A/N This slightly depressing fic came to me while listening to the LOTR soundtrack. What would Allen do, if faced with the fact that he let his Noah out and it hurt the order? This takes place a few months after the fact, after he had defeated the Millennium Earl.
He walked through the storm. Alone, not a trace remained of his former life.
Where once was light
He had once sat in the bright halls surrounded by his friends.
Now darkness falls
It had crept slowly out of the shadows. Everything was entirely his fault.
Where once was love
She was there. She was his.
Love is no more
And he destroyed her.
Don't say goodbye
Remembering her tear-streaked cheeks, he unconsciously reached his hand out in front of his body, as if to catch something.
Don't say I didn't try
He had tried to stop it. Mentally berating himself for thinking that he could change the past, he walked on.
These tears we cry
Something wet fell on his hand. Reaching up he noticed his left eye was bleeding tears again.
Are falling rain
He looked up at the storm surrounding him. The sky seemed to reflect his feelings.
For all the lies you told us
He thought of the lies that thing, that personality, had told him before it took over and destroyed everything he cared about.
The hurt, the blame!
He blamed himself. Everything was his fault for being so weak.
And we will weep to be so alone
From his right eye, salty tears mixed in with the rain. His friends were gone, none left to laugh, or to just be with him.
We are lost
Allen and the 14th wandered, not knowing where they stepped, not caring where they went.
We can never go home
He could never go back; nothing was left of his former home.
So in the end
This was the end for him. The Noah had almost completely taken over his mind; he barely had kept his sense of self.
I'll be what I will be
He knew that he was a monster. What he had done had just proved it.
No loyal friend
His mind brought up the image of Lavi, laughing, and playing pranks on Kanda.
Was ever there for me
Then his mind thought of when his twisted innocence, in the hands of the 14th, had slaughtered them both.
Now we say goodbye
He dismissed the memories. What use was the past now anyway?
We say you didn't try
He instantly attempted to grab them back, regretting ever sending them away in the first place.
These tears you cry
Lenalee, tear stricken, as she called for Allen to stop this, this murder of his dearest friends and family.
Have come too late
Her smile as he broke through the 14th's hold, only to say goodbye, as his sword tore through her neck.
Take back the lies
He wanted this all to end. The untruths he had been told, and the half-lies he had convinced himself of, fell, as if never been.
The hurt, the blame!
It pained him. The mere mention that it was all his fault that everyone he loved died when the 14th awoke, sent him back into hiding within his own mind.
And you will weep
Unashamed of his tears, Allen walked on.
When you face the end alone
He had convinced his other half to let him out, if only for a few minutes. Too bad it was only to kill himself.
You are lost
He probably was crazy after all those months locked in his mind.
You can never go home
Because of what he was about to do, he would probably never get to see his friends or Mana again.
You are lost
He activated Crown Clown.
You can never go home
And tore though his own chest. As he lay dying, he laughed at the 14th's struggle to get out once more. The laughter brought up coughs of blood. His heartbeat slowed, his hand reached up to the sky, where he saw her once more as the light left his eyes.
A/N Thank you for reading. Please review. I dunno if this fic is any good…