Hello my lovely readers 3 oh shit I sound like Narumi. Well as an apology for deleting School of Freaks (which im sorry to say I absolutely hated and it was the bane of my existence) I have decided to write a new story. Please forgive me if it sucks I really do try! Leave comments and suggestions! I always love to hear them.

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN GAKUEN ALICE OR ANY OF ITS CHARATERS

-izzy

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Mikan's P.O.V

There is a very old saying that my mother said about my father when I was a small child.

I was about 5 at the time and I asked her why, if she loved daddy so much, did she let him leave us. She gave me one of her soft, sad smiles and picked me up and put me on her lap.

"Well, Mika, if you love something you let it go, and if it loves you and your made to be together then it will always find its way home," she said. I didn't understand at the time. In my childish state of mind I couldn't understand why you couldn't just keep it in the first place. I never truly understood it until I met him.

We met when we were attending Gakuen Alice, a very prestigious school for people with unique powers or Alices. I was 10 years old, yeah, only 10. His Alice was dangerous, his Alice was fire, so he was sent on secret missions to try to defeat the academy's enemies. They pulled him from the innocence of childhood, and into the darkness. Then we were assigned as partners. He hated me. I mean seriously. He was mean to me, called me names and in general just made my life hell. Yet somewhere around the second year of insults, I fell in love with him. I knew that he was a good person, and I loved him, so so much.

And through all the trials, being kidnapped, held hostage, nearly killed on several occasions, going through not only the death of my mother but also of some of our dear friends, he fell in love with me. We promised under the moonlight of my prison, that he would take me away and we would get married outside the hellish walls of the academy. You want to know what happened?

We got married.

It was the happiest day of my whole life. He was dressed in that tuxedo, looking even more handsome than usual, and he looked at me. I mean really looked at me, and whispered in my ear "I love you." We exchanged vows and I heard the two words that every girl would kill to hear come out of his mouth.

"I do."

He was mine forever. I don't know how a girl as plain as me would ever get a guy like him. I was ordinary. He was anything but. All I knew is that I loved him more than anyone else ever could.

Our marriage was perfect for 3 years. He was Natsume, sweet, devilish, and an utter romantic. But then everything fell apart. He worked for the academy, in a way, so yes, he was busy. He stopped coming home though. I mean he came home maybe once a week to get his clothes and other things like that, then he would be off at some business meeting.

I dealt with it though. I dealt with constantly being alone in the house that I was supposed to live in with my husband and children. No, I didn't have any children because I wanted my babies to be born into a home where mommy and daddy are always there. I wouldn't have a child in a house where daddy was just like a passing ghost.

I was so bent on staying in my marriage though. And Im sure I would have if we hadn't argued that day.

"What is it that you want of me, huh, Mikan?" he yelled.

"I want you to come home! To actually spend time with me! I want to have kids in a house where you're here!" I scream with tears streaming down my cheeks.

" What you want me to abandon my work? Who will pay the bill then, Mikan, tell me that," he yelled as he raked his hand through his already tousled black hair.

"Do you even want to be married to me anymore?" I scream.

"YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE?" he yelled at me as he walked out and slammed the door.

I stood there, tears coming down my cheeks so heavily that I couldn't even see. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the ground. Within 10 minutes, I had cried myself to sleep on our living room floor.

When I woke up I was covered with a blanket and there was divorce papers next to me. I didn't want to divorce him. I loved with everything I was, but if it made him happy I would do it. I signed the papers and, at that moment, I knew I had to leave. I put my wedding ring on the table along with the divorce paper and headed up to our room. I fell onto our bed, letting the last of my tears fall. then I made a resolution. Never again would I cry tears because of him.

I grabbed my bags and left a note on the table for him, I was about to walk out the door when I saw my favorite picture of Natsume and I. I grabbed it. It would be a memento of the love that we used to share. Then I walked out the door, not looking back as I did.

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Natsume's P.O.V

I buried myself in my work like usual. When I worked I didn't think, and the more I didn't think the better. If I spared a single thought it immediately went to her. She was always on my mind. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even work without my mind automatically thinking of her.

Frustrated, I stopped typing and unlocked the second drawer to the left of my desk. There I found a note. I opened it and it read:

Dear Natsume,

First and foremost, I love you. I have loved you for a very long time and I will continue to love you until I die. That I can promise you. The only reason I signed the papers are because I figured I was just burdening you in your work and you could be happier without me. And I really do wish you all the happiness in the world, because you really do deserve it.

I want to thank you for all the things you've done for me. You gave me memories that I could never forget. You loved me the best you could, even if you don't love me now. Im sorry I wasted your time. You probably could have found another wife by now if I hadn't been so selfish. I ask your forgiveness for that.

For the divorce, im sorry that I will leave it all on your shoulders. I left everything that you bought me, excluding my clothes. There not mine to take and im sure you will find a girl that really deserves them. I don't know where im going, but I will find someplace to go. Live your life, knowing your loved. Please forgive me.

With all the love I have in my heart,

Mikan Sakura Yukihara

That note was 4 years old. It had been 4 years since he had made the biggest mistake of my life. I lost the one thing I loved that day. Since then, I haven't really stopped working. I cant. Every second of the day she haunts me, her angelic face, her warming smile, and her big beautiful eyes. They appeared before me every time I closed my eyes.

I put the note back in its proper drawer and locked it, but not before her big smile was flashed up at me from the picture I kept in there. I took it out and stared at it. It was Mikan dressed im my shirt, her hair tousled, as she stood in the kitchen of our hotel. It was during our honeymoon and she looked devilishly adorable. Then the faint smile that had come upon my lips vanished as soon as I realized she was no longer mine. I threw the picture in the drawer and slammed shut.

Ruka walked in with Hotaru, now his wife, and looked at me with pity.

"You haven't slept in days, have you?" he asked.

"Of course I haven't," I said.

Hotaru scowled. "Its your fault."

I scowled back. "How so?"

"Because, if you hadn't said the last thing you ever said to her, then you would still be married," she growled.

"WAIT. How do you know that?" I spat.

She smirked and raised an eyebrow.

"Where is she?" I growled.

"You don't need to know that. All you need to know is that your still apart of her life just in a very different way and its up to your dumb ass to figure out which way that is in. you better hurry before its to late." she said as she dragged Ruka out.

What did she mean?

In the back of my mind that was all the excuse I needed, but I would never admit it.

Time to find the one and only girl I have ever loved.

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Mikan's P.O.V

After I left I drowned myself in work, much like my dear husband had done. Then I started to notice it. It had been 4 months since I had left him and I was very sick. I thought it was the flu but the flu didn't make you fat. I called Hotaru in tears and she came over.

"Hotaru! What's wrong with me?" I cried into her shoulder.

"Mikan, listen to me, this is a…medical stick. You have to pee on it, and if it has a blue cross that means we need to take you to the doctor because you are sick," she said.

What's sad is I believed her. I did what she said. And the results were a blue cross.

She looked at me with wide, pitying eyes.

"Am I really really sick?" I asked hiccupping.

She didn't respond as she grabbed my hand and took me to the doctors office. When we got there she whispered something into the receptionists ear and she led us to a room with lots of machines. I laid down and a doctor came in.

"I'm going to put this gel on your tummy, it will be a little cold but it wont hurt, promise," he said.

He rubbed it on as I giggled and put a small device on it. It showed what was in my tummy. There…was a thing….make that two things…in my stomach.

"Those are your children." he said smiling.

Tears streamed down my cheeks. They were…my children. It was such a bittersweet moment. Bitter, because I would always have to remember the man I loved didn't want me. Sweet, because they were my babies. I would be a mommy. Though I had always wanted to see Natsume as a father, I was going to be selfish. They were my secret. They were my precious secrets.

I gave birth to a baby girl: Akane-which means brilliant red, like her eyes.

And a boy: Kuro- which means black, like his hair.

They are the center of my world. Akane and Kuro became my reasons for living. They still are. I wake up every day with my babies, one on each side. All I need is them, and all they need is me. They will be my little secrets, until someone finally leaks it.

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Hope you enjoyed! I will update soon!