If Only It Were Schizophrenia instead of Seth

by albinofrog88

I was depressed and bored and procrastinating packing so I wrote this 10-minute one-shot on Summer's thoughts after this week's episode where Seth asks Zach if him and Summer had sex.

Note:I can't believe I wrote this. Please, if you think I'm crazy, read my other one-shot. It's not great, but at least it proves I'm not a ridiculously bad writer (as this one will definitely imply). And please review! I'm gonna be in Florida in 24 hours with my Nana...and I'm not too happy about it. These will cheer me up when I get back. Oh and thank-you, if you're reading this, Secret Smile! Your lone review kept me smiling for days, and I LOVE your stories.

If Only It Were Schizophrenia

When I first fell in love with Seth, I pretended that I hated his guts. Of course at the time, I didn't realize it was just pretending, and for the most part I truly believed he was nothing to me, but for that small niggling voice in the back of my head telling me he was slowly but surely becoming everything.

Now, now it's happening again. I mean, look at what I've just said. I'm rambling for God's sake. And even though I tell myself I really like Zach (never love, I promised myself I wouldn't get that close to a guy again, cause I realized the universal truth of being a woman: Men Suck! and I don't mean that in a sexual way cause they never do that, just another reason to add to the list of reasons they suck), but yeah, back to the story...even though I tell myself I'm committed to Zach, and Cohen means nothing to me...then that damn niggling voice comes back again! Which is way bad for me, because (see above) that can only mean one thing: I still love Cohen. And I can't. I really really can't.

Because he left me! Randomly, without thought! And he never even called...I know because every time the "can you hear me now?" commercials came on TV, I'd scream NO! before throwing a pillow at the screen. One time I actually broke one! And I mean COME ON. It's the 21st century for God's sake, who still leaves notes?

And I know because it'll happen again. As soon as something bad happens, he'll run away again, and this time I know for sure I won't be enough to keep him here.

Because I'm in really like with Zach. And because he apparently thinks I'm a total slut who was begging Zach to have sex with me, and was only stopped when Zach brought up marriage. So why do I still have Friends finale/Garden State airport fantasies running through my head?