Ich besitze nicht diese Zeichen oder die Songlyrics. I, zu besitzen den Plot aber das Sehen, wie schrecklich es ich ist, wünschen, daß ich nicht.
I'm at a loss,
I'm at a loss for words, I really want to say
I'm finding for myself
What can I do
When every road I travel leads me back to you
Instead of somewhere else
I apologize
I tried to be normal.
But what is normal? Going to
clubs, gabbing on the phone and doing what everyone does just because. Well that seems completely idiotic to me, so
I stopped trying to be normal. So what
am I now? I would really love to
know. Nothing in this world suits me,
still searching for my magic fortay to call my mine. A cliché one could say.
All my life I just went with the wave of changes brought to me. Now however I'm getting tired of my life
being laid out in front of me. I wanted
to escape but she was stopping me. And
she didn't even know it.
Cause what I wanted to say
Never came out the way
I wanted it to, I wanted it to
Cause what I wanted to say
Only got in the way
I never meant to hurt you
But I didn't have a clue
I wish I could of left before I hurt her and
me. I hate seeing people broken inside,
the pieces so damaged they become dust particles. I couldn't though, I had to know the answer or I would ponder
what if forever. My replacement stood
in my place no one knew how long he would be needed. A part of me wanted to say forever, let them know I was becoming
a passing wind never to blow by again.
I couldn't though. I'm too
attached to these people, the memories, and must importantly of all her. I watch her, in awe of her beauty and
grace. She sees me but refuses to look
for long. It's too painful and I
suppose upsetting for her. After all in
her heart I abandoned her.
I'm just a man
I'm just a man in need of something better than
I'm finding for myself
You count the cost
For everything you gain there's always something lost
You're worth so much more
Listen to my heart whispering
I need you
I should of given more of an advanced warning I was
leaving the band. Let it stink in for a
little while. But that would of led to
questions and everyone trying to get me to stay. I would of caved in and made them happy but me miserable. I'm tired of being to one who always gives
and never receives. I had to find out
who I am. To learn if she is apart of
me or just some school boy's crush. Seeing
her avoiding my glace makes me think maybe it's true about us. I sound like an idiot or doped out of my
mind so high I can no longer see the ground.
My mom always told me to listen to my heart if she knew my hearts desire
she would eat her words. I leave the
room leaving my heart lying on the table.
Cause what I wanted to say
Never came out the way
I wanted it to, I wanted it to
Cause what I wanted to say
Only got in the way
I never meant to hurt you
But I didn't have a clue
Feeling the bumps of the poorly paved road, the area
where my heart used to be starts to tear.
Every mile away from her I want to die.
I have been away before this time it was different though. A man reaches certain stages in his life
when he lays childish games down and enters the world of the adults. I think I have come to that point. How do I convince her I am truly willing to
be her's forever. What if she doesn't
want me? I exit the bus at the next
stop, pick up the phone and dial, and listen to countless rings in my ear.
Empty words cannot suffice
I've been runnin' from what I know is right
When only Yours are words of life
I give up, setting the phone back down. I take the unanswered response to my call
has a sign has I was making a mistake.
I really need to move on if only for a few days. My flip-flop emotions never being able to
make up my mind is fighting me. But
that's what I get for allowing the world to make every discussion for me. I do know the right moves, the correct
actions to take but I'm scared. Of
rejection just like everyone else, maybe I am normal after all. I can't find out my answer to the questions
I can barely even convince myself I have if I stay here forever.
Cause what I wanted to say
Never came out the way
I wanted it to, I wanted it to
Cause what I wanted to say
Only got in the way
I never meant to hurt you
But I didn't have a clue
The journey back seemed to take three times as long then
the trip to leave. I kept on running
the words I would say through my head.
Trying to create a scene of perfection that could transport her heart
into mine. Foolish I know. It doesn't matter if I sound like a world
famous poet my words traveling out like pure romance, or if I sound like a
person with a first grade education. I
hoped she could just feel my words and love like I can feel her's. She smiles on seeing me and questions my
quick return wondering if anything is wrong.
Forgetting the words I selected carefully I just blurt out I love
you. Her eyes drop down and all I hear
is soft oh.
Every time you come around
Every time I make a sound
I knew
that would happen. She won't feel the same;
I had just been kidding myself this whole time. Or what if she did care and was afraid like I had been
before? There could a thousand reasons
for her response and I could spend the rest of my life analyzing them. What's the point? I should forget about her and the way she breaks me feel,
emotions I never knew existed come to surface when she is near. I could try being normal again, but no.