Don't Fear The Reaper
For once, I'm fortunate that I don't have a heart. Yes, I admit it, I don't have a heart. Despite all of the posing, all the denial, I really don't have a heart. Because if I had a heart, I'd be terrified. I'd be crying, or screaming, or maybe I'd just run away...
This is to be my final performance. I have no chance to win, I'm not a fighter, and several real fighters have already fallen before Sora. So, why am I here? Because of loyalty to Xemnas? That's a laugh. To liberate Sora's 'true disposition', or whatever The Superior said? The man can't just speak simple English, always fancy terms...I'm supposed to corrupt the kid. Not such pretty words as he used, but it means the same thing. Whatever the words, whatever the orders, I'm to try to turn the boy into what I am. A pitiful, heartless shadow of a man. I should just leave, leave Xemnas to do his own dirty work... But I can't. I'm here because I have nowhere else to go... What would I do? Beg for mercy? Hope that someone would take pity on a poor, heartless Nobody and take me in? I had hope, even as I am now, I had hope that Xemnas could restore my heart to me. I knew better, why would the man who stole my heart, my emotions, everything that made me me, return it willingly? Once again, I was in denial. Now I have to face reality, I'll never have my heart back, I'll never be able to enjoy life, never be able to create new lyrics from the depths of my soul, never be able to love. All of those things require a heart. I need a heart even to have the desire to save my own life. Self-Preservation is a matter of instinct, true, but you still have to care enough not to walk into the line of fire...
I hope Xemnas burns in hell, if that wretched castle isn't hell already. At one time, I would never had said such a thing against anyone, but if a Nobody can hate, then I surely hate Xemnas. He corrupted me, he corrupted the entire Organization, made us into these pathetic mockeries of human beings. I cannot even cry over what I've lost. Will anyone weep for me? No, and nor would I weep for them. I can't.
I just wish I could enjoy the music again, just once...
He's here, it's time for my final performance. I'll put the mask back on, even now, I'll smile and pretend I'm still a man.
The End
This was one of my earliest stories, I've tried to correct the flaws in spelling and grammar, and, hopefully, made it just a little bit better.
Demyx' thoughts before Sora arrives. My way of apology for making him look like a helpless idiot in "The Fangirl Horror".
Demyx, Xemnas, Sora and Organization XIII copyright Square Enix.
The title, of course, is from the song Don't fear The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult.