Tainted Love

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Chapter summery: John remissness about someone that he knew

crossovers with Btvs, Angel and raw.

Paring : BuffyAngel, JohnOc, DawnRandy, Faith, Willow?

prologue

John Cena stared out the window of the airplane, daydreaming while listening to his music. He thought over his life and about this one person who he left to become the superstar that he was now, but he doubt if she even cared about him. She probably moved on a long time ago, in fact he felt his heart drop a little at this thought. But that thought alone couldn't stop his mind from flaying back to that day.

A younger John stared into the most hazel eyes he's ever seen. She in fact had an gold ring around her pupils with golden speckles, he touched her soft chestnut long brown hair. He pulled her into an loving embrace trying to anchor himself to this one spot. To her. He took in the sight of her, she was wearing an black v neck sweater that clung to her body with blue jeans.

"John I can't believe your going to be on Raw." the young girl said, pulling her sleeves down to cover her hands. Her chest touched his making her breaths more labored, he could see her desire and wished that he could give it to her but knew that would make this more difficult then it needed to be.

"I don't know how to say this, but .. I can't see you anymore." he said and watched her face carefully , he noticed the tears fall without warning. He wished that he could take this pain away from her the one woman that he loved more then anything. But he didn't want to hurt her keeping the relationship going, because he knew that he would end up only hurting her more then he could ever dream.

He watched as the woman in his arms pulled away and started to back away, the tears fell more freely. He felt his heart clench and wanted to reach out to her, hold her and take her pain away but he knew that wasn't an option he already hurt this woman more then he meant too.

"Why John? Why?" she cried, he could only tare his gaze away .

" I don't want to hurt you anymore then this." John said softly , he couldn't meet her gaze .

"How can you say that?" she yelled, he met her gaze for an moment he could see the hurt and anger in her eyes. He knew that she would react this way, and braced himself for her fury.

"John, you're the only one that I ever let in and you want to throw away what we have? For the possibility that you'll hurt me more then this? well you can't Johnny boy. Good bye." she said and ran away. He watched her retreating form, with some silent tears falling down his face.

He noticed that he was only minutes away from L A now and couldn't wait to go to sleep to dream about the chestnut beauty that haunts him.

authors note : hope you guys liked it, this is my first time writing about wrestling before so please no flamers