Hi Guys, I found a beta reader:D The lovely MadiPII so I decided to re-fresh also this chapter and the next chapter so they will be easier to read:D Most chapters are written from Cat's point of view but some are also from Bruce's point of view:D

Chapter 1: Mixed feelings and emotions

Caught in the riptide,
I was searching for the truth

Point of view: Cat

I recently had done something stupid, more than the usual stupid things I manage to get caught in. And I blame it all to myself but I also know that I had no other choice. It was better because this way Bruce would stay out of harm's way. Having assassins after you once is more than enough. If they come after me a second time than its only after me and not Bruce because I love him way too much. I want to keep him save.

Well, you probably think what did you do Selina, or better yet Cat because people call me that way. Okay, I prefer them to call me Cat, but what's the difference?

Anyway, one day Ivy came to meet me on the streets and told me she had a message from Bruce. He wanted to see me.

At first I wasn't planned to go, since our last meeting also turned out differently than I first thought. Instead of just bringing back his stuff that I had stolen the past few days while I was a guest at the Manor, I also did something else. Something I better shouldn't have.

But I really wanted it and while I was a guest I gave Bruce several hints about boys kissing girls, but like any boy, he was playing stupid, If you're not completely clear with what you wanted they just don't get it.

Well, that night I was tired of leaving useless hints so I just did what my instinct told me. And they told me Bruce was ready but wasn't the person to start a kiss, especially since he thought it all was a game to me. So, to prove him it wasn't a game….

I kissed him.

I kissed Bruce briefly on his lips, but long enough to get that feeling. That feeling that begins just like a spark. Tossing and turning inside of your heart.

And it indeed was tossing and turning in my heart, leaving me to get caught in the riptide of emotions.

Cat! What have you done?

Quickly I left, not waiting for Bruce's reply, action or whatever a boy does when he gets kissed by a girl.

Outside I jump off the balcony and ran into the darkness, back to my hideout where I just sat for hours and hours. Not able to fall asleep because the confusing feeling in my heart.

But, after a long debate with myself ( a very long debate) I decide to go anyway, just to see what Bruce wanted and to find out why he send messages for me all around the city.

Again, I shouldn't have done that.

Slowly I walk through the balcony doors into the study, noticing Bruce playing chess with himself. The first thing he said was that he was glad that I was safe.

The way he said 'safe' and the smile on his face when he said it made me realize that the previous kiss also had turned his heart upside down.

Then he told me that him and Alfred where off for a few days in Switzerland, where they had a chalet, whatever that is. Walking toward me, holding a brown bag made me realize I was on his mind his entire vacation and as result, a present.

Curiously I opened the paper bag and took out a glass snow globe with a tiny house inside it. Beaming like the sun I turned it over so it started to snow inside the globe.

It was the first present I ever got and I loved it.

Bruce then asked me if I wanted to stay and live in his house so that I would have a proper life. And for a brief moment I also wanted to, stay, be with him.

But then the mixed emotions caught me up again and asked in defense why it was better for me in the Mansion then on the streets. I knew the answer myself, but like I said, mixed emotions.

I would be safe, but Bruce not. After all, the managed to get in the house before, so why wouldn't they again? And what if we weren't fast enough? What if they would catch Bruce and threat me with him?

No, it might be best if he stayed safe in his own house and I on the streets. And there was only one thing left to do. One thing that I knew would tear the poor boys heart, and mine, apart.

I gave him back the present, and told him I only came to visit to tell him to stop harassing me. His eyes became teary the moment the words came out of my mouth. Immediately I felt sorry, and wanted to take it back but I knew I couldn't.

I had to do it, for his safety.

I told him I had lied about everything to the detective to keep me out of juvie so there was no reason for him to buy me presents or send messages or for us to hang out. He just had to stop bugging me.

The sadness in his eyes made me feel horrible and my own eyes almost gave up on me too, so I quickly turn back to the balcony door and leave. Jumping off the balcony, and disappearing into the night, ignoring the tears that streamed down my cheeks. I didn't mind them.

Crying seemed to me the only solution so I cried the entire night in my hideout. With my knees up I kept rocking myself, telling myself it was for the best.

For the second time I felt like I was caught in a riptide of emotions.

So, that was the first chapter, let me know what you think so far:D I would love to hear your thoughts and reviews will make me only update faster LOL