You may never know it but one thing I have learned to be true, it is not until your heart breaks that you learn of the importance of love.
The importance of me loving you.
The glisten in your eyes, it says what my heart never knew. Until now. For months you have been all I think about, all I need. But now that you are going away, I fear my heart will recede.
Why couldn't I have come to this conclusion sooner? Was five years not enough?
It has been years since that kiss, we will never be the same. Our lives have become a mess of our desires. Ripping at the threads of our humanity. For you have become the one irrational desire, my only spot of self doubt.
You cannot possibly love me.
The one tainted mark on a slate of pure ivory. A love that burns deep within and radiates my core.
But as nights have turned to days, days to weeks. One conclusion I have reached.
You cannot feel the same. You cannot possibly love the unlovable.
Just a second chance. One chance to say all that my heart holds dear. You're the only one that understands. The only one who makes me life complete.
What will I do when you walk away?
"Bones… Bones…" He speaks softly.
"Yeah?" I choke out.
"So… it isn't a murder then." He asks, turning onto the freeway.
I shrug. Does it even matter anymore?
Please don't leave me.
Whatever you do, please just don't leave.
The week will be an eternity in my eyes.
Please, just stay.
"So where is the great Temperance Brennan going for Christmas this year? A dig? Oh! Or better yet, got a few bones to identify?"
"You could say so."
My days and nights will be spent in limbo.
Until the day you return, that is where my heart will reside. Limbo.
I'm staying… for you.
I will always stay for you.
Those hands may be worn but I will always know they will fit perfectly in mine.
You fit me as snug as a glove, giving my heart a place to reside.
"Stay…" I mumble, watching as the world passes me by.
"What?" I hear faintly.
"Stay, for Christmas. Stay in D.C." A single tear makes it past the floodgates and slowly trickles down.
"But Bones you're…"
I turn and stare into those deep brown pools, letting the tears flow freely. What is the point in denying it now?
"Please?" My voice is horse and ragged.
"Why?"
"Because I… I love you." A muffled whisper flows from the deepest recedes of my heart.
"Please... just… stay?" I whisper over and over, hoping that for once in my life I am good enough to be loved too.