title: I won't let go

author: Vega-Lume aka Little Chibi Demon

disclaimer: I don't own the boys, I just like to play with them ( hee hee )

pairing: 1x2x1

warnings: angst, death

status: complete ( maybe *grinz*) and unbeteaed ( is that a word? * shrugs*)

category: ficlet or teaser

should I write more? let me know.

NOTES: I'd like to thank Akuma who came up with the title ( however indirectly ) and Naomi

for all the insparation ( damn can't spell for shit! )

Akuma at www.1x2x1.org/fiction/akuma.htm

Naomi at www.duoxheero.com

I won't let go

by ~Vel~

Duo opened his eyes, he felt the pleasant weight of his husband resting on his chest,

but as he came out of unconsciousness other things assaulted his mind, the smell

of blood and gun powder, and the sharp sting of the cut on his side.

Tears flooded his eyes, the whole horrific scene wasn't a nightmare, it had

happened, a sob racked through his frame and Heero moved slightly, his head

lolled back and shocked, pain filled Prussian eyes settled on Duo's tear filled violet.

Heero drew a slow pained breath and said " I Love you." in a barely audible whisper.

" I love you too, Heero." Duo sobbed and tipped his head forward, pressing his lips

against his love's, the lips were cold and the metallic tang of blood stung Duo's tongue.

Heero drew another racked breath then slowly exhaled, his eyes fluttering closed and

body going limp.

He was gone.

Duo let his head drop back onto the pavement as tears spilled from his eyes, mixing with the

blood that pooled around him, he was vaguely aware of the sirens

and the voices around him, he willed himself to die, st this moment he wanted nothing

more that to join Heero in the after life, save for having him back.

Duo felt the weight of Heero's body being lifted away. " Duo? Duo, wake up please!"

Quatre's strained voice cried. Duo could feel someone shaking him, he wanted

Quatre to leave him alone, he just wanted everyone to go away.

unfamiliar voices surrounded him, he knew they were the paramedics, he could feel

them poking, and prodding and lifting him up onto the gurney, he opened his eyes

for the briefest moment only to see Heero's pale blood covered body being placed in a

body bag.

Duo slowly closed his eyes again as tears spilled anew.

// FLASHBACK//

" Heero!, he's getting away!" Quatre called franticly.

The Preventer's had been called in to break up a Gundam Parts smuggling ring

and the man behind the whole operation had slipped past them and was running

down a hallway.

" I got him." Duo yelled as he sprinted after the suspect,

" No! Wait!" Heero cried running as fast as he could to catch up. Duo burst through

a door, out into the street and stopped. The suspect was gone, he turned back the way

he had come and froze.

The man was in between Duo and the door, Duo stood there in shock, in the

middle on the street, staring down the barrel of a gun.

" Duo!" Heero yelled as he flew through the door, snapping Duo back into reality,

Duo and the suspect, both fired off rounds at the same time, Duo's bullet hit the man in the head.

Heero had dove into Duo taking the bullet himself, the bullet ripped through his

back and exited the upper left hand side of his chest, striking Duo before it

was stopped by a brick wall. The momentum caused Heero yo crash into Duo,

they both fell to the ground, Duo's head hit the curb, rendering him unnocuous.

// END FLASHBACK //

Duo spent the next two days in the hospital, he was lucky, the damage to

his head and side were not as bad as the doctors had first thought.

Where the bullet hit, barely left a flesh wound and did not even need

to be sutured.

On the morning of the third day, Une visited, and brought with her,what

could be salvaged of Heero's personal affects, from the coroners office.

Heero's wallet, work I.D., car and house keys and surprisingly enough,

Heero's leather Preventer's Jacket, though it had been the smallest size wardrobe

carried, it was still over two sizes too big, it always hung off of Heero's left shoulder

and would bunch at his elbow, preventing it from slipping off completely.

The bullet that had killed him had hit just above the jacket's collar, leaving it intact.

The last item Une left was a plain white sealed envelope, at first, Duo wasn't sure

what it was until he picked it up and it's contents shifted, creating a distinctive sound.

He squeezed his eyes shut and set the unopened envelope down, he knew what

it contained and did not want to see it, he didn't want to see Heero's engagement ring

and wedding band any where but on his finger.

Duo picked up the jacket and sobbed pressing the soft Heero scented leather

against his cheek, whoever said that you are in a daze after a shock like this

was fucking insane!, Duo was painfully aware of every moment since that morning,

and what it meant, Heero was gone, dead, he would never see those sparkling

Prussian eyes, or see one of those sweet little smiles that were meant only for him

again, instead his last memory of Heero will be seeing his sickly gray face, pain

filled eyes and blood drying around those once lush cherry lips.

Later that night Quatre and Trowa invited him to stay with them for a while, Duo

agreed but he had to go home first to get Heero's cat, Baka, who had been left

alone for the better part of a week, and a few changes of clothes.

Trowa offered to get what Duo needed, but Duo declined, he had to do this himself.

That was the hardest thing he ever had to do, the house was exactly the way they had

left it in a hurry during breakfast, three days ago.

The t.v. was still on, so was Heero's laptop and the coffee pot, even the newspaper

Heero had been reading, still lay open next to his half eaten breakfast.

Duo wiped his cheeks, stepped up the the table and switched off Heero's laptop,

his legs gave way when that pale blue light winked out, he sat down hard in the

padded dinning room chair, buried his face in his arms and sobbed, after several

moments he wiped his face again and looked up only to see a pair of sky-blue eyes.

" Hi, Baka-kitty." Duo whispered stroking the cats snowy white fur, Baka purred and

hopped off of the table to Duo's lap then down to the floor before she padded

to the kitchen.

" Your hungry, huh." Duo murmured following the fluffy cat, he pulled out a box of dry

cat food and poured a small amount into the little cat bowl then he refreshed her water.

While Baka ate, Duo packed enough cloths for a week along with a suit for the wake.

lastly he packed a few things for Baka putting her food and some toys in a

recycled shopping bag, after that was done he put her in her cat carrier and took her

to the car Quatre had loaned him.

Duo made one more trip up to the apatrment to make sure all the electronics and

lights were off, then he locked to door.

The next few days went painfully slow, every moment seemed to stretch on for an

eternity. So many people, most who didn't even know Heero were coming up to Duo

and giving their condolences, Duo couldn't bear it, so the day after Heero's funeral,

Duo vanished without a warning or a trace.

He took everything important with him and left the apartment decimated, all photos

and personal items were gone, both his and Heero's.

No one knew where he went or why, he was just gone, leaving his life, the life

he shared with Heero behind.

Owari

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