aggression on a story and I really hope that you will like it! xoxo A

BREAKING THE SILENCE

"If there ever comes a day when we cannot be together, keep me in your heart, I will stay there forever."

"Dear Diary,

I am sick of always trying to smile, to let everybody know that I'm fine. I just want them to stop asking and start living their own lives you know? I know that they are only trying to look out for me but I am not a little girl anymore, I can take care of myself and I just hope that they realize it soon so I can go on living. My brother isn't coming back just because I stay in the past so I am doing the complete opposite, a new beginning. This year is going to be different, I'll be different.

Love,

Jennie"

The storm outside was getting worse and Jennifer could hear the wind blowing through the old house. Tomorrow was the first day of junior year and by the looks of it, there was going to rain. She just hoped that Haley could come pick her up in the morning so she wouldn't have to walk to the other side of town.

She put her journal back on the bedside table and turned to the floor to reassure herself that the grey pit bull was still asleep before turning the lights off. But the thoughts of what happened still hunted her. If only Samuel could come back, he was the strong one. When mum died, he was the one that talked at the funeral and still went looking for Jennie when she disappeared at the reception afterwards. And now he was gone, leaving her to deal with everything. A wave of hatred filled her for a moment, how could he just leave her like that? She had no one, everyone was gone. Of course dad was still here, but he wasn't around a lot, always travelling in business so she was alone quite a lot, there was only the old housekeeper who she swore were as old as the house. But now, it was only her and the dog snoring on the floor next to the bed.

"Why is it so hard to wake up, mornings should be illegal" Jennie thought as she heard the alarm clock go off. Groaning she turned around only to hear something down by her feet. - Bentley, how many times do I have to tell you? You are too big to be sleeping in my bed. The dog just turned his head the other way with a sight. - Fine, be that way. She shook her head and sat up before leaving the warm bed to put a robe on. All her life, she had been scared of dogs, probably due to what happened to her in third grade when she had walked in to a barn with two German Shepherds inside. Jennie still had scars on her arms from that day, so when her dad told her they needed to buy a dog to keep her company while he was away she hadn't said a word, she just left him there at the dinner table. But in time she had begun to ease up to the thought and when they had gone to an animal center and she saw Bentley for the first time, it was like the incident had never happened and her fear for dogs was now limited to German Shepherds.

Going in to the kitchen she immediately walked to the fridge to see if there was anything eatable in there. She would have to eat something because the tryout for the soccer team would be today. Looking through it, she noticed that Patricia, the old woman working for her dad, had gone shopping last night and brought home what seemed to be food for the entire town. - Thank you, thank you, thank you. When she was done eating, she put everything in their rightful place to make it easier for Patricia when she got here.

As Jennie put everything in to her bag, she heard Bentley walking downstairs and she knew that he thought it was time for their morning jog that they had done all summer. – I'm sorry, not today. He just looked at her with those eyes he knew he couldn't resist; he was too clever for his own good sometimes. – There is no time and Greg is coming to take care of you while I am in school. She walked in to the kitchen and filled his bowls with food and water just as she heard Haley pull her car up in front of the house. She shut the door and locked it, this was it. This year, Jennifer Jareau would be someone in school, not just the friend of Elle Greenaway and Haley Reid.