Pills

I stare at the pills in my hand; one green oval one: three tiny black ones; one and a half white-ish ones; a yellow one that suspicially resembles a skittle; and two large multicoloured ones.

I don't even know what they're for, I just take them. I stopped resisting a long time ago.

Water in hand and pills in the other I swallow the array of medication with ease, until the last two. The worst two. They might be trying to cover up that fact with the bright casings. I doesn't work.

Ever.

I let them sit on my tongue for a couple of seconds before attempting to force them down, one does but the other comes back up. The coating gone and beginning to dissolve in my mouth. Medicinal grains coating it. I gag at the texture and taste as the sun glows on the horizon. I swallow more water, some grains remain but I was already feeling floaty from the green one.

A harsh bang on my oak door snapped me back to reality. "Pixy, sweetie. Have you taken your pills?" My mom's voice cracked a little when she 'pills' but you know. She was just upset that her only child was depressed freak. "Yeah Mom. I'm just going to go to sleep now." I pushed the saddening thoughts from my minds. "Okay. Night." The slow padding of her feet on the carpet made me ache inside. I've caused them so much hurt, now they try and live with the taped-together pieces of their hearts.

I wander over to my bed, pills kicking in, and drift off into a gentle sleep.

-DREAM-

Silence.

No sound except for the beautiful gush of the waterfall, its calming coolness wrapping and twirling on my scalp and body. I relax in the streams of sunlight as the water washes over my faces.

Completely silent.

It was bliss. Complete and utter bliss...

I spoke or rather thought, to soon. Darkness filled the blue skies and I slipped on the suddenly rocky pebbles under my feet. I splashed backwards, I closed my eyes and held in a squeal as a tanned hand pushed me under the water.

The water stung my lungs as the water filled them, I was short of breathe, swimming in clouds of water. It felt like I was underwater for hours. The same dull lick of the fire in my chest never ending. I should of died by then but I hadn't.

Then completely out of the blue I was pulled upwards by an unknown force. I gasped and gulled as fresh clean air replaced the cold bitter water.

No one was in the lake with me.

I glanced about.

A figure in the near distance caught my eye. His hair was pale blonde and spiked upwards, his skin was paler than what was supposedly healthy. He wore a white hoodie, white sneakers and pale grey jeans. The frayed hems dripping. Ice blue eyes danced as rain beat down on the cool grass, droplets splashing me as I lay, stunned, in the water. The rain fell thicker, he smiled then dissipated into nothing.

- END OF DREAM-

I awoke in a fit of confusion, my Mom was soothing me, whispering a lullaby in my ear, stroking my hand. Falling against her I drifted into a, this time dreamless, sleep.

I awake yet again to find sunlight streaming into my room, I relish the violets and oranges splashing across my walls.

Knock, knock, knock.

"Honey time to take your pills, then its school." I was drifting into a daydream about god knows what, I snapped back to attention and stepped groggily into my bathroom. I gently opened the cupboard door.

Great more pills.

I shook them bottle by bottle into my hand; a green oval one; five tiny black ones; a blue one; a yellow one, larger this time; and three large multicoloured ones. I grab my water and prepare to battle my first task of the day. The boy in my dream haunting my thoughts I glugged the capsules down