Flashback
Edward and the rest of the Cullen's were absent from school today due to the nice weather. I saw that there was a note on my bed asking me to meet Edward in the woods. I put my stuff on the bed and headed out to the woods behind the house. I quickly spotted Edward.
"Hey." He greeted me with a kiss. But it wasn't like the others. This was filled with sorrow, pain, regret.
"Bella, we're leaving. And I mean myself and my family. It's the end now."
"What? Y-y-you can't. No, not with out me."
"We have no choice. We've been here too long as it is."
"Too long? Its only been three years. It's about what happened at my party, isn't it? Edward, that was nothing."
"But it could've been something. I almost got you killed again."
"It's not your fault. Its nobody's fault. Jasper wasn't only feeling his own bloodlust. It was everyone else's too that he was feeling."
"Yes it is entirely my fault. I shouldn't have put you in danger at all. It was a mistake being with you. I'm so sorry."
"I'm going with you." I said with force in my tone, hoping that he would give in.
"No you are not." He said with more force. "It's far too dangerous for you. I have put you in too much danger. Honestly, I am surprised you have held up so well. I am not right for you. You need to find a human to fall in love with."
"I don't want anyone but you, Edward. Nobody else is good for me."
"Yes there are. There are others far better for you than I am. Bella, I do not want you."
"Edward, please. Don't leave."
"I have to. The rest of us are already gone. I wont interfere with your life again. Goodbye."
And with that, he left.
End flashback
I couldn't help the tears running down my face as the memory came back to me so clearly as if the past two months had only been two days. The depression from the past two months was hurting Charlie and Renee. I couldn't put them through more.
I finally decided it was time. I took a quick shower and changed into shorts, a Hollister shirt and tennis shoes. I packed a bag containing only a few clothes and some necessities and wrote a note for Charlie.
Charlie,
I left. Please, if you love me you wont come looking for me. And please don't blame the Cullen's. It's not their fault. Not even Edward's. This all on me, all my choice. I can say that I will not be in the States anymore. I cannot guarantee that we will see each other again. I would hate to get your hopes up. But if all goes well, it will be a better life for me. Not that you and Renee haven't already given me a good life. And I know that it may seem selfish, but it's what I want.
Love, Bella
After grabbing my passport, I headed to the bank and got out my college fund knowing I wouldn't need it any longer. I booked a flight to Italy and still had a few hundred dollars left over.
During the flight I was thinking of ways to approach the Volturi. I was hoping for death. I didn't want to live in a world where he wasn't in it. And if death was not given to me, then I would want immortality. It was the only thing he wouldn't give me. If it was offered, I would take it gladly. Sure I would still be living in the world without him, but I would have what I wanted, the only thing I asked for, and he couldn't do anything about it. I would join the Volturi, surviving off of primarily human blood. I knew this went against all that I had was taught, about the value of the human life, but I would be living with these vampires. And I am sure that I would have adapt to their lifestyle. As the plane started to descend, I started to get nervous about what was to come in the next few hours.
I got off the plane and headed to luggage claim. I walked out of the airport and got a cab. The nerves were starting to kick in and when we arrived in front of the castle, I knew fate was either going with me or against me. If it went with me, I would have immortality. If it went against me, I would have the physical death. But it would be death without what I wanted most. Either way, I would be dead. The Volturi would say that I knew too much about them. Carlisle said that humans who knew about vampires and had meet the Volturi were offered death or immortality. Most likely, I would be offered those two choices as well. And I already knew which I would pick.