A/N: This is my first FanFic about anything, I've been having a this weird dream almost every day, just that every day there is a new part to it (I know it's creepy and freaky, but they are definitely the best dreams I've ever had). I really hope you enjoy it:)

Disclaimer: Dear Reader, I wish I owned everything and anything about Grey's but I sadly don't, if I did Mark and Lexie would have different conflicts than the ones that they're having right now, like what they should name their baby or where their wedding should be. Yep, life is sucky sometimes.

I don't own the title of this story or any chapter in it.

The title of this story is the song that plays when Mark is telling Lexie she could have a husband.

I recommend that if you haven't listened to any of the songs that will be titles, listen to them they will make a little more sense, and if they don't then who cares if at least the title makes sense:)

Summary: Life never went as expected to neither Lexie nor Mark, but when and how did life change so fast. Will they be able to face the bumps on the road, or will it just crash on them. Takes place three weeks after Mark and Lexie's 'discussion' in season 7 finale.

This chapter's title is Eric Hutchinson's

Prologue: Watching You Watch Him

She missed him; she missed his smell, his eyes looking right through her, his hands touching places only his hands should touch. Waking up together next to each other every morning, having breakfast together, and even leaving to work together each morning.

She missed having similar plans about family and marriage with him. But now, now everything was so different. He had a daughter (another one), and he had forgotten about her, again.

Why couldn't they go back to the moment she had just moved in with him, and there were no unexpected daughters, or babies in their lives. With no ex-sex-partners or whatever Alex used to be, and no boyfriends she had no deep feelings for.

Lexie's thoughts were interrupted by April, who had yet to give Lexie and Jackson their services for today.

"Jackson… you are with Dr. Sloan." April said in a way to cheerful way either Lexie or Jackson that morning.

"This is going to be good" Lexie murmured sarcastically to herself.

"What?" Jackson asked not being sure is she was talking to him.

"Wha— Um… Nothing, I said nothing" Lexie said in a very fast way for it to be 'nothing' Jackson thought.

"Ok if you say so." He said a little suspicious.

He started to walk away and turned around to face Lexie. She smiled, not wanting to make him think that she was hiding something. Not like it would be a lie she thought

"Dr. Grey, you are with Dr. Torres." April said in a lower voice, noticing that Lexie was seriously not in the mood for bright and shiny anything.

"Now this will be good!" she laughed to herself humorless.

"Dr. Grey!" Lexie heard Callie yell from behind.

She turned around to face her with probably the most real smile she could pretend. "I'm so sorry Dr. Torres, I just came from the pit, I was told you were there, but apparently you weren't."

"Save your energy Grey, you are going to need it for today." Callie said. She started walking down the hall so Lexie followed closely.

"Really? Is there a big surgery? Is there an incoming or something big?" Lexie started asking getting a little overexcited, and starting to believe that today maybe wasn't going to be as bad as she had imagined.

"No, we are going to be working with Dr. Sloan and Dr. Avery today" Callie explained holding back a laughter she knew Lexie wouldn't probably appreciate.

"Not funny" She demanded noticing Callie's face.

"Sure." She deadpanned before opening the door to their patient's room.

"Dr. Torres, Grey" Well at least he acknowledges Lexie thought.

"Dr. Avery, present." Mark said as he passed the chart to Jackson.

"Kelsey Collins, 23, came in last night after rescued from a fire that took place at her kitchen, she complained from pain in her left leg, also her lower extremities have third degree burns" He offered the chart to Lexie so she could finish but she was to concentrated on those blue eyes that were across from her.

"X-rays showed a broken femur, which Dr. Torres will try to fix in surgery. The x-rays didn't show any nerve damage, so Dr. Sloan will debride the burns, and if the damage isn't to extensive then he will place skin grafts on the outer side of both of your legs." Lexie said not being able to look away from Mark's hypnotizing eyes.

Knowing neither of Mark or Lexie would be able to proceed Callie asked "Do you have any questions before the nurses come prep you for surgery?"

"Yeah, Dr. Grey said that the x-rays didn't show any nerve damage, but then she said that Dr. Sloan would place the grafts if there wasn't much damage, I don't understand, is there damage or not?" Kelsey asked a little concerned that maybe Dr. Grey was a little distracted staring somewhere else and wasn't speaking accurately.

"Dr. Grey please be more specific to your patient." Jackson said having received enough with the stares between her and her ex.

"Sorry" she said snapping out of their own little world, and then turning around to look at a very worried patient, "x-rays can only tell us so much, sometimes there is nerve or tissue damage, but it's really hard to see on an x-ray, so surgery would be the only option to see if your nerves are damaged."

"Ok, thank you Dr. Grey" Callie said "do you have any more questions?"

"No thank you" Kelsey replied a little more calm.

The doctors started to leave the room, Lexie going last when she heard Kelsey calling her.

"Do you need anything?" Lexie asked with a sweet smile.

"It's none of my business, but is Dr. Sloan you husband or boyfriend?"

Lexie felt as she started blushing "No, no he's not my husband nor boyfriend." She stammered a little.

"Sorry, is that by the way you were looking at each other made it seem like it." She apologized.

"Sorry, that was really unprofessional, and I shouldn't have done it." Lexie tried to explain

"So then I'm guessing that Dr. Avery is your boyfriend, by the way he kinda snapped you out of your world."

"Yeah, he is my boyfriend." Lexie said feeling like she shouldn't be talking to a patient about her personal life.

"I shouldn't be interfering in your personal life and this is the last I'll say about it" she tried to think about what she was going to say, but then she decided she should say it, "I think you should break up with your boyfriend and date Dr. Sloan. I'm not sure which of them is a better kisser or is better in bed, and by the looks of it you know the answer to that, but the way you were looking at Dr. Sloan had love written all over it."

Lexie now felt like she really shouldn't be there so she walked to the door and said "I'll see you in the O.R."

When Lexie came out of the room she was grabbed by the arm and gently pushed to a side.

"I noticed" Jackson said

"Noticed what exactly?" She asked a little dumbfounded

"This has been going on for quite a while, you staring at him, Sloan. At first I thought it was kind of cute, but now… Look Lex when I told you that I'm not the kind of guy who waits around for a girl who is still in love with someone, I meant it." He sighed and thought carefully about what to say next, "You… You are an amazing woman, you care for people, you are always trying to be the best you can be, and you see good in practically anyone. But you are obviously still in love with Sloan, so I think this is it." He said with a calm voice, then lifted her chin and gave her a small peck on her lips. "Just to remember our last kiss"

"But Jacks—"

"I want to be your friend, I don't want this to be something uncomfortable between the both us, maybe it will be uncomfortable for a while or maybe later on, who knows, but we can both try to make it a clean and comfortable break up. And if you want you can go back to him, probably it will hurt me for a while but I want you to be happy. This relationship just wasn't meant to be, so stop hiding your heart away from the truth."

"That would be nice… I mean the being friends part, Mark and I probably won't get back together, he is in a completely different place in life than I am." Lexie moved closer to him and hugged him. "Thanks."

"Um, you're welcome?" He said not knowing at all what she meant.

"Thanks for not being an ass like Alex, I mean I love Alex as friend, but when he walked away from me it was rude," she started laughing, "for God's sake I was having a nervous breakdown and he left me alone." She calmed down again and said, "Thanks for tolerating me and being my friend and a special person in my life."

Mark and Callie watched them from the nurse station, close enough to watch, but not enough to listen.

"Don't worry, I really doubt they will last long" Callie said trying to comfort her best friend from what they had just seen.

"Yeah… Whatever." He responded quite uncomfortable from what he had just seen and trying to change the subject he said, "Ok, let's go, we have a surgery to get to."

During Surgery

"Bone saw, please Bokie" Callie asked.

Jackson started laughing as Lexie just rolled her eyes at him being sure of what he was laughing.

"Not… Funny" Lexie states in a very serious voice and scowling at Jackson.

Jackson started laughing even harder knowing that she really didn't find it funny.

"What's 'Not funny'?" Mark asks

"Nothing" Lexie looked at Jackson with a face that he could only make out as her don't you dare face.

"Lexie is a psycho killer." Jackson said receiving confused faces from Mark and Callie, "About two weeks ago April, Meredith, and Lexie were in the living room when April brought up the idea of a chores list."

"Again!" Lexie interrupted "She always brings up that stupid chore wheel."

"Anyway, when Meredith agreed with her Lexie got up extremely pissed at both of them and yelled at April that if she really did it she wouldn't be running her over with her car, but instead she would ask Callie for a bone saw and chop of both of her hands. The look on April's face was priceless and Lexie went psycho so Meredith told April after Lexie stormed off to her room that it wasn't a good idea because she didn't want Lexie at the psych ward again."

Callie laughed, she didn't really like when April was so perky and happy, "Next time she gets me mad or frustrated I'm going to remind her that I have access to the bone saws in the hospital. Seriously next time something happens just tell me you could totally freak the perkiness out of her with one of those"

Jackson then asked "I really don't get your problem with a chore wheel, it would make things easier."

Lexie scowled at him and Mark said "Lexie doesn't like cleaning or doing anything that has to do with it actually, at my apartment she would just dump the clothes in the washing machine, I would normally be the one to wash the plates and fold the clothes."

"Yep sounds like her" Jackson laughed.

"Don't you remember I'm right in front of both of you," Then she whispered, "I can actually hear you."

The guys just laughed as Callie gave Lexie an understanding look; Callie never really liked the idea of cleaning either.

Callie deciding that it was enough of making fun of Lexie tried changing the subject "Ok, seems like we are done here, great job. By the way, who taught you how to do a suture so good?"

Lexie looked around and smiled slightly, "Dr. Sloan taught me when I was an intern."

Callie eyed her and her best friend suspiciously, "When did you teach her how to do it? And why didn't you teach me too Mark?"

"It was after the fight with Derek, I couldn't get an angle in my cheekbone so I decided it was a great time for her to learn."

"Which fight?" Jackson asked completely oblivious about the two McWhatever's fight.

Callie deciding that it might be out of Mark's or Lexie's comfort zone said "Derek had warned Mark from Lexie but he didn't obey him—"

"Actually it was me, but I didn't know I was 'Prohibited fruit', I just didn't know about anything until Mar— Dr. Sloan told me then next day."

"Well anyway, when Mark went to tell Derek about him and Lexie, about 2 months after it had started, Derek had just lost an important patient, so they got into a fist-fight."

"It was unnecessary" Lexie said looking a Jackson, but from the corner of her eye all she could see was Mark.

"It wasn't" Mark said finishing up with Kelsey's right thigh.

All the sudden a pink elephant stepped into the room, and they all grew quiet.

Callie was apparently the only one who wasn't affected by the awkwardness, so she guided them to the scrub room, and wanting to end the quietness said "Well, the surgery went pretty great, how about a drink to celebrate?"

"Sure, why not." Lexie said.

"Ok" Jackson agreed.

"I'll go there later; I have a few things to do before, maybe in half an hour?" Mark answered.

At Emerald City

After about 25 minutes of waiting for Mark, Callie was going crazy with Lexie and Jackson who wouldn't stop talking about stories or whatever had happened between them. Callie had enough, and was grateful her phone started buzzing.

"Excuse me." She said as she waved her phone at them and walked away answering.

Lexie couldn't stop laughing because Jackson wouldn't stop teasing her about her clumsiness.

"I'm not that clumsy, am I?" She asked, it was obvious to anyone that she was already a little bit tipsy.

"They had to invent a new scale to measure her clumsiness, because the 1 to 10 crap wasn't enough" Mark said as he got closer and closer to the table in which they were sitting. "Where is Torres?"

"She left the table to answer her phone" Jackson pointed towards her, "I'm guessing she might be having a discussion with Arizona by the way she won't stop pacing."

"Ok" starting to move to the bar he asked "Any of you need another drink?"

"I think we're ok."

"No!" She looked at Jackson with hurtful eyes; "I want another tequila shot!" she smiled at Mark.

"Ok?" he looked at Jackson "How many has she had?"

Knowing that Lexie would be mad at him if he answered that question he just showed him 6 fingers.

"Ok then, one more shot for you little miss and I think that will be more than enough." Mark said knowing that Lexie could handle a few more before she wasn't able to think straight. He knew Lexie had a very strong liver, but after a couple nine shots and a beer and she would black out.

"That's not fair."She pouted, "I've only had six, and I can still touch my nose with my index fingers see?" She demonstrated him as he laughed and Mark came back with the drinks and sat down across Lexie and Jackson.

"Wow, she is still on the phone?" Mark asked, he knew that when they spent that much time on the phone it meant they were having a discussion.

Callie came back to the table, grabbing Lexie's shot and downing it extremely fast.

"Hey! That's mine, or was!" Lexie called out.

"Yeah well, I have to go back home because apparently Arizona has a 'VITHP' and can't take care of Sophia"

"A what?" Jackson asked as dumbfounded as the two other people next to him.

"A Very Important Tiny Human Patient." She said as she said her good-byes and left.

After a couple of hours of Mark and Jackson talking about stupidities and their manliness, Lexie laughing uncontrollably at their comments, and a few comments about what a great surgeon Jackson was becoming, and asking Lexie what she would like to take as her fellowship, but her not answering. Jackson stood up and said "Ok Lex I am really tired so let's go home."

"I don't want to go home yet!" she said

"Yeah well I do, and you can't drive right now, so I think it would be best if we left now."

"If you want I can take her to Mer's when she wants because I was actually going to stay here for a few more minutes."

"Oh, well you don't have to worry Jackson can wait." She said really not wanting to bother Mark.

"Seriously?" he looked at her with a sleepy face, "If I wait a little longer then I will probably fall asleep while driving, and I really doubt it would be a safe and responsible thing to do."

"Don't worry I seriously don't have any trouble taking her, I have to hand Derek a few charts for a second opinion anyway.

"Ok sure" Jackson said shaking his hand with Mark's and giving Lexie a peck on her cheek and leaving.

"I'm sorry, I know you told me to not talk to you and to leave you alone, but what was that? Mark asked.

"What was what?" She asked having an inkling about what he was about to ask her, but not wanting to answer.

"That, the kiss on the cheek, what was that?" he asked her again.

"Well in normal civilization that is how people usually call that saying good-bye." She answered not wanting to say much about it.

"Yes, I know that, you do that when you are friends with someone, don't tell me you've gone pathetic on him too?" He asked.

Lexie smiled, she missed the old days when called her that.

She knew he would find out sooner or later, and knowing him he would rather it came from her, "Yeah, well… we um kind of broke-up , more like he broke up with me."

"What, when? Why?" not being able to believe her, they had been pretty much civilized the whole time he was with them.

"Before surgery"

"Didn't you two kiss before surgery?"

"Yeah, he said it would be to remember us." She answered knowing that she hadn't answered his other question and that he would be asking it next.

"Why did you break-up?"

She shrugged "He said he didn't want to wait around for me."

"Wait around for what? Did he propose and you said 'not now' or something?" he asked really not wanting the second question to be the why. He wanted to be the only and first person who proposed to her, even if it was far from actually happening, and he had already kind of proposed to her when she was with Alex.

Lexie laughed, who could he be asking her this, "No, no he didn't propose, and he didn't do anything wrong. It was one hundred percent my fault."

"Then why?" he kept asking

God, she really missed his stubbornness.

"He said he didn't want to wait for someone who still was in love with somebody else, if I recall correctly." she said.

"Which I'm sure you do recall correctly." he stated

Lexie simply nodded.

"Do you love somebody else?" He asked

"I think there is no need for me to answer that question, because I am positive we both know the answer to it." Then she whispered, "Do you?"

"Do I what?"

"Do you love someone?

He looked deeply into her eyes and said "There are only two girls in my life right now, one of them is my daughter, and I wouldn't mind if that number would go up when the right time came with the other woman in my life. Do you know who she is?"

Lexie was pretty sure she knew the answer to his question, but decided to better not answer it in case she was wrong and simply answered by moving her head sideways as in saying 'no'.

"It's you Lex. It will always be you"

She could feel the tears starting to well in her eyes, but not wanting to set them free. She really missed the man that was in front of her.

"Lex" he sighed noticing the tears in her eyes, "If I can't have you, then at least I want to be your friend, because I just can't look at you every day and not be able to touch you, or hold you, but the hardest part is to not talk to you, because I miss you. What do you say, can we be friends or not?"

She nodded a little heartbroken; she was sure that if he had asked her to be his girlfriend she would've said yes. But if friends was the closest thing they could be right now, then be it, "Friends… sure" she whispered.

He could totally sense her heartbreak, but he had to think of his own stability first.

"Come on Little Grey, I'll take you home."

She smiled at the name he used to use for her, maybe she wouldn't have to hide her heart away much longer.

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