It's been ten years since I last saw her, ten years since I've lost the one I loved. To me, it has only been a few days since I watched her walk away to be with him, to her it's been a lifetime.
For years, we were always together, singing duets, talking late into the night, sharing our secrets, if only I had the courage to tell her that I've always loved her. I wish I had before she left, before I lost the opportunity to ever tell her.
I watched over her as she stayed with him, through the good and bad times, when they had fights, when he continually cheated on her and her constantly forgiving him. Did she never know that I loved her, that I will always love her?
I always stay where we first met, where my life had changed forever, where I had lost her. I waited and waited, even knowing that she would never see me again. That she had left me behind for another.
Even after time passed, I still love her. Her smile, her courage, and her love of all things. I always thought that goodbye would never happen but our lives changed, never to go back to the way things were.
I can't stop imagining that I could be him, that I am the one beside her, to support her through the tough times, to share all the happy ones. Even if she chose him, I still love her.
If she was to have chosen me over him, would her pure heart still be untainted? Choosing me would have stained her soul, given her a broken heart that would never heal.
I still love you.
I looked up in shock when arms wrapped around me from behind, arms that I've felt long ago before everything changed. I dare not hope that this is true, it could only be a dream that she has returned to me, for her to choose me over him.
When I tried to pry the arms off, their grip got stronger, as if they never want me to leave their arms.
I'm scared. If I was to open my eyes, to look them in the face, would they disappear? Would she still be here? Am I just dreaming? I don't want to know.
Slowly, the arms around me loosen. Gently, but with steady hands, I was turned around. What faced me was a sad smile asking for forgiveness, love shining through the tears in her eyes.
As so not to touch your broken wings,
With both hands, I will hold you,
while softly kissing away
the tears that spilled from your eyes.
I still love you