I would like to dedicate this to my boyfriend who gets the song, If I Didn't Have You, stuck in my head everything he sees Quest for Camelot.

Don't Own, Don't Sue.

Prologue

As i stand waiting for this girl, Kayley i think they said her name was, to walk down the isle i start to wonder why I'm here. IF i was as sane as i would have most people believe i would have stayed at home. But when i heard Garrett was back, getting married no less and knighted too, i couldn't stay away. And to think i had myself convinced i didn't care what happened to him.

After the accident no one not even him thought he'd ever be a knight but life's funny that way i suppose. I always believed in him but i guess she gives him a courage i didn't. I'm just glad he finally found his way, even if i wasn't there to watch.

I'm trying not to be angry or jealous i really am but its so hard. He's standing there looking so happy and confident, i haven't seen him like that in years. Oh what i wouldn't give to be the one to make him smile like that.

He doesn't look much different though. His hair is a little longer not then it was three years ago and he's much better dressed. Still has that damn stick of his but his sword is missing, i guess he trough it in the lake after i left that last time. I don't blame him, i said so many horrid things that day. It doesn't matter now, i cant change it. I'm not as upset now as i was the day i found out about the wedding.

I had been working out in the garden, trying to pull weeds from the soil, when the messenger showed up. "Is Lady Minra at home?" The messenger asked glancing around for my mother. "I'm afraid not, " I reply, "She's gone to Camelot for a few weeks. May i ask what it is you've been sent to tell her?" The man smiles at this. "Garret, soon to be Sir Garret, requests her attend his knighting and marriage ceremony to Kayley daughter of the late Sir Lionel and Lady young woman is also being knighted it's going to be marvelous. The King himself is doing the ceremony."

My head started to spin as his words sunk in. Garrett, Married? Knight? "Are you alright Miss you look pale?" The man asks, i shake me head a little and steady myself. " Why is he being knighted?" "Oh him and the young miss are the ones that brought Excalibur back and saved the kingdom." I felt my stomach move to up my throat. "I'll pass the word on to Lady Minra, when should i tell her to be there?" I ask not really wanting to know how soon my world would crash. "Two months. Are you sure you're alright?" He asks again. "I'm fine, you may go now." I snap back at him, and he hurries away.

I slowly turn and walk into my home not really seeing anything around me. By the time i get to my room my vision is blurry and tears are pouring down my cheek. So many thoughts go through my head it starts to ache. Why? I ask myself. I tried so hard, i even left him because... and now he's marrying her. The daughter of Sir Lionel, isn't that just perfect and perfectly ironic.

I collapse on my bed and cry harder, and for the rest of the night the tears kept pouring out. Even as the next day came and went i cried and cried until my eyes could produce no more water. And then i after all that i made up my mind that i was going to come to the wedding and here i am. As i stand here waiting and staring at he man i once thought loved me the painful memories of what used to be over take my mind.