Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon Naoko Takeuchi and other companies
do.
What I Lost…
I watch with a scowl as the black coffin holding my departed wife is lowered
into the earth. The day seems bleak and dull not a bird singing their sweet
tunes as the sky is smothered with grey clouds. There is weeping all around
me for my lost wife, Neo-Queen of Crystal Tokyo. I do not shed a tear for
my queen, I will not. She was an attractive and fair ruler with a gentle hold on
her people. Soft enough to have them happy but hard enough to keep them
where she wanted them, safe. My scowl deepens marring my face at the
memory of the cause of her death. I had found her in a heated embrace with
her lover I had killed him in my blind rage. With in the next moment she had
taken up my sword and run herself through with a triumphant smile on her
face she fell to the floor victorious in her eyes, but in mine traitorous. I had
given everything up for her, everything. The many people that I cherished
and held dear. Yes our marriage held no passion or love. We shared the same
bed for duties sake and yet she never did produce an heir. In a way this had
brought me sadness as well as happiness for a child not to be brought up in
my once fake marriage. I drop the dirt I hold in my hand onto the coffin
watching it fall onto her casket emotionless as I move away others soon
follow me and drop dirt on her resting place also. The funeral service goes by
in a flash and I soon find my self-wandering away from her grave. My close
friends and guardians understand that I need time, but they don't know. No
they don't know I never told them about our unsuccessful union. The world
saw us as the perfect couple created in heaven I glower at this thought, there
was only one woman I could and would ever love. But I had been the
'honorable' man I was and pushed her away for duties sake, that one thought
still causes me pain now. The remembrance of her beautiful face twisted in
hurt as she watched me walk away. As I had turned the corner then I had
heard her whimpers I had witnessed her tears. I had collapsed against the
wall and listened to her cry until she had left. I had pounded my fists into the
ground to release the rage that was churning in my mind and heart, my soul.
Never in my life had I hated my crown, my birthright as much as I did then. I
look up to find that I have walked to the front of the cemetery into a garden.
The garden is stunning with a light streaking through the clouds. I look down
at the back of my hands to see the scars from that darkened moment so long
ago, that is when I realize I have bumped into something, no wait someone. I
look down to see a little girl in a blue dress.
"Are you alright little one?" I ask concerned for her well being as I kneel down
in front of her.
She looks up at me and my breathing catches. She has big bright blue eyes
and black curly hair. She has a little nose and a cute little mouth turned into a
pout. I now knew she was going to be a goddess when she grew up. She
reminds me of someone but I just can't put my finger on it.
"Yep." She murmurs her voice sweet as she cocks her head to the side and
examines me. No sign of realization or recognition crosses her face.
I give her a friendly smile. I have no idea how this little girl has no idea as to
who I am. After all I am the King of the earth, not meaning to boast. Well her
parents mustn't let her watch TV that much.
"We're are your parents?" I frown looking around for any sign of an adult that
resembles her. No, no one.
Tears fill her eyes as her pout deepens and her bottom lip quivers. "I don't
now." She whispers as she fidgets with her dress. She looks the age of 5 or 6.
I give her a reassuring smile. "Well why don't I help you look for them?" I ask
softly not wanting to upset her further.
She looks up at me and beams. Her smile is pretty with her eyes alight. "You
will help me?" She squeaks as she sits on her knees.
"Sure." I smile as I nod my head to prove my point.
"Thank you." She squeals as she launches her small body into my arms.
For some strange reason I hug her instantly as a feeling of peace and
comfort washes over me. The small innocent embrace turns such emotions in
me I find it unbelievable.
"Well then lets get going." She chirps as she cuddles in my arms.
I chuckle to my self as I turn around and look for people. I walk to a crowd of
people. "So what's your name?" I ask casually.
"Charm." She replies happily in my arms.
"That's a pretty name." I smile as a pink hue stains her cheeks. "Why is your
name Charm?" I ask starting up light conversation to relax her.
"Mommy said that I'm hers and Daddy's lucky Charm. So that is why my
name is Charm." She explains gleefully.
"Interesting." I comment as I look down on her she is adorable. The exact
likeness of the daughter I was supposed to have the daughter I would want.
That thought brought me pain so I ruthlessly shove it aside as her voice
brings me out of my reminiscence.
"What's your name?" She asks as curious as a bunny.
"Well my name's Endymion but you can call me Darien." I grin at her.
"Okay Dari, Darien." She twitters as she has trouble saying my name.
"So what do your mommy and daddy look like?" I ask trying to get her safely
and swiftly back to her parents.
"Well my mommy is really pretty and my daddy is really pretty too." She
smiles cheerfully as she bounces up and down in my embrace.
"Really?" I chuckle at the mention of her daddy being pretty too.
She bobs her head up and down positively. "Yep." She sings.
"Okay then I can't disagree with that." I sigh. "So what do your Mom and Dad
look like?" I question.
"Daddy is really big has hair like mine and eyes like yours." She elucidates.
Okay so I'm looking for a man that looks like me when I was 20. "Okay how
about your Mom?" I question as I keep walking.
She smiles with my question. "Mommy has nice long hair. The color like…"
She trails off as her eyes widen and she jumps out of my arms.
I don't understand where she is going or why but I follow her either way.
"Mommy!" I hear her call as she runs out of my view.
I have no idea how she could see her mother all the way over there but I trail
her anyway. Finally I come into view of Charm to be shocked right down to
my soul. I am now seeing the one woman I thought that I would never again
see. She had become the Queen of the Moon and married a star prince. I
watch in silent awe as she looks at Charm she hasn't noticed me yet. Her
face is scrunched up with worry but when her eyes land on Charm her face is
serene and calm, just like her name. And there in this small and to be forever
cherished moment is the exact person I had fallen in love with a lifetime and
years ago. The same angel that I turned away because the people of earth
thought it would be better for me to marry the prestigious princess of the
sun. She is even more beautiful then I remembered. Her hair is as spun
golden silk woven into her meatballs. Her eyes are a vibrant bright blue with
a glow of sleek silver, her face with the same nose and alluring lips. I groan at
the memory of her taste, strawberries. I continue to stare at her burning her
image into my memory. She is everything I have loved and would ever love,
yet can never have because of my own faults. I couldn't believe this situation
my goddess and the woman I loved and still love stood a few feet away from
me, she; my Meatball head, my little bunny, and my Serena, who was now
Queen Serenity.
"Mommy!" Charm cries as she runs to her and is scooped up into her arms.
She's her daughter. But of course only dear Serenity could give birth to a
child that could warm my heart at one glance. I weakly smile ruefully.
I continue to watch in quietness as Serenity looks down at her daughter. "Oh
baby, don't do that again." She cries as she clutches her child in her arms.
Her voice is as sweet as honey and as gentle as butterfly wings with a
worried edge as cutting as the keenest sword. I smile to myself she could
always manage to make a poet out of me while I was in her presence.
"I'm sorry Mommy." Charm cries also trying to calm her mother.
"Promise me Charm, promise me you won't run off again." Serenity begs her
baby girl with a pain in her eyes of loss.
I can tell she really loves Charm. But of course I muse sadly. I already love
the little girl and I don't know her that well nor is she mine to love.
"I promise Mommy I promise." Charm sobs in her Mothers arms.
It was obvious even to me that she meant what she had said. But I knew that
Serena was really protective of her children like she was of Rini. That brought
me another stab of pain to my heart, sweet innocent and courageous Rini. I
lock those thoughts away in the back of my mind. I would torture myself
later but not now.
"Sweetie I'm sorry. It's just when you were gone I thought I had lost you. I
didn't, I didn't…" The Moon Queen cries as she clutches her daughter closer.
I know how she feels. I had lost her and my daughter with one sentence,
which I still agonizingly remember. 'I don't love you Serena I never did and
never will so just face it and leave me alone.' I curse that damnable sentence
every day I wake up alone, with out her or my child. My child.
"It's alright Mommy please don't cry I'm okay. A nice man helped me." Charm
clarifies.
With her words I take a step back into the shadows of the bushes. I couldn't
face Serena now, not ever. I wouldn't be able to face her beautiful and angelic
face all the while knowing that at night she slept in the arms of another or
our child I mean her child was never mine in the first place. I wouldn't be able
to see her smile with her mouth that I love so much and know she used during
her moments of passion with her beloved husband. Oh how I envy the man
that I have never met. Facing her and knowing all of this was unacceptable to
my weak heart and mind, I feel my soul quiver in fear. So I hide in the
shadows. I the mighty King of Earth am hidding in the shadows as I continue
to watch her.
"What man honey?" Serenity or Serena asks the small child as she wipes her
tears away.
"The man over…" Charm turns around to look at the place I once stood. "He's
gone Mommy." She frowns in confusion as her little eyebrows knit together.
I inwardly chuckle. Just like her mother she looks cute when she is confused.
She probably looks adorable when she is angered too.
"Well honey what was his name so your father and I can go thank him."
Serenity asks as she wipes Charm's tears away also.
Oh no that I can't handle. I have to get out of here. I look around for a safe
way of retreat but realize if I move I would be seen I sigh in frustration and
stay in my place.
"His name was um yeah it was Darien." Charm replied smiling.
Serena's dazzling face pales to the color of the glow of the moon. I watch in
anxiety as she bites her lush bottom lip. A habit she has always had when
she is nervous.
"Are you sure darling?" The Queen asks wanting to make certainty.
"Yep Mommy. He said I could call him Darien but his real name was Endymin,
Endyion." The raven-haired child answers trying to get my name right.
"Endymion." The Moon Ruler corrects in a small whisper that I had strained to
hear.
How I always loved to here my name roll of her tongue. My name passing her
lips how it would set me on fire as it is doing now.
"How did you know Mommy?" The small princess of the Moon asks.
I have to face reality with this thought. 'Moon Princess.' Charm is not my
daughter and she never was. But subconsciously in the depths of my self I
know that I had silently been referring to her as my daughter. But no she
isn't she is the daughter of the Star Prince that still is nameless to me.
Serenity gave a weak smile to her child. "I'm the Queen of the Moon darling I
know everything." Serena smiles while she jokes with the little moon maiden.
"Really?" Charm inquires.
"Yep." Serena smiles almightily.
"Then do you know where Daddy is?" Charm asks as she waits for her
mothers reply.
Yeah I decide right now Charm is one smart child. I have to see Serena reply
to this. But I also really want to know who this man is. The man that is my
bunny's husband and Charm's father, the Star prince now King of the Moon.
Serena pauses and looks sheepish for a moment. This is really hilarious if I
weren't in hiding and having to remain quiet I would laugh out loud. The ever
calming and witty Queen Serenity of the Moon is stumped and by her very
own daughter. Smart Princess.
"Uh Honey I think your Daddy is…" Serena trails off as she looks around.
I smile amusedly this is priceless. I'm glad I walked into that garden.
"Did I here someone call my name?" A masculine voice asks as the King of the
Moon walks into the clearing the sailor scouts trailing behind him with two
other men.
I watch remorsefully as Charm's eyes light up. "Daddy." She squeals as she
jumps from Serenity's arms and scurries across the field jumping into her
father's arms.
"I see someone missed me." He jokes as he kisses the forehead of the small
raven-haired moon maiden and princess, his daughter, Charm.
I look the man over. He is everything a Moon King should be. He is well built
and is probably around the same height as me. He has long straight coal
black hair that is currently tied into a ponytail. His eyes are Deep Ocean blue
and filled with love as he glances down at his daughter then smiles tenderly
and lovingly at his queen. I feel anger, hatred and rage well within me. Not
directed to the Moon King it wasn't his fault he too had fallen for the moon
goddess and made her happy. It was my fault, it was my fault that I couldn't
make her happy and comfort her while she cried. It wasn't the King's fault
that I couldn't share passion with her or her children. It wasn't The Star
Prince's fault that I couldn't kiss Serena my Bunny or love her. It was my own
fault, my very own fault that I couldn't love her or be loved by her in return.
My own damnable fault. I hate myself.
"Hey I missed you too." Serenity, the Moon angel pouts in mock hurt as she
folds her arms over her round chest.
The Moon King chuckles as he shakes his head. I would probably chuckle to if
I was in his position but I'm not. She missed him I wonder if she misses me? I
feel a sting in my eyes as he walks over to Serenity and wraps his arm
around her waist with Charm nestled safely and comfortably in his other
arm. A happy little family.
"Come now Serenity it is time to leave love." He smiles as they walk back
toward the way the King had entered earlier.
"Good it is about time darling." She smiles beautifully. "Seiya I'm hungry." She
whines as he chuckles along with their guardians.
So his name is Seiya. I know I will never forget that name along with Charm
and Serenity. Those three names are now permanently stained in my mind.
'Good Bye Darien.' Echoes in my head in the sweet voice of my one true love.
I snap my head up and look to where my love once stood. I have never heard
her say good bye to me before. It was always a 'see you later' or 'see you
tomorrow' or a kiss. I have never received a good bye form her. I now realize
that it was a real good-bye I would only probably see her at royal functions.
Only talk to her as Neo-King Endymion of Earth never just Darien. I currently
realize I have just been granted the wish I had secretly wished since I lost
Serena. I have wanted to know what it was that I lost that day I shunned her. I
had lost the chance of forever gladness and contentment with my love and
child. For Eternity and bitter Infinity I now know I passed the chance up for
being at peace. The thought and realization of exactly what I have lost pricks
my eyes and stings my heart, happiness. Now I see as the tears escape my
eyes I was better of not knowing what I lost.
*The End*
And no there will not be a sequel or any other chapter for this story, so
tough. Any way I just hope that the point of view was right coming from the
perspective of a man/male and I being a girl. I just wanted to write this and
tell everyone that love should always come before duty and never the other
way around. And a life with out risks is not a life at all. Raina Jane Sadler…
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed,
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed,
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need,
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed.
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never takes a chance,
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never learns to dance,
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give,
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies a seed that with the sun's love
In the spring, becomes the rose. ©
By Amanda McBroom an others…
do.
What I Lost…
I watch with a scowl as the black coffin holding my departed wife is lowered
into the earth. The day seems bleak and dull not a bird singing their sweet
tunes as the sky is smothered with grey clouds. There is weeping all around
me for my lost wife, Neo-Queen of Crystal Tokyo. I do not shed a tear for
my queen, I will not. She was an attractive and fair ruler with a gentle hold on
her people. Soft enough to have them happy but hard enough to keep them
where she wanted them, safe. My scowl deepens marring my face at the
memory of the cause of her death. I had found her in a heated embrace with
her lover I had killed him in my blind rage. With in the next moment she had
taken up my sword and run herself through with a triumphant smile on her
face she fell to the floor victorious in her eyes, but in mine traitorous. I had
given everything up for her, everything. The many people that I cherished
and held dear. Yes our marriage held no passion or love. We shared the same
bed for duties sake and yet she never did produce an heir. In a way this had
brought me sadness as well as happiness for a child not to be brought up in
my once fake marriage. I drop the dirt I hold in my hand onto the coffin
watching it fall onto her casket emotionless as I move away others soon
follow me and drop dirt on her resting place also. The funeral service goes by
in a flash and I soon find my self-wandering away from her grave. My close
friends and guardians understand that I need time, but they don't know. No
they don't know I never told them about our unsuccessful union. The world
saw us as the perfect couple created in heaven I glower at this thought, there
was only one woman I could and would ever love. But I had been the
'honorable' man I was and pushed her away for duties sake, that one thought
still causes me pain now. The remembrance of her beautiful face twisted in
hurt as she watched me walk away. As I had turned the corner then I had
heard her whimpers I had witnessed her tears. I had collapsed against the
wall and listened to her cry until she had left. I had pounded my fists into the
ground to release the rage that was churning in my mind and heart, my soul.
Never in my life had I hated my crown, my birthright as much as I did then. I
look up to find that I have walked to the front of the cemetery into a garden.
The garden is stunning with a light streaking through the clouds. I look down
at the back of my hands to see the scars from that darkened moment so long
ago, that is when I realize I have bumped into something, no wait someone. I
look down to see a little girl in a blue dress.
"Are you alright little one?" I ask concerned for her well being as I kneel down
in front of her.
She looks up at me and my breathing catches. She has big bright blue eyes
and black curly hair. She has a little nose and a cute little mouth turned into a
pout. I now knew she was going to be a goddess when she grew up. She
reminds me of someone but I just can't put my finger on it.
"Yep." She murmurs her voice sweet as she cocks her head to the side and
examines me. No sign of realization or recognition crosses her face.
I give her a friendly smile. I have no idea how this little girl has no idea as to
who I am. After all I am the King of the earth, not meaning to boast. Well her
parents mustn't let her watch TV that much.
"We're are your parents?" I frown looking around for any sign of an adult that
resembles her. No, no one.
Tears fill her eyes as her pout deepens and her bottom lip quivers. "I don't
now." She whispers as she fidgets with her dress. She looks the age of 5 or 6.
I give her a reassuring smile. "Well why don't I help you look for them?" I ask
softly not wanting to upset her further.
She looks up at me and beams. Her smile is pretty with her eyes alight. "You
will help me?" She squeaks as she sits on her knees.
"Sure." I smile as I nod my head to prove my point.
"Thank you." She squeals as she launches her small body into my arms.
For some strange reason I hug her instantly as a feeling of peace and
comfort washes over me. The small innocent embrace turns such emotions in
me I find it unbelievable.
"Well then lets get going." She chirps as she cuddles in my arms.
I chuckle to my self as I turn around and look for people. I walk to a crowd of
people. "So what's your name?" I ask casually.
"Charm." She replies happily in my arms.
"That's a pretty name." I smile as a pink hue stains her cheeks. "Why is your
name Charm?" I ask starting up light conversation to relax her.
"Mommy said that I'm hers and Daddy's lucky Charm. So that is why my
name is Charm." She explains gleefully.
"Interesting." I comment as I look down on her she is adorable. The exact
likeness of the daughter I was supposed to have the daughter I would want.
That thought brought me pain so I ruthlessly shove it aside as her voice
brings me out of my reminiscence.
"What's your name?" She asks as curious as a bunny.
"Well my name's Endymion but you can call me Darien." I grin at her.
"Okay Dari, Darien." She twitters as she has trouble saying my name.
"So what do your mommy and daddy look like?" I ask trying to get her safely
and swiftly back to her parents.
"Well my mommy is really pretty and my daddy is really pretty too." She
smiles cheerfully as she bounces up and down in my embrace.
"Really?" I chuckle at the mention of her daddy being pretty too.
She bobs her head up and down positively. "Yep." She sings.
"Okay then I can't disagree with that." I sigh. "So what do your Mom and Dad
look like?" I question.
"Daddy is really big has hair like mine and eyes like yours." She elucidates.
Okay so I'm looking for a man that looks like me when I was 20. "Okay how
about your Mom?" I question as I keep walking.
She smiles with my question. "Mommy has nice long hair. The color like…"
She trails off as her eyes widen and she jumps out of my arms.
I don't understand where she is going or why but I follow her either way.
"Mommy!" I hear her call as she runs out of my view.
I have no idea how she could see her mother all the way over there but I trail
her anyway. Finally I come into view of Charm to be shocked right down to
my soul. I am now seeing the one woman I thought that I would never again
see. She had become the Queen of the Moon and married a star prince. I
watch in silent awe as she looks at Charm she hasn't noticed me yet. Her
face is scrunched up with worry but when her eyes land on Charm her face is
serene and calm, just like her name. And there in this small and to be forever
cherished moment is the exact person I had fallen in love with a lifetime and
years ago. The same angel that I turned away because the people of earth
thought it would be better for me to marry the prestigious princess of the
sun. She is even more beautiful then I remembered. Her hair is as spun
golden silk woven into her meatballs. Her eyes are a vibrant bright blue with
a glow of sleek silver, her face with the same nose and alluring lips. I groan at
the memory of her taste, strawberries. I continue to stare at her burning her
image into my memory. She is everything I have loved and would ever love,
yet can never have because of my own faults. I couldn't believe this situation
my goddess and the woman I loved and still love stood a few feet away from
me, she; my Meatball head, my little bunny, and my Serena, who was now
Queen Serenity.
"Mommy!" Charm cries as she runs to her and is scooped up into her arms.
She's her daughter. But of course only dear Serenity could give birth to a
child that could warm my heart at one glance. I weakly smile ruefully.
I continue to watch in quietness as Serenity looks down at her daughter. "Oh
baby, don't do that again." She cries as she clutches her child in her arms.
Her voice is as sweet as honey and as gentle as butterfly wings with a
worried edge as cutting as the keenest sword. I smile to myself she could
always manage to make a poet out of me while I was in her presence.
"I'm sorry Mommy." Charm cries also trying to calm her mother.
"Promise me Charm, promise me you won't run off again." Serenity begs her
baby girl with a pain in her eyes of loss.
I can tell she really loves Charm. But of course I muse sadly. I already love
the little girl and I don't know her that well nor is she mine to love.
"I promise Mommy I promise." Charm sobs in her Mothers arms.
It was obvious even to me that she meant what she had said. But I knew that
Serena was really protective of her children like she was of Rini. That brought
me another stab of pain to my heart, sweet innocent and courageous Rini. I
lock those thoughts away in the back of my mind. I would torture myself
later but not now.
"Sweetie I'm sorry. It's just when you were gone I thought I had lost you. I
didn't, I didn't…" The Moon Queen cries as she clutches her daughter closer.
I know how she feels. I had lost her and my daughter with one sentence,
which I still agonizingly remember. 'I don't love you Serena I never did and
never will so just face it and leave me alone.' I curse that damnable sentence
every day I wake up alone, with out her or my child. My child.
"It's alright Mommy please don't cry I'm okay. A nice man helped me." Charm
clarifies.
With her words I take a step back into the shadows of the bushes. I couldn't
face Serena now, not ever. I wouldn't be able to face her beautiful and angelic
face all the while knowing that at night she slept in the arms of another or
our child I mean her child was never mine in the first place. I wouldn't be able
to see her smile with her mouth that I love so much and know she used during
her moments of passion with her beloved husband. Oh how I envy the man
that I have never met. Facing her and knowing all of this was unacceptable to
my weak heart and mind, I feel my soul quiver in fear. So I hide in the
shadows. I the mighty King of Earth am hidding in the shadows as I continue
to watch her.
"What man honey?" Serenity or Serena asks the small child as she wipes her
tears away.
"The man over…" Charm turns around to look at the place I once stood. "He's
gone Mommy." She frowns in confusion as her little eyebrows knit together.
I inwardly chuckle. Just like her mother she looks cute when she is confused.
She probably looks adorable when she is angered too.
"Well honey what was his name so your father and I can go thank him."
Serenity asks as she wipes Charm's tears away also.
Oh no that I can't handle. I have to get out of here. I look around for a safe
way of retreat but realize if I move I would be seen I sigh in frustration and
stay in my place.
"His name was um yeah it was Darien." Charm replied smiling.
Serena's dazzling face pales to the color of the glow of the moon. I watch in
anxiety as she bites her lush bottom lip. A habit she has always had when
she is nervous.
"Are you sure darling?" The Queen asks wanting to make certainty.
"Yep Mommy. He said I could call him Darien but his real name was Endymin,
Endyion." The raven-haired child answers trying to get my name right.
"Endymion." The Moon Ruler corrects in a small whisper that I had strained to
hear.
How I always loved to here my name roll of her tongue. My name passing her
lips how it would set me on fire as it is doing now.
"How did you know Mommy?" The small princess of the Moon asks.
I have to face reality with this thought. 'Moon Princess.' Charm is not my
daughter and she never was. But subconsciously in the depths of my self I
know that I had silently been referring to her as my daughter. But no she
isn't she is the daughter of the Star Prince that still is nameless to me.
Serenity gave a weak smile to her child. "I'm the Queen of the Moon darling I
know everything." Serena smiles while she jokes with the little moon maiden.
"Really?" Charm inquires.
"Yep." Serena smiles almightily.
"Then do you know where Daddy is?" Charm asks as she waits for her
mothers reply.
Yeah I decide right now Charm is one smart child. I have to see Serena reply
to this. But I also really want to know who this man is. The man that is my
bunny's husband and Charm's father, the Star prince now King of the Moon.
Serena pauses and looks sheepish for a moment. This is really hilarious if I
weren't in hiding and having to remain quiet I would laugh out loud. The ever
calming and witty Queen Serenity of the Moon is stumped and by her very
own daughter. Smart Princess.
"Uh Honey I think your Daddy is…" Serena trails off as she looks around.
I smile amusedly this is priceless. I'm glad I walked into that garden.
"Did I here someone call my name?" A masculine voice asks as the King of the
Moon walks into the clearing the sailor scouts trailing behind him with two
other men.
I watch remorsefully as Charm's eyes light up. "Daddy." She squeals as she
jumps from Serenity's arms and scurries across the field jumping into her
father's arms.
"I see someone missed me." He jokes as he kisses the forehead of the small
raven-haired moon maiden and princess, his daughter, Charm.
I look the man over. He is everything a Moon King should be. He is well built
and is probably around the same height as me. He has long straight coal
black hair that is currently tied into a ponytail. His eyes are Deep Ocean blue
and filled with love as he glances down at his daughter then smiles tenderly
and lovingly at his queen. I feel anger, hatred and rage well within me. Not
directed to the Moon King it wasn't his fault he too had fallen for the moon
goddess and made her happy. It was my fault, it was my fault that I couldn't
make her happy and comfort her while she cried. It wasn't the King's fault
that I couldn't share passion with her or her children. It wasn't The Star
Prince's fault that I couldn't kiss Serena my Bunny or love her. It was my own
fault, my very own fault that I couldn't love her or be loved by her in return.
My own damnable fault. I hate myself.
"Hey I missed you too." Serenity, the Moon angel pouts in mock hurt as she
folds her arms over her round chest.
The Moon King chuckles as he shakes his head. I would probably chuckle to if
I was in his position but I'm not. She missed him I wonder if she misses me? I
feel a sting in my eyes as he walks over to Serenity and wraps his arm
around her waist with Charm nestled safely and comfortably in his other
arm. A happy little family.
"Come now Serenity it is time to leave love." He smiles as they walk back
toward the way the King had entered earlier.
"Good it is about time darling." She smiles beautifully. "Seiya I'm hungry." She
whines as he chuckles along with their guardians.
So his name is Seiya. I know I will never forget that name along with Charm
and Serenity. Those three names are now permanently stained in my mind.
'Good Bye Darien.' Echoes in my head in the sweet voice of my one true love.
I snap my head up and look to where my love once stood. I have never heard
her say good bye to me before. It was always a 'see you later' or 'see you
tomorrow' or a kiss. I have never received a good bye form her. I now realize
that it was a real good-bye I would only probably see her at royal functions.
Only talk to her as Neo-King Endymion of Earth never just Darien. I currently
realize I have just been granted the wish I had secretly wished since I lost
Serena. I have wanted to know what it was that I lost that day I shunned her. I
had lost the chance of forever gladness and contentment with my love and
child. For Eternity and bitter Infinity I now know I passed the chance up for
being at peace. The thought and realization of exactly what I have lost pricks
my eyes and stings my heart, happiness. Now I see as the tears escape my
eyes I was better of not knowing what I lost.
*The End*
And no there will not be a sequel or any other chapter for this story, so
tough. Any way I just hope that the point of view was right coming from the
perspective of a man/male and I being a girl. I just wanted to write this and
tell everyone that love should always come before duty and never the other
way around. And a life with out risks is not a life at all. Raina Jane Sadler…
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed,
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed,
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need,
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed.
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never takes a chance,
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never learns to dance,
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give,
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies a seed that with the sun's love
In the spring, becomes the rose. ©
By Amanda McBroom an others…