This story was inspired in "Their Boss", one of the best stories I have read.

Nothing of Katekyo Himan Reborn is mine, just this story and maybe some adding that will appear later in the story.

Please, enjoy the reading.

Family of the Past

Chapter 1

-… Are you fine?

No one could open their mouths to say something, and less to give an answer to that cold and monotonous voice, totally emotionless… and the person who was the owner didn't escape of so cold and lifeless tone of voice, his white suit cover with fresh blood as his gloved hands, and his unfeeling face do not help in anything to vanish the fear that they feel, they want to run of that monster, of that assassin, of the creature that seems uncaring about absolutely everything, that seems to no see the blood in his hands even though he was carefully examining them and also no the bloody corpse which was in from of him... his cold, tired and lifeless eyes, seems unable to see another thing that the air itself, and even if his words had a hint of worry, they couldn't register it watching the scene... it was truly terrific…

Given the lack of response, Tsuna looked at his Family, just to see them totally petrified and pale of fear, he looked once again at his hands and then the corpse that he recently killed... he sighed lightly, he must had looked horrible doing such act, but... it was the best... if no... he doesn't want even to think about it, besides everything was entirely his fault, so all the consequences must fall on him, they have anything about everything that was and is happening, but... for his fault, they are paying the price of something they haven't done, watching something so disgusting and horrible in his point of view... perhaps it was not the best decision nor act, but... it was the best for them...

- I… I will call the medic team... I will come back...

He murmured loud enough to be heard without problems, but he doesn't need to see to know that any of his words have been heard, even with the knowledge of all this, he couldn't stop feeling a great punch in his heart... after all, they are his family, and they aren't the only affected nor the only hurt. And for more sadness, they have already tainted their hands with blood before, so that reaction, to him anyway, was silly and innocent, and at the same time it tells him that nothing of this will be forgotten... and probably it will never be forgiven either...

Two long years have passed since that day, two years alone in this place... everything had changed since that horrible day, but even with all he does regret anything, it was the best after all, and... it is worthy of every second of this stormy agony, it truly worth and worth this suffering... everybody is fine thanks to that, that is what matter, he was only being too selfish begging for more than he has and he knows it, but still he couldn't avoid wanting be with his family and be welcome again, but... that will never happen, he is a monster now and deserved this loneliness which is killing him... slowly but successful, like a deadly poison that first paralyzes its prey to kill it after slowly, piece to piece...

He wants to die, that is what he wants more than anything, but he denies to satisfice his wish yet, perhaps because the little hope that still is wrapped strongly in his broken heart, or maybe because to no want to leave his family in their totally luck without be able to help them, to no talk about he still has not success in find someone who could be in charge of Vongola, it can't fall in hands of anybody... that's why he needs to hurry and leave someone a lot better than him as the Vongola Tenth, he knows that he isn't worth even to pronounce those words, but no matter what he do... the ring always come back to him, denying every candidate, it is really stubborn, and for some reason he feels that the ring is angry with him for wanting drop his position... but he doesn't understand why, he already has done everything possible to protect his family, but everything had been in vain... he has fallen, and in big, he is no worthy to be called Vongola Tenth, and even less Neo Primo... he doesn't even want to think how the others bosses before him are taking this, he already was delirious enough with all this almost unbreakable silence to think about that or ask the air... they could just ignore him or answer him, and he is a coward because he doesn't want to know the answer.

Truly, to be totally honest with himself, he just has left give them the great surprise of a new a better boss, and, next his death... that was the best he could give them: his death, they won't have a burden anymore, an useless, an assassin and a monster that could interrupt and make them mad... he knew very well that since that day he was no... accepted anymore, he had broken the rules when he did an action so cruel, even though it was for a good purpose, an assassination is an assassination, and no one can change that... they don't want him anymore, even if it was an act since the beginning, it truly hurts too much... he doesn't care if all was planned before he had met Reborn or not, and even if it was and nothing he knows wasn't real, he still would do everything for them, for their well-being... for their happiness, no caring more than that, he loves them so much to care anything else than their well-being and happiness... that is what makes worthy all this suffering that was eating his heart...

He sighed audibly finishing the last paper of the pile, and of the week too... it was just Monday, so now he doesn't have something to entertain himself and escape from the reality that torment him so much, he just has to meet Dino-san and then he could go to his bedroom until the next week, with nothing to do and with the sad reality below he lives, when the work routine starts once again: the paperwork, something that before was his personal hell and now is his safe live system...

Few drops fell on the papers he was working, almost immediately he pressed his palms on his cheeks in a natural reflect to clean the tears, he doesn't want to wet the papers he was working with, he can't have the luxury to wet them with tears, or anything else for the matter... he slapped his face painfully, he can't cry, at least no now, he has a meeting with Dino-san in short, in fact, he should be here now... he deeply sigh and close his eyes, he needs to calm himself and concentrate in what he has to do, he can't cry... no now at least, he doesn't have time nor the luxury of doing that.

No long after he stopped crying, he had to erase the evidence quickly, he doesn't want Dino-san nor anyone know about his pain and suffering, it was his and only his, also he wants the pity or shame of nobody... it was better in that way... he deserves it anyway, he had made all this since he took the ring as part of himself and accepted, in consequence, this job... all was his fault, he knew very well that since the beginning he would carry disgrace to every place he went, but he couldn't avoid blind himself in the hope that everything would be right... truly he was and is and stupid and a dreamer...

- Tenth... Cavellone h-has arri-ved...

He heard a soft female voice said, one he heard perfectly because of so much time in silence, any noise was like a scream in those conditions, in a normal situation, very probably she won't have been heard, and something that isn't true. No with only the noise of the sheets of paper being move from a place to other, from a pile to other, the noise of the pen while writing and his silently breath... that have been for hours before the no expected coming of that voice.

- Let him enter...

He answered without any doubt, not even blinking, he was already used to be alone and being talked in fear, like the voice of now, trembling in insecurity and fear, he doesn't need to see to know that its own was shaking and looking every place less where he is, and that she was only there because she was forced by the others members of the family, because no one liked to come to this place...

- Y-ye-es-s.

He sighed softly when he heard the close of the door, a crack somewhat forcing because the lack of use. It isn't like he could blame her for that simple act of presence and the characteristic shuttering of a person very nervous, she was in front of a monster, it was more than obvious that she feared for her live... everybody would be like that in her place, it was understandable, but it still hurts... but, it was something foolish in his opinion, he hasn't had done something to somebody in this place for years, maybe he was forgetting something?

Nevertheless, he doesn't understand why it hurts him so much when this have been happening with all his family and for that, he had expected since the beginning that the pain just lower, but the pain just has made itself deeper and bigger, every time more badly, like for every single tear a long sharp knife went through his heart and someone move it inside of his heart... but that example is nothing to the reality, there is not knife in his heart and there is no one moving with energy with clear intentions of hurt and dame him, with the purpose of causing the most damage possible before finish him... but he wishes that it was like that, then it could be just a little pain instead of so much, and with the first one he would be chained to die... the second one, the true one, doesn't have clues of an close end by itself...

- Hey, how are you, little brother?

He almost jumped lightly in surprise when he heard Dino, where did he come?, he heard nothing, not even the sound of his steps, which should be audible in this silence, but wasn't like that to him. However, he managed to calm fast, he cannot ruin the things even more than they already are, at least no to Dino-san... no when he looked so happy and cheerful, no when he was fine and his family too, it isn't fair to ruin his happiness with some unnecessary problem nor with foolish worries, also... he was one of the few that still worried in, at least, how he was and comes to see everything rarely, in fact, if he doesn't remember bad, this is the first time that he sees him in person since he was alone... but, really he couldn't tell, because if that was true, then said suspect would mean that happened almost three years ago, and this is not exaggerating, but he was the first in come to visit (if he can call it like that) in a very long time, probably to see how everything id and how he is leading Vongola, it is very possible that the information of being a dangerous walking treat was being speaking and it was heard by him... if that was the case, sure it took its sweet time to spread, or maybe there was something more there that he wasn't seeing or didn't know, in any case he doubts he has another reason for his fast and weird visit.

- I am very good, thanks for asking… How is everything there Dino-san?

He answered and asked for courtesy, he doesn't have desires to talk and less to start a conversation of any kind, but he doesn't have many options, does he?, he only hopes it will be short... no matter how happy was him to see Dino-san, he doesn't feel comfortable to talk with him, and he doesn't trust his own voice so much... after all, he doesn't remember when was the last time he said more than 3 entire sentences, it could have been days or even years for all he knows...

- We are better than fine, and drop already the "-san", we are brothers, so there shouldn't be a "-san" in middle.

I am so sorry, Dino-san, but you know as well as me that is a total lie which me nor you believe, also, we don't know each other so well to me feel comfortable with just calling you by just your name just or a title below of san... however, I just gave you a little smile as your only answer, you just got confused by it and then you made a light frown, giving me for sure that you understood perfectly my answer. However, you didn't give comments or questions about it... Honestly, I don't know how I can speak without problems, after all, it is weird for me to talk or just speak... I shouldn't be able to speak, at least without coughing, having a dry pronunciation or too hoarsely and low, at least for all I know anyway, because like this I won't have any other worry than just hide my hands, knowing they will give me away immediately... and I don't want to have a conversation nor give explanations about that and anything related...

- I see that you have changed a lot, Tsuna-kun…

He heard another voice, a young and curious voice, one he hasn't heard in what it seemed years, something that maybe it is true, even though he doesn't want to know if it was true or no.

-… ¿Emma?, oh sorry, I didn't see you…

He apologized for just courtesy, lightly surprise, did two persons have come to see him?, it was incredible in his opinion, dumbfounded would be the best word to describe how he feels, adding he is full of suspicion too... he doesn't know very well what to think, this couldn't be a coincidence, there must be a reason behind this visit that he is very sure he doesn't want to know...

- Oh I know, don't worry too much, and I am very good thanks you, you are very kind.

He truly doesn't like to repeat questions or that was what Tsuna thought with what he said, but at least he answered the question, but... truly it surprises me to see him here, it was weird that someone would come to my office voluntarily, and not mention in such happy mood, which is by itself extraordinary, but I never thought it would be two persons, even less from my family... Nevertheless, he was totally taken by surprise in hug from both, and hair messed in the process at the same time...

- How did you two end together?

He managed to ask when both let him go, trying to keep cool and distract himself about how his muscles hurt... and something more he doesn't want to recognize at the moment.

- I hid/ he hid in the limousine after the meeting of my family with his.

He couldn't stop himself of shaking his head in lightly fun, typical, really typical, you only could wait surprises in this family... although it shouldn't had been easy, escaping from his own family... same as me in the long past, they love him so much and that's why they are so overprotective with him, I can't blame them, the live in the mafia is really dangerous, in a moment you are alive and in the next one you could be dead... but, that only makes me wonder how will be the chaos, if it hasn't started, which is really high doubly, or if Emma had already calm them down... and if it wasn't like that, he sure did a very good planning.

- Do they know…?

Better to erase the doubts, I won't be surprised if there are some explosions later if they don't know... adding the cellphone calling.

- Oh yes, there is no problem, Dino will take me back.

- Since when?

- Since now.

It sure was fun watching them talk like that, he sighs... so nostalgic…

- And your guardians?

He starlet for a moment, but quickly recovered, that was suddenly, but he should had expected that, after all... in the past, always was one of them with him, and now he was alone... it is normal to ask, curiosity, right?, but he can't say the truth... he doesn't want problems, not for him nor someone else.

- Actually, they are in missions...

He started to cold sweat, that is the truth, but they are looking at him fixedly and that is making him nervous... he squeezed his hand down the desk, he can't give himself the luxury of trembling now…

- Everybody?

- E-h yes.

- Why didn't you leave someone here?

- They select their own missions.

In a part it is true, he isn't lying at all, they select their own missions and disappear for long time before complete them and leave the report then immediately search for another mission, doing it again and again as a routine with the goal of no stay much time close to him or inside the mansion... in fact, they usually leave their report in his office while he was in a break to not see him... in other view, it was his own fault for allow that freedom, but he doesn't regret it and maybe it was the best fir everybody... Vongola is his responsibility; they don't have to take part of his duty...

- I don't think so, I highly doubt that anyone is here, they are like mine, and they never leave me alone... if not even worse...

- Although, it is really weird and rare not see Hayato here, he is always at your side...

- Hayato has a special mission to do; he will be out for a long time for my orders.

That was the best half lie he could think in so short time... calm, calm and relax, you need to be relax and in calm, not act like the coward and scary cat that you are, at least while they are here...

- Didn't they choose their own missions?

Oh not… in a way they are right, that was contradictory.

- Yes, they do, but that mission is really important and I needed Hayato to do it... it is just a coincidence that they left almost at the same time…

A moment of silence, for the looks he is getting, they don't believe a word, and that made him gulp, nervous, he only wishes this would be a peaceful visit, fast and with any problem... but what could he say to make it like that?, he doesn't have a clue, clue and he has already tried with the closest and softest thing to the truth he thought, but as it seems it isn't enough...

- Here is a caged cat, that is impossible to happen and you know it, one would had canceled his mission and came back to be here.

Take a deep breath, he is right and you know it, but you can't lose your cool... Stop trembling!

- What happened?, we have heard that the Vongola Tenth has been abandoned by his own guardians... this is the proof.

This can't be happening…

-… I-I ne-ed-d to to t-the ba-athr-room...

- Wai-

However, they didn't have time to finish the sentence; he got up and quickly left the room before they were able to stop him. In any other circumstance they probably would have stop him, but no in this one... not after watching him standing: he is so thin... and his hands so dry and boney... and there was more, but because their surprise and the few time they had, they were not able to catch more... In the beginning, they have seen his tired gestures and his almost white skin, his opaque a with few vitality hair, his almost dead, but with a spark of live, eyes, as hell as his tired, sad and sick looking, also he looked a bit thin, but they had guessed it was because the paperwork and all the work he has to do, for not talking about all the events his friends make daily in which he has to make sure they weren't big damages, between others thighs that came of all that... Nevertheless, they have guessed so wrong by how he has reacted.

They were not sure if they wanted to know what was hidden behind his eyes, but they were sure that they want to know what had done all this... they reprimanded their selves for not coming before, what the hell they were thinking in leaving time pass for almost 3 years to come to see him?... they could have done something... They sighed with guilt, knowing very well he won't tell them, or he would have told them by now and force him will give them nothing, and probably the others will tell them nothing too, guessing by the look of the mistress... No one spoke when they heard few noises that sounded like the beginning of a long crying, they just took a sheet of paper and wrote down their goodbye and sorry before leaving... guessing by his look before he left, Tsuna won't come out from there until he was alone or he could calm himself well enough to stop crying, something that definitely will be a long time, for not telling he probably won't want to continue the conversation... What mess have done the entire Vongola to the most important member?, the boss of all people?, whatever it was, they will regret it till the end of their days if Tsuna chose to end with his live, with or without their intervention, for the sadness it will give or the fury of all or the most of the allied families... whose can simply ally and destroy them or leave them at their luck, both of them can blame no one in any of the cases... no one knows what they would do... but they will attack nobody, Tsuna wouldn't want that... If they choose to fix whatever happened and think in help him to be who he was before all this: a cheerful and happy boy... it won't be easy, not after it has reached so a high point.

While all this, Tsuna let himself drop his mask just closing the door, his shaking legs gave up and the only thing he could do before cry was hide his face behind his hands and attract his knees to himself... to this, he couldn't stop thinking in how embarrassing he should look in those conditions and in what they will say to that when he comes out... he was sure that only a miracle could avoid them to hear him crying, no matter how quiet he was nor how well he could hide it, it was impossible to him to be unnoticed in a place so close and quiet... he was an idiot... he couldn't do anything right... How Vongola is still, literally, intact?, and how is he still alive and tailing?... Taking in count he was useless and a monster, and not talking about everything else, it should be something impossible.

- Ahhh… I fell asleep...

He murmured to himself some hours later and sighed miserably before looking himself in the mirror and sigh once again... he was a mess... omitting the pain in his body he managed to fix himself a he started working again, it was just 3:00 pm... weirdly, in his opinion, the only thing he found when he entered in the room was a note in his desk, knowing whose it was from he only could sigh before save it, he doesn't want to know what they have written to him... obviously it has something about being a horrible boss and left in middle of a meeting, but he is used to that kind of comments to be surprised to be honest, but that doesn't make him feel better...

- So, Sawada Tsunayoshi… for what you called us?

That way to speak and the way he was called cross his hear as a big hot lance... but it didn't hurt as much as it hurts everything else... No one was looking at the person they considered their best friend, so no one notice his tired, weak and sad looking, lifeless eyes without the light of live that before were shining in love, but that wasn't true anymore, they have love, yes, but tainted with pain and sadness... no even the ones whose were looking the table with great interest were able to see his boney and dry hands... it was a very pitiful sight...

-… Why are you running?

He asked softly, the quietest and kindest he was able to, it wasn't a lie, which was perfectly what they were doing: running, avoiding him but not leaving Vongola... very similar to that phrase of "so close, but so away", and he didn't like it. Just silence was in charge since that moment, any of the asked ones was brave enough to answer...

-... Please, answe-

He was fast cut for:

- Because we fear you!… you are a monster!

Everybody present in that room looked at Lambo, never expected him to answer, and less in that way... Tsuna gulped quietly, but he managed to keep cool... wow, he never thought his little brother could tell something like that in front of him... He heard a deep sigh after a few seconds, and then he heard:

- Tenth... I always wanted to be your right hand, but now...

He didn't need him to end the sentence; he understands and knows the words that haven't been say...

-… Tsunayoshi, I can't consider you as a friend, no after what you have done...

- You are extremely scary killing like it was the most common thing in the world… if you aren't a monster, then you don't need much to be one at the extreme...

- Kufufufu… and I thought you were more than that, that you won't be like the others in this dark world... you have broken your promise, Vongola Tenth...

-… You are a killer, a monster... you liked it, don't you?

Liked it?, you must be kidding me... how could I like take the life of someone?, I did that... I did that for all of you... and do you believe I did that for pleasure?

- You have become a man to fear, Sawada Tsunayoshi.

Even if I knew that, the answer they gave still hurts, hurts even worse than if he was taken by surprise, but that was not the problem, he knows it very well... he is a monster just usable to kill it seems, and because of that, he is and will be alone... he is really sorry, he never wanted to scare or hurt them, he only wanted their happiness and healthy, that is why he did what he did... he had to do it, he didn't have a choice, except leaving them die... Killing, a word as horrible as the action itself, but at the same time, so unavoidable and needed...

- Is that what you wanted to know?

-… You can go.

As soon as the words touched their ears, everyone left the room, leaving Tsuna in his own luck... if they had stayed a few time more, or just stayed in the corridorsor just behind the door in place of leaving the mansion like soul running from the devil, they could have heard something that surely would have make them think about what they were doing: cry, one full of deeply sadness and soul-destroying pain, like he was crying for someone who isn't there... something that is true, at least inone part,they aren't there anymore, at least... for him...

- I don't have time to look in the past...

He said to himself, trying to forget what he just has remembered, he doesn't want to remember nor that nor anything else related to that, he is tired and he doesn't need a recall of why he is like he is... it has been his own fault, and in part, it was his own choice too... thanks of what happened in that memory, more exactly thanks to what had been said, he has chosen to leave them in peace, in totally freedom in a way to speak, they can do whatever they want do, even he went so far to reserve a place in which they could left their missions results without having to see him in his office... he had planned everything to annoy nobody with his presence, which made everything better, even to the low ranked, because he ordered no one clean his office, so that no one have to see anything about him, and if someone needed to tell him something, they will just have to use the new communication system... certainly perfect, if you ask someone else... if before the incident he was rarely seem, after that meeting in true he became a shadow of his own home... the most of the people forgot him almost all the time... ¡Clank!

Tsuna blinked slowly, confused, but without stopping what he was doing, he is almost done with the paperwork and he was already used to that, what was that sound?, it won't be weird now it had been his own imagination... also it could not be the first time either, and in any case, there is really nothing he could do, it didn't sound something dangerous, perhaps just an accident, or probably nothing, just his imagination as he thought before... He blinked slowly once again when he heard the door opening for third time that day, something really rare without him doing it by himself, but this time it wasn't his imagination. It was a young woman, black short hair and fair skin, panting lightly like she has been running to get there.

- Sir, you must get out of here, the mansion is being attacked-

- Where?

It was a fast question, he isn't in mood to talk just now, or heard the rest of the sentence, and even if he wanted, it would be some seconds before she loses her courage and try to leave... Perhaps he is a monster, a killer, whatever people want to call him, it is the same for him now, but he is going to do nothing just to see or do a simple conversation... it seemed that people thought otherwise, that he would kill at first sight or something like that, he doesn't understand nor want to understand...

-… I-n… the g-gar-de-en, s-sir...

She said nervously and the color in his face finished to go at the sight of her boss running out at the end of her sentence in the opposite direction she wanted her to... she felt more fear when she heard things falling down... heavy, very heavy... she gulped guessing very well what were those heavy things...

1, 2, 3, 4… 7, y 14… just one more, they were underestimating him again, he sighed before avoiding some more bullets... he took by the neck the last one before he could get away, he is shaking in fear, and maybe the sight of all his unconscious and/or dead comrades, he doesn't care to know because no one will get out alive from the mansion after all, adding their destroyed weapons for a reason or other doesn't help in the minimum, but he doesn't care... he is tired, and bored, this isn't fun nor he is happy doing this... they perfectly knew they were going to die, this is the third time he have seen them and as people say: the third is the last try, why did they come?

-… pl-le-ea-se, do-on't k-kill m-me!

Too late to say that, too late... first: you tried to infiltrated, second: you tried to kill me, and third: this is the third and last time... if you didn't learn with the others two times, another opportunity won't do a difference, will it?, I have warned it... it is not my problem if you didn't listen.

- What are you doing here?, I told you to not come anymore...

I put more force in his neck to make my point, his fight is very weak... perhaps because the tiredness or the hits he got from me and for accident too?, I don't know, but certainly this makes this easier...

- Aghr… so.… rry…

The same thing everybody else said and you told me that too the last two times, but this time only you is still alive...

-… I don't give three opportunities...

If with 2 don't learn, if with 2 don't understand the luck of not being killed or taken to the torture room... a third time won't do a difference, will it?... I want some coffee after this, with a bath...

- Wait!… ple-ea-se… I won't… do… it… ag-gain…

Just a little more and I will broke his neck...

- Wait!

That voice… no, it can't be, I must have dreamed it... I shake my head and reaffirmed my grip; shutting totally off his breathing... his imagination was playing with him again...

- Stop!, Tsuna!

A body fell on the ground...

-… ma-s-aka…

They… impossible… I must be dreaming or in an illusion... yes, that must be... agrrrr...

¡Blam! ¡Blam!

Another body fell on the ground with a big hit, at the same time that a laugh gained life watching its goal being accomplished... a heartless and insane laugh that make the hair of the conscious presents rise.

- Finally the Vongola Tenth is dead! Hahaha-

- You… son of-

I… I just wish... be with you... once again... without... your hate... I am so sorry... I couldn't... accomplish... your... exp-pec-tat-tions... I a-am...

-… sorry…