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A Shattered Body, but A Mended Soul
Thinking to the stars
I sat on the roof of the Ninth Division barracks staring at the stars. I released the tie holding my fiery mane, it slowly blew in the wind. I had a lot on my mind, well just someone on my mind. It was strange, lately I had been having visions and dreams of someone I had never met before. This person wasn't human or even a Soul Reaper, maybe he was a hollow.
These images never happen to me when I was little, or when I went to the Academy. They only started after Aizen had betrayed the Soul Society. It started only once in a while in my dreams, and showed bits of pieces of something. After sometime they started appearing in my day-dreams, and revealed more than pieces but images. Then it got worse, I could be walking then suddenly full length scenes would appear out of nowhere, and I would space-out in front of people.
Anyone would think you should tell somebody, but I couldn't. Because these dreams or visions or whatever they were, showed me having sex with a man and letting the man do whatever he wanted to me. But the worst part was that I let him do it, and I enjoyed it. It was hard to understand what they were trying to tell me, were they trying to warn me or telling me about my past. Just thinking about them made me more confused, what did they mean?
"Renji?"
I got startled from the voice that appeared, but soon relaxed when I saw who it was. He slowly approached me, and sat next to me with a concerned look.
"Oh Izuru, I didn't know you were here. Guess I was too deep in thought."
I cracked a smile and started laughing, to show I was ok. But Izuru wasn't stupid and saw right through the false smile. He furrowed his brows together and frowned at me. I stopped laughing and looked to the stars, to not look at the face he was making. From the corner of my eye I saw that he still had that look, but after a minute he dropped it and looked at the stars as well.
"They're pretty, aren't they, Izuru?"
"What were you thinking about?"
"...a lot of things..."
"Like what?"
"Rukia's almost execution, the Bounts that attacked..."
"What about...Aizen?"
I smiled. "...I...guess him too..."
Just hearing his name reminded me of the Academy days. That man tricked a lot of people, and harmed a lot too. But he was on my mind most of the time, for all my problems started with him. I needed help with my problem, and it seemed like he was the one that could help. My biggest problem was probably how I would get to him, and what everyone would think of me trying to get help for him.
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