A/N: This is set sort of late season 4, I think. It may be a little OOC (sorry if it is).
It's loosely based on a discussion I had with Christeen when I felt this way. It's very short, by the way.
Sarah x
"Jethro," Jenny said out of the blue. They were in her office pondering a case that seemed impossible to solve, even to Team Gibbs.
"Hmm?" Gibbs answered her. He didn't like the look on her face. It was an expression of guardedness.
Jenny hesitated. Should she ask him? It might lead to awkward questions. But part of her needed to know if anyone had felt the same way. She wanted to know if she was the only one. "Have you ever just…wanted to die? For everything to end?"
"Where the hell did that come from, Jen?" he asked, shocked. He walked around her desk to be closer to her.
"I don't know. But have you ever felt like there's no point anymore? Like you'll just be better off if you weren't alive?"
"Once, when Shannon and Kelly died. Why?" he enquired, worried now. He looked in her eyes and saw the internal debate she was having.
"Do you think everyone feels like that sometimes?" she demanded.
"No," Gibbs replied. He paused. "I think some people do. Maybe they're just unhappy with their life. And then there's some people where it's an illness. And people who lost family and friends want to join them to begin with. And other people…well, I think there might be people out there who just don't see the point of living if they have nothing," he explained.
"What would you do if I jumped off a cliff or something?" Jenny whispered. She hated discussing this. She had considered wrapping her car around a tree many times, or maybe overdosing on medication.
"I'd make myself live without you. I wouldn't enjoy it, but I don't think you'd want me to do anything like that, would you?" Gibbs questioned her. She shook her head. "Why are you asking these things, Jenny?"
"I've felt like that," she confessed. "I contemplate ending it."
The simple admission stunned Gibbs. He always thought that she was so untouchable. "Why would you do that?"
"Sometimes I feel like nobody gives a damn. Or that there's nothing in my life worth living for. When I feel alone," Jenny concluded.
"You're never alone, Jen," Gibbs told her gently. "As long as you are around me, Tony, Ziva, McGee, Ducky, Abby…any of us, you'll never be alone."
"So, you're sort of like my family, then?"
"Believe me, Abby's had that one sussed for a while," Gibbs smiled ever so slightly at the young Goth's vision of the team. He got Jenny out of her chair gracefully and pulled her into a tight hug. "You're never alone," he repeated almost silently in her ear.
Silent tears ran down Jenny's cheeks and onto Jethro's shirt. He put her at arm's length. Jenny felt his thumbs wipe the salty water from under her eyes. She felt her head being pulled forward slightly and Jethro's lips making contact with the top of her head. "You have us. Always," he promised her as he pulled her close to him again.
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