March 11
Lying in bed, trying drift into sleep, I wonder if there is any spell for that? That night all I could do was think about Malfoy. Why was he always there at the most inconvenient times and why was it that when he was there, I forgot who I was and could only focus on him. I kind of feel that I am being unfair to Ron because of all of this, but compared to Malfoy, Ron is so...pathetic. As soon as I went to sleep, I started to dream. We were in the same cafe and the scene was simply repeating itself. Ron was babbling and giggling at his own jokes, but I could not hear him. The truth is that I could not hear anybody; I was just staring at Malfoy. He seemed to be suspended in the air, higher than everybody else, and nobody could see him except me. He was smiling his infuriating smile at me the whole time. By the time I shifted my attention to Ron he was nearly ripping up the table demanding my attention.
I woke up in a cold sweat; what had I been thinking? It would seem as though I cannot help but make life harder for myself. All I've been doing for the last couple weeks is thinking about Malfoy and I haven't even started preparations for the OWLs! With that I fell back asleep, this time without any dreaming, thank god. I quickly ran down to Herbology only to crash into Malfoy, who burst out laughing. I could feel my face getting red, and was about to turn him into a mouse when I noticed how pretty he was when he smiled. It was that kind of smile at which I could not help but smile back. He noticed me smiling and simply started laughing more until everyone in Syletherin was red with laughter. I quickly ran away into the classroom, feeling like an idiot. I felt so angry and frustrated that he seemed to be taking my life as a joke.
I sat in my seat, flashing back into the time Malfoy and I had bounced into each other... "Watch it, Miss Granger!" Malfoy laughed. "Even if you wanna hug me don't do it too obviously!" and, of course, he winked at me. Holy cow, his wink and smile are just so, I mean, gorgeous! I could feel myself blushing and smiled back, but I just couldn't help but start to worry that my smile isn't as beautiful as his. Suddenly, without warning, he bursted out of laugh that echoed in the hall. "Even Miss Granger, the queen of Gryffindor, can't resist my masculine charm! Don't worry Miss Granger, your feminine charm is pretty powerful as well~" And he laughed more with the Slytherins. Even though I was extremely embarrassed, I noticed that Pansy Parkinson, the so-called girlfriend of Malfoy's, wasn't too happy, which made me happy even under the circumstance. I know I'm supposed to be mad at Malfoy, and I am pretty mad right now, but I think I just can't help but smile when I thought about his silverish-blue eyes.