Hello! I am not dead! Yaay! I am back with a new story! Well, It's old but I finally got a hold of it and now it's new again?...Yes. So This one is really long and I already have 8 and 0.25 chapters done and the story itself is not complete but close to it. So yeah, long.
Just a little note, I'm trying to work on my current stories, "Hold On" and "Nothing to Lose, Something to Gain" but I am lost in both. ;A; I have outlines for them though...so I'm hoping I can get back to them and finish them soon.
I also want to write one-shots cause long stories are killing me even though I love them! Anyways, no one reads these so I'll shut up. DX
I really hope you guys like this one cause I do!
I looked out the window as it began to rain. I frowned a bit and looked in Zim's direction. Zim too was wearing a frown, it was a bigger frown than mine. Water severely burned the alien's green skin and I wondered what it felt like to burn when water hit your skin but didn't want to experience it at all.
I went back to doodling on my page. Lately me and Zim had been hanging out, mostly out of boredom. I have nothing better to do but study Zim and Zim was having a 'break' from destroying the world so we settled on a neutral agreement to hang out after school. I was ok with it, I mean at first I was suspicious -very suspicious- but Zim was uncaring of my suspicion and eventually it wore off.
On nice days, we would go out to eat at fast food places and I would gorge on whatever I bought while Zim just watched in pure disgust. At one point Zim demanded that I actually chew my food at least 10 times before I swallowed it. I argued with him about it and told him 'you're not the boss of me' and 'I'll do what I want, it's my food'. But then he took my food and hid it in his PAK where I could never access it again. The next time we ate at McMeaties, Zim watched me intensively as I tried to chew as he told me to. It was hard at first but now it was automatic.
But today was a rainy day so I might just walk Zim home or he'll come over and raid my candy stash. What he didn't know was that I kept it just for him since all he ate was sweet things and occasionally waffles.
I had to admit though, me and Zim were pretty good friends. We had hated each other for a really long time, since elementary school and we were in high school now. It sounded like a very long grudge but it was only the simple fact that Zim was a threat to earth and I was a threat to Zim's mission. Now that Zim was procrastinating –although he denies this- on his mission and earth was still rotating on its axis, everything was fine. But this truce won't last forever.
The teacher droned on and on about Shakespeare and his Macbeth play. Personally, I like Macbeth way more than Romeo and Juliet. The story line was way more realistic, making it more enjoyable than a story about sappy love at first sight crap were preteens kill themselves for their endless love for each other.
I heard the teacher say something about the story of Macbeth being made for the King of Scotland but the King didn't like it. I laughed at that and Zim was laughing too. Students stared at us and the teacher shushed us. We looked at each other and blushed a little, at least I did.
One thing about Zim was that I could never tell what he was feeling. I always knew when he was mad of course but ever since our strange friendship there has been a tension. It was faint but I feel it and it felt like the more I hung out with Zim the closer I wanted to get to him. The time we spend together gave me butterflies and I start to feel stupid. I'm not supposed to feel like this towards Zim. My 'frienimy'. I could ignore it but it would help to know if Zim felt the same way. But I'm afraid that asking him will ruin whatever it was we had. I like what we had and I hope he did too.
The bell rang for lunch and all the students rushed out the door. I was usually the last to get out of the room and Zim complained about it but he always waited for me.
Today Zim seemed more off than usual. As if he was constantly thinking or preoccupying his mind.
"Zim?" I called his name to get his attention.
"Eh?" he replied. A typical Zim response.
"What's up?" I was going to ask him if he was ok, but that sounded to girly.
"Uhm, nothing." he said looking around the cafe. I assumed he was looking for a place to sit. When we found one, we sat across from each other as usual and Zim was still looking around the cafe.
"What are you doing Zim?" I asked.
"Wha? Oh, uh nothing." he faced me. I got knots in my stomach when he stares at me with those fake indigo eyes. I feel even worse when they're his natural ones.
"Seriously Zim, what's up?" I asked for the second time.
Zim looked down for a bit and then back at me. "Can we skip school today?"
The question caught me off guard. Why did the alien seem so...cautious. The alien was probably trying to avoid a test or something again.
"All day?" I asked and Zim nodded.
I wasn't big on skipping but once in a while was alright.
"Um, sure, I guess. Is there a reason why you want to skip all of a sudden?" I asked as I got up from the bench.
Zim blushed and-. Wait, what! Zim was blushing! I think he was. The surface of his face was more dark than usual.
"Zim...eh, wants to be alone...with the Dib." Zim said nervously. My heart skipped a couple beats. "Completely, alone." the Irken added, almost in a harsh tone.
I started at Zim and couldn't find any words to say. Thoughts were racing in my head all at once and if I opened my mouth I might vomit nonsense to the alien. So I kept it simple.
"...Kay."
We got up and left the cafe.
We walked up to my locker first to grab my umbrella which I kept in there for rainy days. For Zim. I gave it to Zim to hold onto as I shut my locker.
"So...have any plans for us today?" I asked as we walked down the hall.
"Zim has something really special that he wants to show you." Zim said grinning happily at me. I smiled back.
"Do I get to know what it is?" I tried to coax the surprise out of the alien.
"Nope." The alien shook his head. "It's a surprise."
"Aw, are you good at keeping surprises within a 20 minute time length?" That's how long it took to get to Zim's house from the school.
"Very good." Zim smirked, causing me to whine a little bit. "Zim is amazing at everything!" He said thrusting his index finger in the air and I laughed as usual at how cocky he was.
We walked down the stairs until we reached the last floor and in front of the exit doors, Zim tried to open the umbrella but he always had difficulties doing it. He looked so cute pointing the umbrella downward to fiddle with the button and he would make grunting sounds as he struggled to open the 'life saver' as he called it. I chuckled and placed my hands on his, stopping his movements which were making things worse.
Zim looked up, startled.
"You press this thing remember." I said while holding his tiny finger to the button that magically opens the umbrella. The umbrella opened and I smiled and removed my hands, missing the contact. That was when I realized that not only did I have feelings for Zim, I literally wanted to feel him. I was scaring myself.
"Stupid humans are their simpleness." Zim grumbled as he lifted the umbrella over his head.
"Simple is easy and easy is good," I informed him.
We walked through the doors; it wasn't raining a lot but still enough to harm Zim. The downcast sky was grey and dismal and Zim popped out like contrast outside with the pink umbrella he made me buy. Irkens have a thing for pink. I wondered if they wore pink underwear too, the thought made me I giggle. Zim stared at me like I was laughing like a mad man.
"What's so funny, human?" He still called me little pet names relating to my species and or smell. Sometimes he would attach any random word that suited the situation. For example, when I ate hamburgers, chances are he would call me Dib-buger. I became immune to them all, in fact, I was beginning to like them.
"Oh nothing." I said teasingly, knowing it would make the alien mad.
"LIAR!" he pointed accusingly at me. The action removed the umbrella from above my head.
"Hey!" I said, wanting the umbrella over my head again. I reached for the handle and tugged it back but Zim pulled back.
"Only if you tell Zim why you were laughing, Dib-stink." he taunted and I narrowed my eyes.
"Fine. Just come back, I don't want to get wet either." I said and Zim scooted back, waiting for me to speak. I giggled a little again.
"Ok, so I was wondering since Irken's liked pink so much that...Hehheh, they'd wear pink underwear." I said childishly, sticking out my tongue.
Zim gave me a very blank look. so I tried to explain.
"Well you know...pink panties...heh...no?" I failed to really get the point across. Zim gave me a curious look.
"Irkens don't wear underwear, Dib-thing." He said plainly. My face flushed as I nervously scratched the back of my head.
"Oh..." Now I was thinking about how Zim wasn't wearing anything underneath his tight pants. My cheeks lit up. "Nevermind then." I muttered looking away from Zim.
I didn't see the naughty grin Zim was wearing as he said "My, my Dib, thinking about pink Irken panties, hmm, were they lacy?" Zim asked all perverted like, really not helping my embarrassment.
I snapped my head back. "No! I was just assuming things." Suddenly things got a little serious.
"Dib, have you ever dated a female-unit?" Zim asked.
I didn't really like when he asked about these kind of things, It wasn't as much as an invasion of privacy as much as they made me feel like blurting out things I knew I'd regret. I had to watch my tongue with these things around Zim but I wish I could be open with Zim without worrying about consequences.
"Um, have you ever seen me date one? We've known each other for quite some time." I told him, kind of surprized that he wouldn't already know something like that.
"Fair enough." Zim said. I looked at the ground while Zim stayed alert, head held up as usual. I didn't want to conversation to end yet...
"Why?"
"You humans 'date' and stuff at this age so Zim was wondering when you would start." He said as if I'd actually start dating. I laughed a little.
"I don't think I will." I said and it shocked the green alien for some reason. "What?" I asked.
"Why not? It's natural right?" Zim sounded so serious and informed. like he knew this stuff.
"Um...I guess." I started feeling ashamed a little. I should be going out on dates with girls but instead I chose to fall for Zim.
"You guess? Are you not interested in dating?"
"Uh...why are you asking me this...I don't know..." I looked to where a faraway building was; sort of wishing I was over there and away from Zim. I hated feeling this way.
"I'm just curious Dib-monster. No need to get all uh depressed...er whatever it is you are doing." Zim seemed confused about my reaction. He didn't understand what it felt like to be in the position I was in. But I got myself into it.
"Oh, ok...I just feel more comfortable dating people I've known for a long time I guess." I said a little less scared since I felt bad for kind of freaking out at the alien, but then I realized that that could easily apply to Zim. Shit I thought. Zim won't catch onto it though. I hope.
"Hmm." was all Zim had to say. It was kind of a disappointing answer since I couldn't tell if he related that to our relationship or not. I didn't mean for it to be but it suited anyhow.
"Do Irkens date?" I finally asked.
"Invaders don't." he said firmly. I felt my heart break a little. Zim was still devoted to his mission of course. I must be insane to think me and Zim could actually...
"Makes sense. You are shipped off to unknown planets, alone and stuff..." I said in an attempt to reason with my aching heart.
"Exactly...plus invaders are equipped with PAKS that store no room for inferior things such as 'feelings'." Zim said, just adding to the pain. Terror threatened to bomb the remains of my now torn heart. I didn't want to show Zim that I had such inferior feelings, I could ignore them...but why do they have to hurt so much?
"D-do you mean feelings such as...love?" my voice was quite. I knew the answer to the question but I was hoping that hearing Zim say the hurtful answer would destroy my feelings for him, right then and there.
"Remorse, mercy, sorrow...and definitely love." Zim said in a grim voice. I didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything. What was left to say about the matter? Zim would never return my feelings because he doesn't have them in the first place.
"Dib?" Zim's voice saved me from the darkness clouding my mind.
"Yeah?"
"Do these things bother you?" He asked in slight concern. I never expected him to ask me for a personal response.
"Uh...they just..." I bit my lip.
Zim stopped walking and I looked at him, still biting my bottom lip a little. It was my defence mechanism for keeping my mouth shut and I think Zim knew that.
"They just what?" he urged. Why was he forcing me to speak all of a sudden.
"They just seem...a little...cold. That's all." I stared at him, a little confused and scared that he could sense something.
I heard Zim sigh. "So very cold, Dib." he said as he began to walk again. I stood there, not sure what to make out of that but followed him soon after.
I climbed into Zim's voot cruiser like he told me to and Gir was keeping me guarded. As requested from Zim, who marched down some tube thing that lead him somewhere. When we entered Zim's house, it was pitch black, as if nothing worked and it gave me the creeps. But I was fine because Zim let me hold his hand and he guided me. I felt like dying. I was extremely happy and extremely sad at the same time. It tore me apart but I kept myself together.
The little alien ship seemed to be in a vast area that had a triangular shaped ceiling meaning we were in Zim's roof.
I looked at Gir, he was free of costume and those bright blue eyes were giving me a headache since they were the only source of light in the dark, dark place.
"Gir...can you stop looking at me...your hurting my head." I grunted. I didn't hate the little robot...he was annoying though.
"But I'mma watch you good for master!" he almost shrieked and I pressed my hands to my ears and groaned louder. Then I heard Zim.
"Gir! Don't kill the human!" He shouted. I looked up and vaguely saw the form of Zim's figure. So slim and firm. And those giant magenta eyes are so alluring. I wanted so bad to get lost in them. So very lost...in...
"Dib!"
I seemed to snap out of a daze I wasn't aware I was in...
"I really did get lost in them..." I whispered to myself. But Zim heard.
"Lost in what?" he asked. He sounded kind of angry or irritated for some reason as he climbed into the voot cruiser to get to the pilot seat.
"Oh, uh, nothing." I shifted to give Zim some room. "Where did you go?" I asked to change the subject.
"I just had to check some things." Zim said, pressing the touch screen buttons on the voot cruiser screen. I leaned to the side to see what he was doing. It was all in Irken and I could make out a few words like 'fuel', something 'power' and 'full storage' Since they were on Tak's ship once. I questioned the full storage and Zim was impressed.
"You can read Irken?" his voice had a hint of amazement in it and I smirked.
"A little." I said smugly. I was proud of how much Irken I knew actually.
Then Zim took my chin in his three clawed hand and said something in Irken to me. I had no clue what the hell he said but the sound of the clicks and pops were nice to hear. And the look Zim gave me, even though all I could really see was his eyes, made my face heat up.
The phrase was short but who knows, it could have been equivalent to a paragraph.
I didn't say anything when Zim released my chin and bent side ways to adjust something. I just sat beside him, feelings of all sorts raging through my body. As they passed my heart, it stung. How much did I like Zim?
"I WANT TACOOOOOS!" Gir randomly screamed and I didn't expect it so I yelped. Zim slapped Gir across the head.
"GIR! What did I tell you!"
Gir just gave Zim a sad face and his antennae lowered, like Zim's did when he was feeling sad or mad. I felt bad for the little guy, so I padded my lap in hopes that Gir would understand my gesture. I knew he wasn't a dog but I figured it would work. And it did. The robot went lunging for my lap.
"YAAY!" He yelled and had his little robot arms in the air. Zim straightened his back and looked at us.
"I believe we are set to go." he informed us. Again Gir screamed yay and I asked where we were going.
The glass or plastic wind shield began to slowly make its way down with a hissing noise.
"I suppose you can know now Dib." Zim said watching the wind shield. "We're going into space." he turned to show a zipper-like grin at me. His teeth were so white.
"Space!" I almost jumped. I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or a bad thing. I've been to space before but I never got to really enjoy it. Is that why Zim brought me here? To look at space?
"Yes, Dib-monkey. Space. You like space right?" Zim asked with a smile. The scratches on my heart started rapidly sowing up for such a huge thing to do for a person. Everyone wanted to see space.
Before Zim could resist, I pulled him into a tight hug and I heard him gasp.
"Thanks, Zim." I said against his antennae that hung loosely behind his head. They shot up when I squeezed him again.
"Nurgh. Sure thing, Diblet." He said patting my arm, not entirely sure what to do. I leaned back a little to look at him in the face.
"No one has ever given me something so great before." I almost whispered to him. I knew I was acting like a mushy sap but I was seriously touched, so much so that I could kiss Zim right there but I knew better.
Zim's face was suddenly gloomy as he looked down at the screen while he said "It's nothing, really." When he saw my concerned look he said "Just enjoy it as much as you possibly can, alright?"
I backed away from him fully and smiled. "I will." and with that Zim started the engine and the roof began to reveal the grey sky. I took in a deep breath as the Irken ship rose and began to take off.
As I closed my eyes, I became preoccupied with anticipating what was to come that I completely ignored the sound of crumbling walls and the creeks and snaps of wood.
They aren't too OOC are they! I guess it's ok it they are, just to fit the story line.
It gets better, I swear! ;A;