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~Dimitri Pov~

I watched Roza's , after putting a bookmark in my western books, form appear from the fog as she opened the door. Her eyes hung with dark circles under her eyes and her form slumped. Her expression was full of sadness and regret but then she looked up and saw me. Her face changed it was happy and carefree. Poor Rose so much death on her small fragile shoulders, she watched Mason her Best friend and kind of Boyfriend die from the lost.

I regretted the other news I had to tell her. I snap out of what I was thinking and say " I thought you might come by" I close the book and pull a chair in front of mine.

"It's time for practice." She's so stubborn.

I just shook my head. " No. No practice today. You still need to recover." please just listen you stubborn, beautiful and smart woman.

"I've got a clean bill of health. I'm good to go." She tries so hard to be brave but I can see though her she's scared and upset about Ashford.

"Sit down Rose" I gesture to the chair. She stops and stares at for a moment but quickly sits down.

I move my chair closer to hers and look into her brown eyes wondering how I will ever forget her. How much I love to swim and get lost in her beautiful warm chocolate eyes.

"No one gets over their first kill ... kills easily. Even with Strigoi ... well, it's still technically taking a life. That's hard to come to terms with. And after everything else you went through..." I sighed and grabbed her soft hands. " When I saw your face ... when we found you in that house ... you can't imagine how I felt." Devastated and Grief-stricken.

"How ... how did you feel?" it came out barely a whisper.

"Devastated ... grief-stricken. You were alive, but the way you looked ... I didn't think you'd ever recover. And it tore me apart to think of that happening to you so young." I squeeze her hands to reassure her. "You will recover- I know that now, and I'm glad. But you aren't there. Not yet. Losing someone you care about is never easy."

Her eyes move from mine to the floor as she says in a small voice. " It's my fault,"

"Hmm?" I am so confused her fault. Her fault, no way!

"Mason. Getting killed." she sounds so depressed and lonely.

My love and compassion filled my face as I whispered to her." Oh, Roza. No. You made some bad decisions..." How do I word this? " You should of told others when you knew he was gone... but you can't blame yourself. You didn't kill him." come on Roza please see it wasn't your fault please!

Oh god. I watch as tears built up and were about to spill over, she looks up. " I might as well have. The whole reason he went there- it was my fault. We had a fight ... and I told him about the Spokane thing, even though you asked me not to ..." One tear ran down her face. So I softly wiped the tear off her cheek.

"You can't blame yourself for that," I told her. " You can regret your decisions and wish you'd done things differently, but in the end, Mason made his decisions too. That was what he chose to do. It was his decision in the end, no matter your original role." This is what would of happened if Lissa was in danger I would always protect Rose before Lissa.

"I just wish I'd been able to ... I don't know, do anything ..." she pulled her hand away and went to get up so I blurted out something I didn't want her to know just yet...

"Yes. I told her Yes." I barely whisper

"You what?! Told Tasha yes? What, why?!" I saw hurt and be trail on her face.

"Because I never want to see you like this again. Hurt and broken over someone you loved so much," I put both hands on her face. " I still and always will love you Roza. No one will come close to having my heart, not by a very, very long shot. Your the only woman I will ever love. Please remember that." I'm basically begging her to see that.

" I know I never want to feel this again and I love you too. But why Dimitri? If you loved me you would stay with me and help me! Train me to be better. Not leave me even more broken. You promised me you'd never leave but guess what you are. I guess I should of never of trusted you! Well I hope your happy with Natasha." Then she slaps me across the face hard. "I never ever want to see you again." She gets up grabs her bag then runs out the room tears streaming down her face.

While I just sit there like a fool replaying what she just said and rubbing where she hit my face...