Quite simple. When Remus found out about Peter, he was angry and he wanted revenge. But after he calmed his mind, how did he feel?

Disclaimer: The marauders and their story are Rowling. Me is none.

Warnings: None.

Hatred

– Moony and Wormtail –

I hate you.

Three little words. But I can not say them, without lying.

You were one of my best friends. You were like a brother to me. And you did amazing things for me that I can not even begin to thank you for. You were a brave man, once. Brave enough to become an Animagus and go through the forbidden forest with a werewolf, every month, just to help a friend.

I know, you meant it back then. I know, at that point, you loved us as much as we loved you.

What happened?

You killed two of the people I loved the most in the world. You made me think I had lost, not only them, but yourself and another friend of ours, because you were afraid of Azkaban. You are responsible for my separation from the child that I loved like my own. You took everything I loved away from me. You betrayed all of us.

I cried my eyes out, when everyone celebrated.

I have every reason to hate you.

But I can't.

I didn't stop loving you, when you stopped loving me. I didn't stop caring about you, when you stopped caring about me. That's not how it works.

I will never forgive you all those things. But I will never be able to hate you either. I will be satisfied when justice finds you, but I will not celebrate. I mourned you long ago. I will not mourn again. But I did.

Deep down, buried beneath disappointment and anger and the wish for revenge, I still love you. Despite all that you did. I will never admit this to anyone, least of all myself, but I know I do.

You don't love me anymore. Does this mean I have to stop loving you? Does this mean I can feel free to hate you?

I wish it was that simple.

I ask why.

Why did you do this? Why did you forsake this friendship, the strongest that there ever was? Why did you become one of them? Why?

I have no answer. I wish I did.

Why can't I hate you?

I have no answer. I wish I did.

You did unforgivable things. You don't deserve remaining love.

I wish I could hate you, Wormtail.

I wish I could hate you, Peter Pettigrew.

I wish I could hate you.

I'm going more and more back to Harry Potter now, because of the new film, I guess.

To everyone who's waiting for the Miracle-series three: It's coming soon, I promise. It's just very difficult this time, but its coming. I promise.