The light against the darkness

Chapter 1 - Hurt

I'm just fixing the mistakes in these chapters and changing the bold text after someone asked me to

So this is a Bella/Alice story don't like two girls together don't read simple as really :)

Now a couple of things I think I should point out about this story before you read it:

1. Alice and Jasper are obviously not together; Jasper is with Edward and well if all goes well Alice will be with Bella.

2. Bella is well different a little bit dark and depressing but you'll understand why in later chapters.

And 3. If Bella becomes a vampire in this story her power might be different but I'm not sure if I want to change it yet :)

If there are any spelling or punctuation mistakes in this then me apologies my grammar is absolute crap.

Oh yeah I do not own any of the Twilight characters Stephanie Meyers does unfortunately!

You know how people say your life flashes before your eyes as you die, well I certainly wasn't dying but my life was flashing before my eyes, well parts of it anyway and the one thing they had in common?

Love.

Just that one word has caused me so much joy but also so much pain and suffering.

I never knew those three little words that everyone dreams of hearing could drastically change a person but I do now when those words were first said to me I felt so much love I thought I was gunna faint or something, it was an amazing feeling.

Then they were said to me again and I hated them, the pain in my chest at that moment in time was unbearable it was like my heart was being ripped agonizingly slowly in two, it was like as those words were said my life was taken away from me, I never wanted to hear those words again. I promised myself I wouldn't get anywhere close to feeling that way again. So I closed myself off from people, I became a shell of what I really was, people started seeing me differently I could hear them whispering saying I wasn't the same anymore, can't say I blame them really I mean you wouldn't be the same if you went through what I went through. I can tell you for a fact you wouldn't, you would of changed to but you can't blame me, I had to protect myself the only way I knew how but the pain was still there it was like an added part of me and it got so much that I couldn't take it anymore, so I decided to move away from the place that held so many memories, I thought that if I moved away I could find some of my normal self again but then again maybe not.

So I moved I went to my dad in Forks, on the plus side it was the exact opposite to Phoenix, it was small and the weather from what I remember was always cold and wet.

And that's where I met her, I could tell straight away that she was like them, I mean she was just so inhumanly beautiful, she looked so soft and warm but at the same time hard and cold, I remember walking into the classroom and getting told to sit next to her, I hadn't looked up at all until she said hello to me and when I did I froze I could of sworn my heart stopped beating for a second or two, she was smiling at me but her eyes weren't red but a strange golden colour but I still knew what she was. Vampire I had whispered under my breath at the time and I saw her tense and the smile slowly slip off her face until she was just looking at me, obviously waiting to see what I did next, I just stood there, unsure of what I should do, if I ran she probably would follow me but if I stayed then she would want answers, screw that I had thought at the time she knows you know so she's gunna want answers anyway, I was vaguely aware of the teacher looking at me, so I had just shook my head and hesitantly sat down in my seat trying to be as far away as possible but the table wasn't very long so we we're basically brushing each other's arms she didn't try and speak to me though, when the bell rang for lunch I grabbed my stuff and ran out of there as quickly as possible. My heart was pounding as I collapsed by my motorbike, dad didn't like it but I loved it, when I was on it I felt safe and happy I'd gotten it after well after the incident, gasping for breath I closed my eyes and pulled my knees up to my chest trying to get my breathing in order.

I felt a presence next to me, opening my eyes I jumped about a foot in the air, it was her, I started to get up but her hand shot out and grabbed my arm, it felt like a freezing cold water was trying to douse a fire, I knew there was no point in struggling cause of all that super strength shit, so I sat slowly down once again trying to look anywhere but her eyes I didn't want her to get a thrill out of seeing my fear.

"I'm not going to hurt you; I swear I just want to know how you know what I am?" She had said quietly her voice sounded like high pitch bells but in a way it was soothing.

That is really none of your business but isn't it obvious I've had dealings with your kind before and well it didn't end well, I had replied back mentally patting myself on the back for the amount of venom I had managed to put in my sentence.

She had looked taken aback for a moment but then composed herself, 'yes well I can assure you that I won't hurt you, neither will the rest of them, we are not like the others as you can see we go to school and drink animal blood, so you are quite safe, I promise. She had said to me and I remember how she sounded so honest and there was a battle going on within me, part of me was saying that she was lying and that I should go back to Phoenix and the other part of me was saying that I could trust her and that she would keep me safe.

I had sat there for a few minutes taking it all in but then I remembered her saying something about there being others 'Wait there's others at this school! I had basically shrieked at her but she didn't react except to give a small smile and say they were her family.

After that we sat looking at each other for what seemed like an eternity to me but probably seconds to her, assessing each other before she slowly even slowly for a human extended her hand to me.

'Alice Cullen' She had said

I had looked at her hand doubtfully for a minute before slowly reaching out and grasping her hand, as soon as I did that I felt an electrical shock pass through my arm and my hand burned it seemed like my body was trying to rid itself of the cold.

'Bella Swan' I answered back.

So after that little encounter I like to call it we went our separate ways and then I didn't speak to her for a week and I probably still wouldn't be speaking to her now but I am because she saved me getting crushed from Tyler's van for which I was grateful, it was very hard to be friends with her I remember all the times when I would just go silent or my breathing would come in short gasps when I would remember that night, although I gotta hand it to Alice she was always there to help and she never asked what brought it on although I think she had a fairly good idea.

Against my better judgment we became closer and even closer she told me many of her secrets about how she can see the future and what she would give to know about her life before being a vampire, time passed us but I never told her any of mine and I somehow knew that this upset her a little but she never let it show, she made me come out of myself a little and be happy, I became more comfortable around her and her family to some extent I loved Esme she filled the mother role that I needed at times, I never liked Rosalie and it carried on like that for about two months until we come to well now.

So here I am sitting in my bedroom crossed legged on my bed with Alice sitting exactly the same in front of me our knees ever so slightly touching.

"Bella I need to tell you something and I can't see how you're going to react, so you have to promise me you won't freak out." Alice says to me oh yeah I forgot she sometimes couldn't see me, it infuriated her to no end but it gave me a good ole chuckle when it happened.

"Sure sure." I replied smiling a little at how I had just used my best friend Jacob Black's favorite phrase.

"Well I um I kinda um well you see the thing am..." Wow Alice is stuttering that never happens

"Yes Alice what is it?" I ask leaning forward ever so slightly

"I love you." She says to me and I freeze instantly those three little words that I prayed I would never hear again, those three little words that had broken me so badly, that had made me change, those three little words that I hated.

I. Love. You.

I didn't know what to say.

So that's the first chapter what did you think?

Should I write more? I know it was a little confusing or maybe a lot but as the story goes on it becomes clearer.

So review NO FLAMES please and if I get enough reviews I'll carry on with this story, if not well I guess it can work well as a one-shot :)

The chapter title Hurt is by Christina Aguilera

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