Ok this is starting at 512. Lucas and Lindsey get married. I hate writing for Lucas and Lindsey. It's my own personal hell. But I promise it's a Leyton story. (Peyton's POV)

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I couldn't believe I was here. At Lucas Scotts wedding. At the wedding that was supposed to be mine. But it wasn't it was hers. I like Lindsey she's nice. But I would like her more if she wasn't with Lucas. But she was. I don't know why I'm here. It's because Brooke said it made me look classy and over it but truth be told I'm not over it.

(At the wedding)

Brooke: Peyton this is a good thing, you're gonna be okay I promise. You're stronger than you think.

Peyton: It doesn't feel like it lately.

Brooke: I know but one of these days you're gonna find Mr. Right.

Peyton: I already did.

Brooke: No if you did this would be your wedding. I'll see you inside.

Peyton: Save me a seat.

It bothered me that Brooke didn't seem to understand. I really thought if anyone would it would be Brooke.

Mouth: Hey Peyton.

Peyton: Mouth look at you. Millie's must feel really lucky today.

Mouth: Haha. I'm sorry for this. I know it must be hard for you but I wanted you to know that you're the strongest person I know. If I were you I wouldn't be here.

Peyton: Damn Mouth you're gonna make me cry.

Mouth: I'm sorry I didn't mean to. (Hugging Peyton)

Mouth: Come on lets go inside.

Peyton: No you go ahead I just need a minute.

Mouth: If you need to go I can cover for you.

Peyton: Thanks but its not necessary.

I was sitting in the pew. At the love of my life's wedding. I couldn't help but wonder how we had fallen so far so fast. I wanted to blame her but I couldn't. Because it honestly wasn't her fault. I was spaced out so I didn't know what was going on but I distinctly heard Lucas say "I do." The walls closed in. I felt like I was falling. I wanted to cry but I knew I had to hold it in. Part of me wanted Lindsey to say no. But I knew it was selfish and wrong to Luke. I didn't care that it was wrong it was my last hope, the one thing I was desperately holding on to.

I listened closely now. I looked around and noticed everyone was listening closely. Lindsey paused before answering but she whispered "I do."

Karen sighed, Brooke squeezed my hand, Skills patted my arm, Haley gasped, and Nathan shook his head. I don't know, because his expression changed so fast, but I could have sworn Lucas looked disappointed. It was over. Everything I ever wanted was gone. After they walked down the aisle I hunched over and cried. I didn't care who was watching. It didn't matter anymore. So I made up my mind after I finished crying. I decided I was done feeling any emotion that might break me. Because I would rather feel nothing than to feel the pain of losing him.

(Back at the house)

Brooke and I skipped the reception.

Brooke: He'll understand.

Peyton: I don't care if he does or not.

Brooke: Peyton, you can't do this. Don't stop your life.

Peyton: Brooke without him my life is over.

Brooke: You don't get it do you. At the end of the day they'll be married but you and Lucas will always have something more.

Peyton: I can't talk about this anymore. I'm going to bed. Goodnight.

Brooke: Night P. Sawyer.

That night I cried myself to sleep. I heard Nathan and Haley come over. The newlyweds were coming over the next day to say goodbye before the honeymoon. I knew I would have to get up and go to work, face him, or pretend to sleep in late. No matter what I did it would be hard. Because he wouldn't be there. I realized that with or without Lucas was vulnerable.

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Okay there's the first chapter. I would really love the reviews. Let me know what you want to happen. This is my first story so please be nice. If you hate Leyton go away. I wont get along with you. I'm on summer vacation so I'll update as much as possible. If you have a story you want me to read I'd love to. But I only read Leyton.-Aubrey