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Authors Note: Been writing this in my head for a while…figured I'd get it down…hope you enjoy!
As Kendall Knight looked out the window as the plane went away he felt what he hadn't felt in a long time and as he walked away with his three best friends he didn't know where life would lead them. As he walked he felt James' hand come across his back and he felt comforted knowing that he would always be there for him but that of course was nearly 3 years ago…..
In those almost 3 years Kendall learned that he was never in love with Jo Taylor…nope…not at all…maybe she liked or loved him but it was never who he wanted to be with. This of course came as a shock to Carlos, Logan, his mother, and Katie but it wasn't all that shocking…he was always there and it was about time that Kendall realized that. However, realizing something and acting on it were two completely different things, but once he finally admitted it to himself…it was easy to say the words to his family, friends, Kelly, but not Gustavo...he would never understand and probably yell something about the band, losing money and fans, Kelly on the other hand gave then all hugs and told them that she wouldn't tell him their big time secret.
2 years into the relationship
"Mom…I hate this….I hate it every day…I just want to tell someone," Kendall said.
"Kendall, I love you but I can't tell you want you need to do, you will know," Jen said to her son.
"I don't want to hear that mom, tell me what to do…please," Kendall said begging his mother.
Kendall shifted on the couch, 2J was quiet, the guys and Katie were at the pool and they got older in those years since Jo left Kendall realized that his once in a lifetime one true love had always been there.
"I don't want to lose him…and I know how hard it is for him with his parents especially his mother," Kendall said.
"She isn't one to be messed with, but in all honesty I think that she will accept him, she has no choice," Jen said.
"We haven't all as lucky to have a mother that understands as well as you do mom," Kendall said.
"Thanks honey, I'm just trying to get by," Jen said
"I know what I have to do," said Kendall getting up and giving his mother a hug.
Later that same week
Kendall knew how unbelievably hard it would be to go anywhere in that town without recognizing him, but what he had to do was very important and that's why he left it up to his mother and sister. Carlos and Logan knew what he was up to and were able to help in any way that they could and that is exactly what they needed to do that night.
"James…Kendall needs to see you," Carlos said one night after receiving a text.
"Okay…where is he? Haven't seen him all day…its strange actually especially when I am looking this good," James said.
"Palm Woods Park," Logan said after receiving his text.
"This is very strange, but okay whatever you guys say." James said blissfully unaware of what was about to happen.
"Grab a jacket," Logan said
"Got it," James said getting up from the couch not even questioning why he would need a jacket on a warm California night.
As James walked out of the apartment door, Carlos, Logan, Jen, and Katie waited a few moments and then quietly followed James as he made his way there, James had reached the park and noticed that the grass was covered with snow…he placed his jacket on the bench and sat down beside it and looked up into the night sky.
"James?" Kendall suddenly appeared behind him
"Kendall? You scared me" James said.
"Didn't mean too," Kendall said bending down on one knee in front of him
"James….will you marry me?" Kendall
"I don't know…what do you think guys?" James asked turning around to see Carlos, Logan, Jen, and Katie peaking behind the trees.
Kendall looked at James who was smiling….
"Oh…of course," James said taking the silver band
"Snowball Fight!" Carlos screamed as he put his helmet on
It was inevitable of course that it would lead to this…they all joined in on the fight and Kendall smiled to himself knowing that the worrying was over….for now.
Las Vegas-5 months later
Somehow they had made it there undetected, it was lucky for them that Gustavo and Kelly had a business meeting out of state that gave them the perfect opportunity to get married in Vegas, contained in their luggage was their outfits for the wedding as well as regular clothes. The wedding chapel was owned by a older couple with the wife calling everyone "sweetie" on the phone but they seemed nice enough and had no idea who Big Time Rush was…they had no children. James' parents were invited of course, but they had never received a reply, that wasn't a surprise to Kendall or really anyone else for that matter. In between band stuff was planning for the wedding, getting the clothing, ring for Kendall, the license, the plane tickets…it all had to be figured out. After all was said and done they all ended up at the wedding chapel Friday night at nearly midnight…the place was quiet and small but it was perfect for what they wanted.
James dressed in his black tux paced the small spare dressing room in the cramped chapel, that was of course until he heard a knock on the door.
"James? Its Carlos and Logan" Carlos said
James sighed and let his two best friends inside the room, there were a few spare chairs in the room and they all took one.
"Do you think the world will be ready to hear the truth?" James asked Carlos and Logan
"I don't know…but if you follow your heart it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks," Logan said to him.
"I agree…he is the smart one after all, and besides maybe one day…it won't be a secret anymore," Carlos said smiling.
Jen knocked on the door meaning that it was almost time for the ceremony to start and that she needed Carlos and Logan. The guys stood up and hugged James before they went to the chapel to be with Katie and Jen, James looked in the mirror for about the millionth time that day he knew that he wasn't going to run…he loved Kendall and always would.
"James, honey…we are almost ready to go," Jen said knocking on the door and got in her position to walk down the aisle after Kendall.
Kendall watched Carlos lead his mother down the aisle, and Logan following right after them arm and arm with his sister, Logan stood beside him and Carlos stood on the other side as they all waited for James who walked down the aisle smiling.
"We are gathered here today to celebrate a coming together of two souls; James and Kendall have written their own vows to express to each other their love. Kendall would you like to go first?" he asked.
Kendall smiled at the reverend and pulled the piece of paper from his pocket….
"James," he started. "I didn't know that life would lead me to California let alone to a wedding chapel in Vegas, but wherever I was, and wherever I was going to end up I knew that somehow, someway that you be there like you always have been, like you always will be. I know that we will have our ups and downs but we will always get through it, I just hope that I will be good enough for you," he said. "I love you James, I always have and I always will."
Carlos wiped his eyes trying not to cry, Jen would was sited next to Katie was wiping her eyes as well.
"Kendall," he started "I might not be the smarted person in the world, and I might sometimes be my own biggest fan but because and despite that of that you love me. I remember everything you ever said to me, whatever it was I always remembered…I knew that you believed in me and you believed in us and now there is no giving up because that's not what we do," he said. "I love you Kendall, don't give up on me."
The waterworks started again with Carlos, and now Logan would was trying to be discrete, Jen started all over again as well, and now Katie was crying too.
"Kendall Donald Knight, do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband? For richer or for poorer until death do you part?" the reverend asked him
"I do," Kendall said as James was putting the ring on his finger.
Before he got to James they all head audible sobbing from the back of the chapel...
"Oh Marie…must you do this at every wedding? I swear this happens all the time" he said
Everyone laughed and turned around to see that she was in fact sobbing…
"I'm sorry…I just love weddings and you know we never had any children of our own," she said. "Keep going honey…I was think James was up."
"Thank you honey," he said.
"James Isaac Diamond, do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband? For richer or for poorer until death do you part?" the reverend asked him.
"I do," he said smiling at Kendall.
By the powers vested in me by the state of Nevada you are pronounced husband and husband, you may kiss the groom," the reverend said.
Kendall kissed James, and it was magical as their first kiss, everyone clapped and they walked down the aisle together and were followed by everyone else until they reached the back of the chapel.
"Okay…is anyone else starving? Seriously…I'm about to faint" Katie said
Jen was about to argue with her daughter that it was way too late to eat but she couldn't deny the fact that she was hungry as well. Everyone went into their separate rooms to change, and they were to meet at the back of the chapel…Kendall and James were the first ones out.
"Reverend, we just wanted to say thank you," Kendall said.
"Anytime," he said shaking their hands.
"Bye Marie, thank you," James said.
"You're welcome, honey…you two are just adorable!" she said giving them both kisses on the cheek
They were soon joined by the rest of the wedding party and walked out to the rental car and drove until they reached a diner. Vegas with its glittering lights was full of people walking the streets, going in and out of restaurants and casinos, so they didn't notice. They all sat down, the diner was nearly empty, and ordered their food…
"Sorry boys, this is the best I could do for your reception," Jen said after the waiter left
"Don't worry about it mom, we don't need anything fancy," Kendall said.
"James? You okay?" Kendall asked after noticing that he was looking out the window.
"Yup…just distracted by all the glitter," he said.
Carlos and Logan laughed, and they all started talking about band stuff until the food arrived. Before paying the bill Jen ordered a slice of cake to go for James and Kendall for their "wedding cake", after paying they parted the restaurant, checked into the hotel and walked to their rooms together.
"Night guys, love you all," Kendall said as James slipped the key into the door
James leapt on the king size bed, as Kendall sat on the chair taking his shoes off.
"Are you going to move sometime?" Kendall asked
"If I must…I want that cake," James said
Kendall shook his head at his husband, and went to his suitcase to grab pajamas, he walked to the bathroom to change, James quickly changed, grabbed the cake but it on the nightstand as he heard Kendall coming out of the bathroom.
"Are there forks over there?" James asked.
"No forks but…coffee spoons," Kendall said.
"Good enough bring them over," James said.
Kendall climbed into the bed handed a spoon to James.
"Happy kind of not really honeymoon," James said.
"Same to you, but it really doesn't matter," Kendall said.
James nodded and they ate their cake with the only noise being the TV showing the news. Kendall got up to clean up the mess and brush his teeth and James was flipping through the channels, he came back to the bed and James went to the bathroom to brush his teeth. When James came back Kendall was asleep, turned off the TV, finally climbing into bed next to his sleeping husband.
"Night Kendall, I love you," James said.
The Next Morning
"Morning, you sleep okay?' Kendall asked
"Is it morning still?" James asked
"That is a good question," Kendall said laughing.
James rolled over and turned on his cell phone noticing it was nearly noon, and that he had a voicemail
"Hey there guys, its Logan…we figured we would let you sleep…your mom and Katie have their flight at 5 so were taking in the sights and then Carlos and I will meet you at your room at 5:30 for dinner, be dressed please," he said.
"Oh I forgot my mom and Katie were flying out today," Kendall said. "We have that later morning flight tomorrow."
"That's right, back home and back to being called 'dogs'," James said.
"I didn't miss that," Kendall said
Kendall got up and put up the "do not disturb" sign on the door and climbed back into bed, he and James fell asleep again…
"James, it's after 4 we have to get up," Kendall said looking at the clock
"I know…but this bed is so comfortable," James said.
Kendall couldn't argue with that fact, but he reluctantly got out of the bed and walked to the bathroom. James continued to lie in bed listening to the water running and Kendall's singing one of their earlier songs.
"It's all yours," Kendall said gripping the towel around his waist
"Don't drop the towel…oh wait maybe you should," James said
"Will you get in there already?" Kendall said laughing
James laughed and walked into the bathroom and closed the door, after getting undressed he stepped into the shower, while Kendall finished getting dressed he heard James singing the same song that he was singing and he smiled. Noticing that it was after 5 he turned on the news while he wanted for James…
"Kendall? Can you bring me my clothes?" James asked his husband.
"No coming out in a towel?" Kendall asked disappointed.
"You have seen me in a towel plenty of times," James said laughing because he knew he had to get dressed fast
Kendall rummaged through James' suitcase grabbed a bunch of stuff and handed it to him when he stuck his arm out. Kendall went back to his chair and 5 minutes later James emerged from the bathroom. It was 5:29 when Kendall heard a knock on the bedroom door, he Logan and Carlos in…
"Did you guys have fun today?" James asked
"Yeah, except Carlos wanted to buy you the tackiest wedding stuff ever, like "Just Married" boxer shorts," Logan said. "I talked him out of it."
Kendall and James laughed and they all left the room, closing the door behind them, as they walked to the restaurant they got stopped a few times for autographs. No one questioning why they were in Vegas, they reached the restaurant and sat down, the service was fast and the food was good. When they were finished they shopped for a while grabbing a few souvenirs, they finished their shopping and retreated back to the hotel.
"Meet you guys in the morning for breakfast in the lobby?" Kendall asked before Carlos and Logan went in their room
"Sounds good," Carlos said.
Logan put the key in the door and held the door open for Carlos who walked inside and shut the door. James and Kendall made it to their room; Kendall opened the door and locked it behind them.
"Well…it's our last night in Vegas," James said.
"We'll come back, one day," Kendall said
"I hope so, even if it's for a concert or an awards show," James said.
Kendall smiled, he knew that James always had high hopes of the band he loved that about him. As they packed up their suitcases and got ready for bed, Kendall put out their tickets for the plane ride home and sighed. James knew that when they were back in California, they couldn't be as open as they were in Vegas…they couldn't be married in public and that made them both sad.
The Next Morning
Kendall was wide awake…and it was 5:30 a.m. he knew that they wouldn't be meeting Carlos and Logan for a while. He also knew that they would have to check out and catch the shuttle to the airport; he knew that his mom and Katie would be picking them up. He listened to James sleeping hoping that the sound would lull him back in to sleep, it was no such luck. Sighing Kendall got up, grabbed the clothes that he had laid out and went to the shower.
"Kendall?" James asked feeling emptiness in the bed next to him.
James heard the shower running and then fell back asleep at least for a little while...
"James? Time to get up," Kendall said.
"Yeah…I know," he said sighing.
James got up out of bed, grabbed his clothes and went to shower, when they were both dressed they made their way to the lobby.
"Morning," Kendall said when they reached the lobby
"Morning," Carlos said smiling
They all walked to the continental breakfast, soon realizing that they had the entire place to themselves. After eating, they all went back to their rooms to grab their luggage, as Kendall checked out he remembered that his mother had paid the entire bill when she checked out. As they sat on the couch waiting for the shuttle, no one spoke, a few moments later the shuttle arrived and loaded them up to get to the airport.
"I hate having to get to the airport this early, you'd think we would be used to it," Logan said.
"I know…with all the new security you would think we were criminals or something," Carlos said.
They reached the airport and eventually they boarded their plane on the way back to California. Kendall was tired, and James was quiet as he read his magazine, Kendall laid his head on James' shoulder using him as a pillow, until the pilot came on and announced that they were almost there.
"Kendall? We are almost there," James said gently shaking him awake
"Sorry, was I hurting your arm?" Kendall asked as he sat up
"No, it's okay," James said before lowering his voice. "I love you."
"I love you too," Kendall whispered as James smiled.
The plane landed, they grabbed their luggage and the first people they were Jen and Katie, happy to see familiar faces they all went to the car for the drive back to the Palm Woods.
2J-Later that Afternoon
They arrived back at the apartment weary, Carlos, James, and Logan went to their bedrooms to put away their things, Kendall was about to sit on the couch when the doorbell rang.
"I'll get it," Kendall said.
"Kendall, I am super excited to see you!" the overly perky blond at the door said to him.
Kendall stared for a moment not truly believing what he was seeing looking at him, stunned he didn't know rather to slam the door or let the girl in. It was a tough choice and he wrestled with it briefly until of course he did what he had to do.
Note: I know that same-sex marriage is illegal in Nevada but just go with it…it works for the story!