She Loves me Not?
Buffy slowly opened her eyes but quickly closed them again as she felt the room spinning around her. The smell of alcohol lingered in the air. Buffy gagged slightly. How much did she drink last night? Why did she get herself in such a state? What even happened after she...kissed Faith. "Oh god" Buffy said out loud. She didn't remember anything after that. Too distracted by her own thoughts she didn't notice she was naked and the brunette slayer she had kissed was lying right beside her, also naked.
Buffy swallowed hard as she felt an arm around her. Buffy didn't dare move. Is that Faith lying beside me? Or did I get lucky with some random guy? That would explain the whole me being naked. Buffy thought to herself. Buffy shuddered as she felt soft gentle kisses at the back of her neck. She moaned slightly and smiled. The lips were so soft and gentle against her skin.
"Morning B" Buffy heard from behind her. She froze not knowing what to say or do. "Wow that was some night huh?"It was Faith! Buffy tried to speak but the words wouldn't come out. Faith ran her hand up to Buffy's breast and giggled. "What's the matter B you haven't gone all shy on me have you?"
Buffy suddenly bolted up in bed facing the dark slayer and covered herself with the duvet. "What...when did...Faith what the hell happened last night?" Faith smiled but once she saw the look of fear in Buffy's eyes her smiled faded. "Isn't it obvious?" Faith reached out to touch Buffy but the shaken up slayer moved away from her. "Don't touch me!" Buffy yelled. Faith was taken back. Had Buffy forgotten their whole night together? What she had told Faith? Faith reached out for a glass of water beside the bed and threw it back. She turned back to Buffy. "Faith? What the hell did you do to me? Did you drug me or summet? Is that how you get off?"
Faith was hurt. "Is that what you think of me?" she spat back. Buffy didn't respond and looked down. "Gee B...I really thought"...Faith couldn't talk. Buffy turned her head slightly and looked at Faith. "You thought what Faith?" Faith clenched her fists as she spoke. "You told me last night...you said... you...Buffy you told me you love me!"
Buffy looked up at the brunette slayer who had got out of the bed and was dressing herself in the far corner of the room. "What? Faith why the hell would I...Faith are you sure? You could have misheard me or something?"
Faith flashed the slayer a glare as she lit a cigarette. "I may have been drunk B but I know what I heard! In fact... I remember our whole night together! We were at the bar and you told me you loved me, you kissed me"...Faith paused and smiled as she got a flashback of the kiss. "And then well...lets just say we didn't get much sleep last night. Faith raised her eyebrows to Buffy who was frantically looking for her clothes. Faith watched her as she got herself dressed. "I cant believe you think I...how did you put it? Drugged you! Buffy I may have done some fucked up shit but...She paused and walked over to Buffy placing her hand on Buffys face. ….I would never hurt you B I love...Buffy backed away. "Don't...don't you dare say it! Buffy spat.
Faith pulled the slayer towards her and tried to kiss her but Buffy pushed her away. "What the hell is wrong with you?" Buffy screamed at Faith.
"What's wrong with me? What the hell is wrong with you B? You just gonna walk away from this? Us?"
Buffy gritted her teeth. "Us? Faith there is no us! There will never an us!
Faith's eyes filled with tears. She turned away from Buffy. Buffy continued looking at Faith.
"Look Faith...last night we were drunk...we kissed but you have to understand Faith it was just a kiss and..."
Faith turned around to look at Buffy. "No Buffy it wasn't just a kiss ! You told me you love me, how you have wanted me since the day we met..." Faith began raising her voice as she spoke. Buffy suddenly punched the dark slayer knocking her to the floor. "Your lying!" Buffy stood over Faith. "I could never love you Faith" Faith sat up and pulled the blonde slayer to the floor to face her. She gripped her arms tight and pulled her in close. "What do I have to do to prove it to you B?" Buffy lifted her head up slightly, her eyes filled with fear as she felt Faith gripping her even tighter. "How about I refresh your memory?" she said.
Before Buffy could respond Faith moved in to kiss her. Buffy pulled away with force. "No! How about I refresh yours Faith? I'm not...gay. Faith laughed. "You didn't seem to take issue of that last night!" Buffy looked down at the floor. "Faith...whatever we did...when we...it cant happen again ok? It was a mistake. I don't even know how we"...Buffy looked repulsed as she spoke. Faith loosened her grip and pulled herself and Buffy up. "Faith...I'm sor"... "Don't B...just don't" Faith interrupted her. Buffy sighed. "Faith I know your upset but..."
Faith walked away from Buffy and made her way to the bedroom window looking towards the outside. "You have no clue how I feel B...I finally opened up to you after all these years...I...know you love me Buffy I can see it, so if anyone is lying...its you. She tuned back to face Buffy. Buffy looked at the brunette who had tears running down her face.
Buffy shook her head. "No Faith!" Faith wiped her tears and rolled her eyes. She hated crying. Showing any type of weakness. Buffy made her way to the bedroom door and turned to Faith. "I don't love you...I...I don't know what happened last night but...Buffy suddenly stopped talking, she remained silent for a moment. Drinking at the bar~2 Jds~her hand on Faiths leg~a kiss...i love you Faith. Flashbacks of the night before.
Buffy's eyes widened. Faith looked at Buffy confused. "B"?
Buffy didn't respond.
She looked at Faith for a few seconds and left the room slamming the door behind her.