UNTIL THE DARK

Songfic about Aoshi and Megumi()

Hey! This is the second fic I post. Actually, I've written many since I was 13( I'm 20 now ), but I was always in the middle of them because it was a personal satisfaction. The first time I knew Aoshi Shinomori was 1997 and it was love at first sight. Now, 2004, I finally got to read all the mangá story(when it was over here in Brazil), and I've been falling in love throughout the years. I thought I'd have to substitute myself for a RK character( I also had to rewrite, and rethink of some things) and I chose Megumi Takani because I find myself reflected on her in many things, and along with Tomoe, she's the female character I like (sorry Kaoru and Misao's fans! ). Who the hell would read a fic of Aoshi and a girl they never heard about(me, me, me!)??? But in fact, I really see Megumi with Sano and Aoshi all alone( coming to me!!!) ok, ok, I am crazy! It's a song fic inspired by Until The Dark, a song of a Norwegian gothic metal band called The Sins Of Thy Beloved recorded on their first album called Lake Of Sorrow .

April,2004.

I don't own nor Ruroni Kenshin characters nor The Sins Of Thy Beloved song rights, I am just a fan, unfortunately!

Until The Dark

"Until the dark

I'm searching for my love

under the stars

I'm fading all apart"

I sit here in this room. It has always been empty, it's been sunny for ages. But night came and it brought stars with it. But the stars also brought who I wanted to be here. The one I make my thoughts for. Under these stars, the usual me is fading all apart and gives birth to the one I want to be.

"my heart is stolen

taken away

like they said

when I have found

as we stay there

turn the faith in love"

How could I imagine I would fall in love with him??? He was so far away! Have I really loved Ken-san or Sano? I was so close to them. But why it had to be him? The others were only a fool thing. This time is different. My eyes, my heart, my feelings... everything was stolen from me! I was stolen from myself! But you are here, and I feel happy for a moment.

"I see you here

with me but I fear the day

for you

hear my dear"

You are here by my side! It took ages for you to see you could need someone. I know you're not here completely, but you feel ease to come to me, that's enough for me today. But is everything going to be the same tomorrow? Will you come here to me another day? Will you find your half, or am I the other half that you have to discover?

You make me feel in heaven tonight. For tonight you're mine, only mine! Your eyes are looking into mine. Our lips are sealed with each other's kiss. Your hands are holding me tight. Your soft, cold and pale skin is here to complete mine, as your body is here, taking mine as I offer it to you, only to you. My love, my pleasure. Your pleasure. Your love?

But daytime comes... I watch you over the night, trying to keep you more time here with me. You just get up, you look at me. I hate to see the sunbeams are touching your face, I cannot turn the days into an eternal night. You just look at me. You don't smile. You just look a mysterious look I cannot decipher. You go. When will you come back? Will I ever feel you here again? Will I???

"I watch the land

and the window fallen down

I feel the pain

inside of me like a cloud

no one can save me

the time will come for my death

I think of you and wish me into an another life"

I am all alone again. Agony days I've passed without you. I don't know where you are! I don't know what you feel! You're a mystery to me. I am in despair. I just sit and watch the path through the window. I have illusions you're coming. I cannot work, I cannot smile, I cannot be happy again. Have you met someone else? Are you still coming to me? It hurts me deeply, my love. It hurts me so deep! You're the one that can save me. Your words, your sad look. Your coldness. I feel I am dying. I cannot stand. It was a lie to think it was enough for me that day. It was enough that day. Not anymore. I need more. I love you more than just for one night. I wish I could be someone who would be by your side always. Even if you didn't want to. Can I be? Can I feel? I can just imagine...

"I see you here with me

but I fear the day for you"

I just imagine once again, you are here with me. I rejoice in thinking. I feed myself on imaginations. But there's always the fear... always that fear...

"I see you here with me

but I fear the dead

for you, hear my dear

I see you here with me

but I fear the day for you

feel my tears."

You're back once again. And I am here ready for you. Love me, love me... I let myself be loved every single moment. Let yourself be loved too.

But I remember you'll soon be gone. I fear the dead, your deads... I fear the ones who are still alive because they are always taking you away... away from me.

But I love you so much. Oh.... I do...yes, desperatedely... my dear...I love you so much... the hallucinated rhythm of my body, the crazy rhythm of my thoughts, the unconscious rhythm of my love for you...

Although I die everyday, the remembrances of tonight will make me live until the dark, until the next dark day you'll come to me again. Feel my tears... of love, of pleasure, of pain. My tears for you. You, my dear.

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I hope you liked this one! I am also posting right now another fic of the same couple: Aoshi and Megumi in the same circumstances above( for I love Aoshi!). The next one is also a songfic and its title is Our Prisons. I'd be very pleased to read your comments about this one and the other!!!! Thanks a lot!

PS: This is my favorite The Sins Of Thy Beloved song, and I hope more people know it. If you don't, I hope you could like the lyrics and listen to the song one day( it pleases gothic metal lovers as well as non-gothic/ metal/rock listeners). This is also my favorite Aoshi/Megumi fic I posted.