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She had left him alone with his thoughts. She couldn't bear to see him look so sad. As Mickey led her away, asking that she show him the rest of the TARDIS as an excuse to leave the Doctor, Rose only wanted to go inside her room and cry. He seemed so lonely, starring at the screen on the console of the TARDIS. He had just walked back from the fireplace that connected him to Madame de Pompadour's room. He looked as though the world around him had collapsed. Rose had never seen him look so sad, heartbroken even. Her heart clenched inside her, realizing to her disappointment that the Doctor had fallen in love with someone else.
As Rose walked down the hallway with Mickey, she stopped and asked Mickey if she could show him around later. She wasn't feeling very well and said that she had gotten a headache as a result of everything they've gone through. She just needed to be alone for a while. Mickey was about to protest, but Rose was already walking away before he had time to say anything else.
Rose took a deep breath as she went inside her room. She tried taking deeper breaths but still felt as though she was choking on all the pain and disappointment that suddenly overwhelmed her. She looked in the mirror and tried to tell herself that she was being an absolute idiot if she so much as cried for any man, least of all the Doctor. She wished at that very moment that she could talk to Sara Jane, but wouldn't she just say, "I told you so?" Oh, she wouldn't be cruel about it, but she did tell her that being with the Doctor was worth the pain. She tried not to laugh at how soon those words came back to haunt her and wondered at how feeling pain this deeply could be worth anything else.
Tears started streaming down Roses pale cheeks. She couldn't hold it in any longer and started to cry. She walked over to her closet, trying to search for her dressing gown but couldn't find what she was looking for and kept sobbing even louder. When she was a little girl one of her comforting places to hide when she needed a good cry was her closet. It seemed strange, but she felt as though she could hide away from the world and cry her heart out without having to tell anyone of the pain inside her. She hadn't done that since her grandfather passed away all those years ago. Jackie was already a mess and Rose didn't want to worry her, so she tried to deal with the pain in her own way.
Picking a corner in the pile of clothes already lying on the floor of her disheveled closet, Rose curled up and cried more than she possibly thought she could. She felt the TARDIS hum in sadness as she tried to muffle her cries in vain. She realized that she wasn't only hurting because of the Doctor's feelings for Reinette, but she also felt a mix of frustration and anger that he would knowingly leave her and Mickey to fend for themselves without a thought as to weather they would survive without him. She didn't even know if she could try commanding the TARDIS without risking looking inside her once again. Could she ever forgive him for being so calloused, for risking everything for someone he had just met?
A part of her wondered just how far his relationship with Reinette had gone. He was gone for a couple of hours, and for all Rose knew, he had already managed to live a lifetime with Reinette and spend more time with her than he ever did with Rose.
"He forgot me," she cried out loud. "He forgot me!" The realization of what he had done cut deep and Rose didn't think she could ever forgive nor trust him for abandoning her.