A/N - this drabble has been sitting on my laptop for some time now, doing nothing, so I thought I'd put it out there for everyone else to read (or ignore).
Disclaimer - those lovely boys still aren't mine.
God, I'm so stupid. I should never have hit you but you made me so mad. With those puppy dog eyes and "I told you I'd be late". Yeah, you told me Sam, but you didn't tell me you were gonna be blind drunk!
All night I waited for you. Do you know how it feels to worry that someone you care about, hell - someone you love, might not be coming home? Might be lying in an alleyway somewhere, bleeding out? I had no idea where you were or who you were with! And let's face it, just recently you've haven't exactly being playing by the book, have you Sammy? And me, being the stupid, trusting fool that I am, believed you when you said you were checking out a lead, that Bobby had some information he needed to share with you. Jeez – even now I still want that to be true. I could forgive you anything if you told me it was all for the job but I don't think you'll do that will you? Not after last night.
I'm not even sure now which part made me the maddest. Was it that you lied to me about where you were or what you were doing? Because I know now that you were out in the local dives downtown and I know you were drinking. Or was it that you lied to me about who you were with? Ruby? C'mon Sam! What were you thinking? She's a demon! Surely you can see that she's just using you! She'll throw you away like a used tissue when she's finished with you and not look back once. And you know who'll be left to pick up the pieces and put them back together again? Me - that's who. Because I always am, Sam. I'm always here to put you back together.
But this latest stunt of yours? I don't think I can do this much more, Sammy. I can't take much more of the lying and deceit. If you want to go your way, go with Ruby, then just say so, but don't string me along any more. I can't take it any more..