My wish on a star

It has been 7 months since you said those new words to me … I remember it like it was yesterday. You came down from your submarine without armament, you were kinda nervous, I had no idea of what was going on. You took me under a palm tree of that lonely beach, on the opposite side of the island … You looked at the sky and your eyes began to acquire a bright tone, you took off your hat, gave it to me, looked me … "Eustass-ya!" … I liked the sound of my name on your lips.

You blushed madly and you came over to me … "I love you" uttered. My heart raced … I held you, you smiled as you never actually did it before, I kissed you. My feelings corresponded yours idiot, ¿why you cried? You foolishly said thanks and gave me your hand. Your hands were warm, your hair soft at the touch, I liked to feel the warmth of your body, I liked how you looked at me with those small and dark eyes … I liked it a lot … I loved you, Trafalgar, I really did … and I never said a simple "I love you" … those words never came out of my mouth … I'm sorry … I beg you to forgive me.

I enjoyed my time with you, it seemed that those beautiful moments were eternal … you, me and nobody else. It was perfect.

… … … …

Say my name " … " please " … " say it out " … " Don't shut up, don't remain silent! " … " DAMN LAW! " … "

Why? … Why don't you name me? Why are you silent! Why you're not with me! Why are you away from me! WHY YOU FORSAKEN ME!

You're lying there like an idiot … is what you are, Trafalgar.

I approach to you … you don't perturb. I touch you … Your body is cold as ice … I stare at you … your eyes remain closed … I kiss you … you taste like blood… "Surgeon of Death! HAHAHA! In the end she defeated you motherfucker!" … I say it vainly, waiting for an answer. You don't move, you're not warm, you don't kiss me, you don't say my name … nothing … just silence.

Damn it, Law … LOOK AT ME! You're an idiot and a fucking dreamer! You thought you could defeat that motherfucking asshole! Don't make me laugh … I try to say those words with cruelty, but I can't do it… Sorry, I should have helped you and stop pretending in front of others … my love was more important.

They take me away from you … I see how your mates get you into a boat and drag you to the see … They set the boat on fire … I see you burning and getting away from me … FUCK! Why don't you get up! Why don't you come here! Why don't you ask me for help! … Why … tears fall down my face?

Strongly, I grab your white hat, I move away from there, leaving my crewmates with yours … I don't want to be there.

I return to my ship and I lock myself in my room ... I throw everything to the floor. I'm very angry … I look your hat … "stupid" … I scream and fall to the ground on my knees.

… I've decided, I don't care …

I leave my room with your hat on my hands. I get on the top of the ship. I take my coat off and I throw it away with your hat. This night is cold … I look to the sky, the moon shines and there are millions of stars adorning it.

I see a big and beautiful star in the north … the north … reminds me of you, you were from the north, isn't it?

I stare at it, and ask a desire for both of us … I don't regret anything.

I walk a few steps, my body falls … I'm falling into the sea … while I fall I look at my ship "Sorry guys" I say with a smile on my lips.

The water touches my skin, is frost … my body weighs, I have no strength. I look to heaven as I sink … I see the moon again … I raise my arm as I can … "I love you, Law" I say.

I can't… anymore… I can hardly breathe … I smile at the north star before life gets away from me … I hope my wish to meet you again come true ... my dear Trafalgar Law.