Yooo what is this? Me writing for a different fandom? Yeah, happens once in a blue moon!
Honestly I started AoS recently and as of now I'm almost in the middle of season two. I am absolutely in love -I think it's my favorite of all the Marvel installments. And I absolutely love May and Phil and I ship them so heckin' hard! While I don't see myself getting too involved with writing for this fandom, this was a fun one to do as a way to hone my writing and let off some stress, since right now I mostly can't work on my main story (for another fandom) thanks to lack of time.
Anyway, this is my first time writing those characters so this is relatively short, relatively weak in terms of plot and, I'm afraid, might turn a little OOC towards the end? Certainly feel free to point out any mistakes! I should warn you though... I have a thing for writing angst.
Enjoy the story~
*~Empty Eyes~*
'Why are your eyes always so dark, Melinda?'
'Why won't you look at me, Melinda?'
'Why are your always so empty, Melinda?'
So many questions. She'd never given a solid answer before, hadn't she?
'There's nothing for me to see.'
Half an answer, perhaps.
'When you've seen what I've seen? You tend to become blind towards everything else.'
He'd pushed her too far. He shouldn't have asked -he shouldn't have caused that crack on the ice.
Coulson awoke with something that sounded suspiciously between a gasp and a cry, his senses suddenly bolting out of the darkness and dragging him back into reality. Startled, he tried to make out something, anything that would possibly help him decipher his location. His eyes took long, longer than expected, to adjust to the sickly yellow light that filled the room he was being held into.
By the time his vision cleared, he'd already started coughing.
Blood, fresh and warm, trickled down his chin and dripped into his shirt, that had once been white but was now stained with crimson splotches all across. Slowly, his memories came back.
Kidnapped. Right. By a band of people that were his formed comrades. Now they'd turned their back to SHIELD, like everyone else had.
They weren't Hydra either though, to be completely honest. In reality it was nothing buta mostly disorganised band of retired or rogue agents that had some kind of personal score to settle with him.
Frankly, he was glad they hadn't brought the rest of his team into this. He was glad that no one would know he was there, and that no one would come to save him. That none of his friends -his family- would endanger themselves for his sake.
Skye would take his loss the hardest. It would be like losing her father all over again in a sense, he supposed. But Skye was such a strong, strong young woman with the life ahead of her. She'd pull through it, eventually. He knew she would.
Fitz-Simmons... those two had certainly gone through some very rough months, with Fitz being injured, Simmons almost getting killed when her cover in Hydra's labs blew. But they would have to move forward eventually, too. They hadn't known him for too long a while either, had they?
Triplet hadn't been in the team long enough to form some kind of attachment, he believed. While it might feel like losing his mentor figure all over again, Coulson was certain he'd come over it. Maybe he'd even step up on the ranks of whatever had remained of the agency as well.
And May...
She was a woman of duty. She knew the risks they ran better than anyone else on the team, excluding even himself. She'd even be prepared, he supposed. She'd mourn him as a friend, yes, but it would be short. Then, just as he'd already instructed her to in case of his death, she'd step up as the new Director. She'd take care of everyone else just fine.
He desperately wanted to convince himself his death wouldn't hurt her. Not permanently. Not like Bahrain had.
'Why are your eyes always empty, Melinda?'
Yet those few months after the dawn of the new Hydra, the months they'd all spent together, rebuilding SHIELD... Coulson could've sworn there was something in May's eyes. Something he hadn't dared to hope he'd see again glimmering inside of her...
"Ah, Director Coulson."
His thoughts were interrupted by a tormenting voice belonging to a middle-aged man, not too much younger than he himself. Then the punch came again.
Coulson spat out more blood, as he rocked involuntarily with his wrists bound to chains hanging from the ceiling. It wasn't too high off the floor -barely a few inches. But under the plethora of violent blows and the approximately twenty-four hours -if his calculations were correct- he'd been hanging off them, he was almost certains his shoulders had been dislocated.
"No one from your oh-so-trusted team has come to save you yet, isn't that right?" The man whose name Coulson wasn't aware of went on with his torment. "Not that girl you've decided to adopt, not ol' Garret's lad, not your crazy scientists. Not that shell of a woman, that's for certain."
For some reason, the man's insults hit home harder than any of his punches.
"They're all so much better than you could ever hope to be", Coulson's voice was hoarse and his eyesight was fading again, but there was fire in his words as he spoke. "May would have all nine of you begging for mercy before you could even notice her planting bullets in your-"
Another punch, and Coulson was effectively cut off as the man let out a sarcastic laugh, enjoying the situation.
"And yet she's not here. No one is. They've all given up on you, old friend." An almost lunatic smirk played across the man's thin lips. "Just like you gave up on us so many years ago."
Coulson felt guilty for not being able to recall his name, not even his facial characteristics. He knew it was probably T.A.H.I.T.I. messing with his memories, but his mind was blank on the man. As if he'd never met him.
That had seemed to anger the ex-agent from the start. Coulson would not remember, and he'd get all the more violent. Trying to punch and stab and maim the memories out of his once fellow agent.
Coulson had long given up on trying to remember, or resist, however.
He would only wait for the blissful darkness of death.
Coulson couldn't be completely certain of what happened that night.
All the rogue agents were present for the show that night. The Nameless Man had even brought a new game for them to try -a voltage device of his own making, to experiment on their captive. But the captive was done being afraid. He was simply waiting -waiting, because death was finally near.
At least he'd been right about that -death had been lurking near them all. But it had not come for him.
Afterwards -hours, weeks, months- he'd wonder how she found him. How she had been so absolutely sure he'd be there.
And how she'd stormed the hideout with nothing but a pistol in one hand, the other tightened into a fist -with which, as much as he was able to discern in the madness that followed, had successfully smashed more than just a couple of skulls.
Even as May was literally exploding her way into the hideout, Coulson had been hovering between consciousness and darkness. As such he'd been able to hear the noise and the screams, but for a few moments he'd thought the rogue agents were cheering for his oncoming torture. It had taken the Nameless Man screaming for them to "take her on, cowards! She's just one woman!" for Coulson to finally stir and open his eyes.
Oh, how he wished he hadn't.
May's face was an emotionless mask of ice and fury, as she kicked and punched and clawed her way through the nine agents that were trying to put her down. And as all of them had rushed towards her, she didn't even bat an eye. She had met each and every one of them with sheer strength and willpower alone -she'd discarder her handgun as soon as she took in to the fact that none of them fought with actual weapons, anyway.
She'd killed them, crushed them all right before Coulson's clouded gaze. And as she snapped their necks or shattered their ribcages, she didn't make a sound. Her moves were precise and calculated, like those of a well-oiled killing machine. As if nothing else mattered, other than tearing the living lights out of these men. And Coulson wished, wished this was all but a hallucination, and that this wasn't really happening, that she wasn't really there.
Because when her eyes met his, just for a second... hers were emptier than the darkest night.
May had taken her time -which translated to a few extra seconds- to kill the Nameless Man, who was the last one still standing. She'd said nothing, done nothing; only stared at him for an additional few moments. But these few moments, Coulson could tell would put his own physical torture to shame.
The man shook from head to toe, trembling before the embodiment of death staring right through him.
"P-Please-"
His pleas were cut short by a whistle in the air -and then Coulson saw a gleaming blade protruding from the back of the man's skull. A second later, he fell to the ground, lifeless. And an additional few seconds later, May had grabbed her discarded pistol and shot a couple of bullets towards the roof.
All of a sudden the pressure lifted itself from Coulson's wrists and shoulders, and he found himself crumbling to the ground -but May was there and she caught him before he could even notice her moving.
"Phil."
Why was her tone so blank? As if they were back into the SHIELD base, holding a conversation about the next mission, or Skye's progress in training. As if she hadn't just murdered nine men -nine ex-SHIELD agents- in cold blood without so much as a wince.
"Phil, can you hear me?"
He supposed she was doing the talking because there was no one else with her to do it. Had she even notified the rest of the team? He doubted it.
"I... You came."
This, he realised belatedly, seemed to take her by surprise. She blinked a few times, then looked away briefly.
"... Yes." She finally muttered. "Of course I did."
"You should have never come..." A shadow flickered across her face as she processed his words.
"Why...?" She didn't seem to care then, about the lives she'd so violently taken just to save his sorry, useless hide. "Coulson? Say something."
She was worried, then? But her eyes... here eyes were still so devoid...
May, however, arched her eyebrows in something akin to confusion as she saw tears running down Coulson's cheeks.
"You should have never come, Melinda..."
"What are you-"
He reached up, cupping a bloodied hand over her cheek, as more tears blurred his vision.
"You were just like so many years ago. Back... Back in Bahrain. I didn't... I never wanted to see you like that again!"
He barely had time to register the surprise, the shock spreading across her features, before he was suddenly pulled into what, he supposed, was the closest thing to an embrace May would give to him.
Which was pretty close, actually.
"Idiot." He heard her mutter next to his ear. "You could have been killed."
Shakily, he wrapped an arm around her as well.
"Would you... would you have mourned?"
A few seconds of silence followed.
"... Skye would have been devastated."
"I asked about you, Melinda." He'd spoken her first name before he even noticed, but somehow he sensed it had some kind of effect in her. "Would you have...?"
"I would be very, very angry." She paused. "Which I am right now."
At that, Coulson couldn't hold back a weak chuckle. "You... you don't sound like it."
Instead of retorting, she just squeezed him a little tighter; just for a second, but he noticed nonetheless.
He had a feeling she'd wanted him to notice. However, she just pushed him away, looking at him.
"Let's go home, you idiot."
There was a glint of light in her eyes as she spoke the words.
Coulson smiled wide, wider than he'd ever done.
"You're right... let's go home."
Eh, as I already said, this could have turned out much better. I did enjoy writing May kicking ass though. Aaaand yay for me actually not killing anyone off! That's... that's rare, friends. If I write anything more on this fandom, keep an eye out for these two sweethearts. You never know who death choses to take!
Anyway, again I apologise for any OOC-ness, and also for any silly mistakes up there. It's literally 1 AM and I am dead XD feel free to correct me if you see anything that bothers you, and thanks for reading my first AoS fic!
'till next time~