Trapt
Everyone's smiling, saying that it was about time. I just nod and agree and smile, clutching his hand and telling myself that I was happy. I was happy, I should be happy… I am happy.
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures
frozen and I cant get out
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get
out of here
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you
Everything's so big and huge and white. I never planned this. Everything was beautiful, all the guests said so. Mum was so proud, all of her hard work, all your money. But then, he was there too. I don't know why you invited him. Maybe it was your way of rubbing it in?
And every time I think I've finally made it
I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before
I see the clock and it's ticking away, and the hourglass empty
What do I have to say
I smile as the lights flash, you didn't like the photographers before but now you can't seem to get enough of them. Now that all the danger is gone. You survived and you managed to land a job on some high-priced Quidditch team. I wasn't allowed to play except at home, so I didn't bother to remember the name.
Keep it inside, the image portrayed
As if I couldn't stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no way
A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it
I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need
I present an image, looking, talking, walking and even dressing exactly as you want me to. Last time I tried to change, you hit me. I've learned to keep it all in. I couldn't marry him, so I picked you. I should have chosen him. I think I need a break… or something bad might happen. To me and to your image.
A small reflection on when we were younger
We had it all figured out 'cause we had everything covered
Now were older its getting harder to see
What this future will hold for us, what are we going to be?
You always did know what you wanted to do. I was always expected to carry children, your children, any children. It was always my 'job' in life. Everything else was just a condolence, a given until I signed my life away. I never knew what I wanted but I knew I didn't want you, so how did I end up here?
So lost, I'm just as lost as you
Oh well what am I going to do
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away (from where I want to be)
I'm saying good-bye; tell our girls that I love them. My mind has been slipping for a while; you knew when you saw the little white cuts decorating my creamy skin. But as always you ignored anything that didn't fit in with your perfect image. I never loved you Harry Potter, I was just in love with the image of security you gave me. I think everyone, excluding my family, would have been a lot happier if I had married Draco liked planned.
I'm sorry Harry.' With the last letter written, Ginny drank down the last sips of vile potion and sent both letters to their respective recipients.
" 'Til death do us part is coming a little sooner than planned Harry. Sorry."
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A/N: The song in this story is property of Trapt, I do not own it in anyway. I also do not own Harry Potter, though I wish I did since then I'd have lots of money LOL