"Did I tell you how beautiful you look with that hair cut?"
"You just can't change the subject to my hair when we start talking about this."
"Quinn. That was the past. This is now. WE are now." Rachel said, reaching to grasp Quinn's soft hand.
Quinn said, swatting her hand away, "Rachel, you can't run and hide from the past. Trust me."
"Beth and this are completely two different things." Rachel insisted.
"But that's the thing, they aren't. Sure you kissing Finn is completely different from having a baby. But it will come back up, some point in time. Maybe in a few weeks, months- hell in years but the point is that it will be a problem someday."
"It seems like you're making that day today."
Quinn stared back into bright brown eyes, "I am, because I don't want it hurting what we had."
Had. Did Rachel hear her right? had. had. past tense.
"We still have something, Quinn." Rachel said, trying to keep the hurt out of her voice.
"Not if we don't talk about this." Quinn retorted.
Quinn let a few moments pass before adding, "I don't want to lose you, Rach. You're going to have to talk to me."
Another silence had slid between them.
Rachel finally took a deep breath, "It was a mistake."
Quinn felt tears forming in her eyes, "Really? The best you could come up with."
"It was a mistake. Kissing Finn was a mistake. Not only because it hurt you, but because it I know its going to hurt him too." Rachel continued.
Rachel saw the hurt in Quinn's eyes, "What's it to Finn, if what you're saying is true?".
"Because I used to love Finn too."
"Finn and I were done along time ago, Rachel."
"But you still loved him and you had to get over him. It took time. And this is going to take time. But while that's happening I don't want to lose you, because- well because I love you Quinn and I don't want this process I am going through to hurt you, more than its going to already."
Quinn smiled as Rachel wiped a tear away that was sliding down her pale cheek. Quinn leaned into Rachel and their lips met. It was a soft kiss, but held alot of meaning. Comfort, trust, love and commitment.
"WE are going to get through this." Rachel said, pulling Quinn in for another kiss.
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