An: So here we are, the first chapter of this story. I'm just going to warn you now. The first two chapters will probably be odd, or awkward. I don't know, but maybe you can tell me what you thought about this chapter and if you have any advice that I could use.
By the way, I know I said 15, but I made a mistake, it was ment to be 16, sorry for the confusion with the summary.
Anyway, this story will mostly be that of drama, romance, comedy, hurt/comfort and maybe a little angst and something else in there. Oh and a surprise, like I said in the summary. So I'll let you guys go now and let you read on.
Enjoy...
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Seth's Pov
My life changed for the worst in only a day. My heart was crushed, my life ruined and for what. A single man that I had a crush on for two years, then that crush turned into love four months ago. Nights spent making love to each other, then lying next to each other basking in our afterglow. Nights we spent either indoors or out in the open under a star-y night, night lying next to each other.
But all of that was taken away from me in a mere five minutes. I could still see the look of happiness in their eyes as they announced the big news. I can still hear the words said to each other, either during the day or night. I could still hear the moans and grunts coming from the room two doors down, the grunts coming from the man that once shared them with me. And I could still hear the words that we said to each other as we argued, and then the words he said to me before we went our separate ways.
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Flash Back three weeks ago.
I was resting on the couch, lying on my stomach with my legs up in the air crossed at the ankles. The radio softly playing as background music with a book in front of me. The day was sunny, the birds singing their tunes, the critters scattering around in the forest, the sound of people chatting about on the roads, and the sound of cars driving here and there.
For me I had the house to myself, Leah was out with friends, mum was getting groceries and dad was at work, though all should be home soon, since it was getting close to dinner.
But I wasn't paying attention; I was too busy reading my book. It was the holidays, and I've already done all the chores that mum wanted me to do, so now I was relaxing. I didn't have patrol at all today, so I knew that I could lose myself in a book for a while.
But because I was so engrossed in my book that I didn't hear the front door open. Nor the call that someone was home. Nor the creak of the floorboards that indicated that someone was heading towards the living room.
I was in so much peace that I hoped it never ended.
"SETH!" I shouted turned around, the book flying from its position. I stared up at my sister cackling herself as she hugged her sides, her chest rising and falling as she laughed.
"LEAH! What the hell!" I shouted sitting up and rearranging myself before picking the book up. When I looked over to Leah, to see her still cackling herself, I grabbed the throw pillow that my book rested on and started hitting her with it.
"It's. Not. Funny" I said hitting her with every word, and continued to hit her till she finally regained her breathing and pulled the pillow away. I huffed and crossed not happy about her taking my weapon for hitting her with away and scaring me.
"Why are you home to early" I asked losing my glare and looking at her curiously.
"What I'm not allowed to come home when I want to" she asked as she sat down on the other side of the couch, one leg propped up on the couch as she rests her head on her right hand that was resting against the couch.
"No, no you're not since you scared me. Now leave, I'll let mother and father know that you have gone and run off, saying that you couldn't stand living here anymore and just wanted to get away from here" I said dramatically, turning away with a huff "We shall all remember you".
"Ha ha, you're so funny Seth" Leah stated sarcastically. "Besides everyone knows that it'll be you that wants to leave. Just don't forget your family" She smiled placing her hand on my leg and giving it a pat. I smiled back and looked down; know that it was the truth. I did want to get out of here, see the world. Even though I would be letting my promise to stay in the pack till my kids took over go, I knew I couldn't live here forever.
My thoughts were broken as I saw what was on Leah's ringer finger. And engagement ring sitting on Leah's left ring finger for the world to see.
"Leah's what is that" I said, shock evident on my tone as I continued to look at the ring.
"Well, what does it look like" she said, glee in her voice as she spoke.
"But...w-who gave it to you" I asked watching as she pulled her hand back. At that second the front door was pushed open then shut closed then the sound of the floorboards creaking, indicating that someone was heading towards the living room that Leah and I resided in. At that second, Jacob walked in, Leah got up off the couch and rushed over to him wrapping her arms around his neck.
Jacob looked shocked for a second before he wrapped his arms around her. They broke apart after that, but stayed next to each other, their arms wrapped around each other.
"Jacob proposed to me" When she finished saying that, my whole world came crashing down. I sat there staring at the two. Jacob was looking away finding interest in something else, while Leah looked between me and the ring on her hand. A smile evident on her lips.
I knew I couldn't say 'no, I don't like it, Jacob is mine' and ruin the one time my sister will be happy, and I didn't want to take that happiness away from my sister. So I put a forced smile onto my lips.
"That's great" I said, pushing my hurtful emotions away and congratulating the two newlyweds.
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I shook my wolf head not wanting to see the sad, happy, hurt look in Jacob's eyes as we shook hands. I didn't know what he was thinking, but if it was along the line of me not wanting to hug him because I knew my really emotions would show, then he would of been right.
After that, I tried hard to avoid Jacob as much as I could, making sure I was busy at all times, with either chores some becoming as ridicules as dusting the blinds down, giving the bathroom a thorough clean, hanging the clothes, then folding them once they were dry, helping mum cook. Anything to make sure I didn't spend alone time with Jacob.
It hurt, it hurt real bad. But we made an agreement, that once we found a partner that we wanted to marry; we were to cut it off. But I was hurting more and more for I was going to ask Jacob if he wanted to go out. But then that happened.
After that, yesterday was the day that Jacob and I finally had alone time.
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Flash Back
"You don't approve of me and Leah do you" Jacob asked once he found a small clearing in the forest. He had asked me to come with him into the forest after our turn of patrolling. We both stayed quiet, making it the most awkward patrol that we ever had.
"I never said I did or didn't" I stated looking off into the forest. Know that if I looked into his eyes I wouldn't have been able to control my emotions.
"Then why have you been avoiding me" I knew he noticed. Every time he tried to make time for me and him to spend time, I always came up with an excuse.
"We made an agreement and I'm just going with it" I shrugged stating the truth.
"But that doesn't mean that you have to avoid me" I snapped at me, I could tell just by his voice slightly rising that he was getting anger. I was beating around the bush, not fully answering his questions and not looking him in the eye as I answered.
"its better this way" I said softly, know that he would her it anyway with our wolf abilities.
"How is it Seth? You and I are both being affected by this..." he trailed off then, I looked over to him to see realization came to his mind. "You don't approve of this"
"I didn't say that" I said looking at him before looking away knowing that if I did I'd lose my calm.
"Tell me" he said taking a step towards me. I looked up at him and stepped away, making him take another step towards me. We went like that till he had me backed up against a tree, him standing a few feet in front of me. "Tell me".
I looked away not wanting to lose this battle. It was a battle of emotions, and I didn't want mine to show him. Not now not ever.
"Tell me Seth" he said resting his hands on my shoulders and shaking me slightly. "Tell me and I'll call it all off"
I snapped my head towards him with shock.
"Tell me and I'll call it off" he repeated, a fierce look of determination in his eyes as he stared directly into my own eyes, "Then we can be together". I stared up at him, dumbfounded by what he just said. He'd call this marriage off for me. I wanted that, I so wanted that. But I wanted my sister to be happy, and I knew that she would be able to give Jacob the things that I wouldn't be able to. With that thought I made my mind up.
"No..." I said, so softly that I wouldn't be surprised that Jacob didn't hear it while I looked away, not wanting him to see what I was about to put myself through.
"What" he asked bending down trying to look into my eyes.
"I said no" I said louder, this time for him to say. As my answer fell from my lips it was like everything went silent, Jacob's grip on my shoulders sagged a bit, before falling off my shoulders and resting by his sides.
Neither of us said anything. I could feel his shocked eyes on me even though I was looking away. I felt as though my body was split in half. One wanting to run into Jacob's arms and say 'yes, yes please call it off so that we can be together for every', while the other half was saying 'think of what they can give each other, something that you will never be able to give Jacob is something that Leah can give him'. All these thoughts running through my head as I looked away from Jacob's eyes.
"No..." I snapped at Jacob, looking at him in confusion and slight shock. "No, I don't believe you" he looked at me, that determination back in his eyes.
"What?" I asked, looking at him in confusion.
"I don't believe you. You do want this called off, I know you Seth, and I know you don't want this. So just say it" he looked at me.
"No, you're wrong this is what I want. I want my sister happy"
"What about your happiness" He stated looking at me as I looked at him.
"That's not important" I looked away. I could feel tears building in my eyes at my own answer.
"..." Jacob didn't say anything, cut I could feel his eyes on me. "Fine, I'll give you two days to give me your answer. And you better give me your answer by then" then with that he walked away, phasing and probably heading towards his house though he will be back later tonight.
I continued to stare at the ground letting a tear run down knowing that the time has finally arrived. I turned away from the tree and headed for my house, already running what needs to be done through my head.
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"Well I'm off to bed, good night all" I announced to everyone in the living room. It was ten thirty-five, 'that should be enough time'. After getting replies back I headed up to my room and closed my door.
I leaned against my door, feeling tears come to my eyes as I looked around my room, for tonight would be the last time that I come up here to sleep. I headed for my closet and pulled my duffle bag out, packing as many clothes as I could, making sure to pack important things as well. After that, I laid the clothes that I'll be wearing once I was a far distance away and laid on my bed making sure to had my bag hidden from view in case someone comes in here and sees it, and laid under my blankets facing away from the door.
Soon I started to hear the announcements of mum, Leah and Jacob announcing that they were heading to bed. Then thumps of feet hitting the steps indicated that Leah and Jacob were heading to bed, while mum headed for hers.
Once I heard the settled beats of everyone's heart, I pushed the blankets away and hopped up, and headed for my desk pulling three envelopes out of a draw. I turned back around and made my bed, making it look like I was never here and placed two of the three envelopes on the bed. Once addressed to mum and the other to Jacob. The third held the money that I have saved up over the years.
I let one tear slip down my cheek as I gave one more glance around my room, before heading for my door. I know it probably isn't smart but I wanted to have one last glance around my house that I have lived in since I was little, letting memories play through my head one last time before I never see this place again.
Once I reached the bottom of the stairs I could hear the sound of the TV. I panicked slightly, hoping that no one else was awake. I headed to the kitchen and placed my bag on the floor before heading for the living room seeing that my dad was asleep on the couch. I smiled as I walked towards him.
"Dad" I said softly shaking him, "wake up". I shook him a little harder till I finally got a hum in response.
"Dad, come on, wake up and go to your bed" I said, keeping my voice low so I didn't wake any unwanted people.
"Hmm" he said before pushing himself up and getting off the couch and heading for the stairs.
"Dad" I said, getting him to turn around and star at me with his hazy eyes. "I love you and good night" I said as I hugged him one last time.
"...love... you...too" Dad mumbled before we broke apart and headed for his room. I smiled as I watched him letting another tear escape me eye. I wiped my eyes one last time before grabbing my bag and heading for the front door, pulling it open locking it and closing it behind me. Walking down the front porch steps and on to the front yard walking towards the road, I stopped once I was at the edge and looked back taking one last look at the peaceful house before turning my back on the house and walking down the road.
End of Flash Back
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After that it was a blur, tears flowing down my fur as I played more memories of my time at home. The good, the bad, everything.
I was now getting close to a train station and it was starting to sprinkle a little. I phased back into my human form and changed into the clothes that I had set with the money in my pocket. I did a quick scan around before acting casual and heading for the train station. It was getting close to the morning now. I didn't know where I was, I just let my feet take me till I reached some kind of transportation.
It was getting close to morning, I couldn't tell the time right now, but I was in luck that the station was just opening.
"Hi, can I please get a ticket" a small smile graced my lips as I asked the lady behind the counter. She gave me an odd look before doing as I asked.
After paying for my ticket and thanking the lady, I waited for the train to appear then hopped on sitting on the other side away from the station. 'This was it. This is what is going to happen' I thought to myself as the train started, 'no turning back now'.
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The first rays of light were what woke Sue up from her slumber. As the sun raised up from the mountains and shot is rays down t earth, and over time the rays moved slowly over till they finally hit their make.
Sue winced from the light, not wanting to be woken up yet. But to an avail, once she was woken she couldn't get back to sleep. Slowly her eyes lids rose showing her beautiful slightly glazed dark brown eyes, showing them to the world and letting her see her surroundings. She groaned, wishing that she could get back to sleep.
She pushed the blanket that was covering her body down and sat over the edge, the morning chill hitting her skin causing a shiver to run through her body. Slowly she slowly rosed up to her feet while slipping her feet into her slippers, walking over to where she set her robe and slipped that on as well before exiting her shared room with her husband.
As she headed for the kitchen going, she made a mental list of things that she will need to do. 'Need to do some grocery shopping, need to vacuum the floors, do the washing and fold clothes, then lunch should roll around then...after that we'll see what happens' She thought to herself as she started cooking eggs and bacon for the occupants in the house.
As she cooked, slowly one by one the occupants on the house awoke from their dreams and headed for the dining table. First was her husband Henry, coming out and greeting Sue with a kiss and a 'good-morning' before heading to the shower. A few minutes later, Leah came bounding down the stairs, her hair lightly tamed, but still showed the signs of bed hair and getting a 'good morning' from her as well, before she was ordered to set the table. Not soon after that Jacob came down the stairs, his hair slightly wet, indicating that he just had a shower.
Only one person was left to come down the stairs. 'I'll get him after serving' Sue thought to herself as she set the food down on the table, seeing her husband at the head of the table with the morning paper, Leah and Jacob sitting next to each other and making small conversation and one seat left unoccupied.
"I'll get Seth" Sue announced as she turns to head to Seth's room.
"Uh, sorry to be a bother Sue, but I need to get going, need to be at work early today" Jacob announced as well, pushing away from the table.
"Okay, well we'll see you later then" Sue said as she continued on her way to Seth's room. She walked up the stairs and down the hall till she finally reached were her youngest kid rest.
Knock. Knock.
"Seth sweetie, breakfast is ready" Sue called through the door. When she didn't get an answer, she knocked one more time before pushing the door open. "Seth..."
What greeted her was a bare room. A few things missing, the bed made nice and neat, and two envelopes sitting on the bed. Sue looked at the items in curiosity, walking towards them and reaching for the one with her name on it. Once she opened it, two pieces of paper fell out.
'Mum, if you have received this, please can you hide the letter to Jacob before you read the next part of this letter'
Sue looked at the note in confusion before opening the other part of the letter without hiding the other.
Dear Mum, Leah and Dad.
I've gone over this three times. Not knowing how to write this letter. Not knowing what I should write, how I should write it. I stared at this paper for gods know how long, sitting, thinking and twirling the pencil in my hand. Until something finally came to mind, so here I go.
I'm not going to beat around the bush and make up something, so I'm going to tell you the truth and get straight to the point.
I've run away. It's not joke, I am serious. I've run away and never coming back. No it's not like one of those runaway cases where the child couldn't stand living at home anymore. It's actually the opposite. I've run away because it was for the best and it's my decision. So please don't call the police, the authorities or get the pack to come find me. For by the time someone gets a clue, I'd be gone by then, so there is no point in looking for me.
I only have one request, so please do it for me. Don't worry. Well don't worry too much, for I will be fine. I know what's right and what's wrong. I know what to do in a bad situation and I know how to take care of myself. So the only thing I want you guys to do is trust me. Trust and believe in me that I know what I am doing. Please do it for me as my one request.
I'm going to stop here now. Because I know that if I continue the tears that I've been holding will flow and land of the paper, ruining it and making me redo it again. So do what I'm about to do.
'Wipe those tears away. Let a smile spread across your lip. And pray that I'll come home soon and we'll each other again'
Love always
Seth Clearwater.
Sue stared at the paper for multiple minutes, not knowing what to do how to handle this situation.
"Mum" Sue heard Leah call from down that hall. Sue snapped her head towards the not addressed to Jacob and hid it under the bed, turning just in time to watch as the door was pushed open."Mum, what's taking so..." Leah trailed off as She stared at her mother's tear filled face. She did a quick glance around but didn't find Seth anywhere in the room.
"Where's..." Sue lifted her hand with the note in it, she didn't trust her voice enough, knowing that if she did say something, she was going to start crying again.
Leah looked curiously and confused at the paper held out to her before reaching to grab it, and reading its context.
Sue watched as her daughters face changed from curious and confused to sad and hurt. Leah dropped the note from her eye, still holding it in her hand as she stared at her mother.
"He...isn't really gone... right?" Leah asked her mother, holding the tears back as much as she could. 'No it couldn't be real, he couldn't have upped and left. He just couldn't.' Leah thought as she looked at her mother, desperate to know her answer.
"... When it come to family... You know how serious he gets" Sue said softly as she stared at her daughter, watching as tears rolled down her face as Sue spoke. Sue opened her arms for her daughter. Leah wasted no time in running into them and embracing her mother as she cried, sobs leaving her mouth as she buried her face into her mother's neck.
Sue sat there holding her daughter as she wept as well, crying into her daughter shoulder.
"What going on in here..." Henry trailed off as he entered the room, hearing his daughter and wife sob in his son's rooms. Both women looked up at Henry, their tear streaked faces staring up at him. Leah looked down at the note still in her hands and handed out to her father; knowing, like Sue, that if she said it out loud, it would be like saying the truth.
Henry looked confused and curious as the paper before reaching out for it. The women watched as Henry's face changed from curious and confused, so shock, sadness, pain, and slight anger. No one said anything, for none of them knew what to say.
"I'm going to work" Was the only thing Henry said before turning and exiting out of his son's room, leaving the two women their as they watched the note slowly drift to the floor.
Time past as the two females sat there on Seth's floor, silent streams of tears flowing down their cheeks as they looked at the note.
After what felt like days, but really was only minutes after Henry left the house. Sue sighed and wiped her tears away before softly pushing Leah away and smiling down at her.
"Now come on, let's do what Seth asked us to do and wipe these tears away, let a smile grace our lips and pray that we will meet and see each other again" Sue said smiling as she wiped the tears from Leah's cheeks away.
"...okay" Leah said softly, nodding her head softly and getting up and walking with her mother out of the room, looking back before closing the door and walking down the hall.
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Jacob walked towards the Clearwater's house with a smile on his face. The day was great. Work wasn't backed up with demands from clients. They only had a few here and there during his shift and the clients were nice and had a good chat with them here and there. So all round today was a good day for Jacob.
"I'm back" Jacob called to the house as he entered through the door, closing it as he took his shoes off and headed for the living room with a smile and ready to relay his day to his soon-to-be-family.
The smile faltered as he entered and saw all the grieving faces of the pack and his soon-to-be-family. "What's up" he asked his smile still on his face, only holding a little of the enthusiasm as when he entered. He looked toward his fiancé for an answer, he watched as she went to get up, but was beat as Sue stood up and walked over to him.
"Come with me" Sue walked on heading for the stair, he looked towards Leah in confusion, only to get a nod as a 'go ahead'. His confusion increased as he followed Sue up the stair and down the hall, heading for Seth's room.
By the time Jacob entered the room, Sue had an envelope with Jacob's name on it. "Read this" She simply said handing the envelope to Jacob, patting Jacob on his shoulder as she walked on towards the door, "Come down when you're ready" she said before closing the door.
Jacob was beyond confused and curious to know what was in this envelope. He walked towards the bed and sat down, looking at the item in his hand and debating whether he should open it or not.
His curiosity got the best of him, he opened the flap and pull the folded paper out, unfolding it and reading its context.
Dear Jacob
I am sorry that you won't be getting your answer from me in the time you have given me. Just like the letter I wrote to my family, I didn't know how I should write this, if I should beat around the bush or not. So I'm just going to go out and say it.
I've run away. This isn't a joke, I am serious. Don't try calling the police, the authorities or the pack to come look for me for you will never find me. please believe me when I say its best this way. For with this way, you can have all of your dreams come true with Leah, you have that family that you want. You can have that big wedding that you want, teach your son how to drive or ride a motorcycle, protect your little girl from the boyfriends that she has, you can do all of that with Leah. And if I stayed, you wouldn't have been able to do any of that with me. So that's why I left. To let you live your dreams.
Don't worry about me, like I've told my family. Well not too much, but just trust in me please, for me.
I only have one request. Please make my sister happy. make sure she will always have a smile on her face every single day, make sure you make her laugh, and make sure to never let her cry over something sad. Please, if not for me then for Leah. Please Jacob, I know you can give her all of that. For that's the kind of person you are, you make everyone around you happy, whether your near them or in their thoughts. Like you will always be in mine. So please make my sister happy, and give her all of your heart. Not half, but all of it, make it as strong as you can make it please.
I know that if I continue writing, I'm going to let the tears roll down my eyes. I'm so sorry that I've gone and done this, but it's for the best Jacob. For you and for me. So please don't come looking, but even if you do, like I know you will, you won't find me. By the time you find something I'll be gone already. So don't come, stay and live your life with Leah, for it's a better option for you.
Ok, I'm going to stop now. Otherwise I'm going to have to re-write this again. And like I told my family, just do what I'm going to be doing.
'Wipe those tears away. Let a smile grace your lips. And pray that I'll come back and we'll see each other again'
Love always
Seth Clearwater
P.S. Please don't let Leah ever see this note. Burn it or something please.
Jacob felt like a piece of him has just been taken away. 'Seth...you've run away' he thought to himself as he stared at the note, tears escaping from his eyes as he re-read the note.
The soft sound of knocking came to the door, but Jacob didn't pay any attention to it, he only continued to stare at the letter in his hands. "Jacob..." his only response was him looking up to see Sue standing there with a sad smile on her lips as she watched Jacob silently cry on Seth's bed. "Supper is ready. I made it early because I think everyone needs a good's night rest" Jacob only nodded, before looking down at the note in his hand. One promise came to Jacob's mind as Sue left him there.
'I'll do as you asked Seth. I'll make Leah happy. But if you come back, I'm making you mine forever'
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An: I only have one thing to say. This was a bitch of a chapter to write. Hopefully next chapter will be nicer to write. The next chapter should be a bit more fun, then after that, the actual fun begins. Yay.
So tell me what you think. Three main questions: Was it good? Were the letter good? And did this chapter tug at your heart strings? Please let me know, I'm actually quite paranoid about this chapter, hoping that it's to your satisfactory.
Well WolfPacFann out ^_^!
P.s: Remember, any advice you guys have let me know ^_^. I'll give you a cookie...