a/n: hi ppl I decided to work on a new piece……one of my favorite yaoi anime's LOVELESS!!!!  I really hope you enjoy it…I know I did…..hehehehe…I strongly suggest listening to "My December" by Linkin Park….ENJOY!!!

NEVER ENDING STORY

-Summery-

It's another cold December night and I'm once again lying in my room listening to my mothers cries of sorrow…I can't stand it…the pain in her cries…the guilt look on her face……even the pain she puts on me when ever I do something that reminds her of…HIM… where are you when I need you Soubi…where could you have gone…I need you now more than ever…please…save me from this hell Soubi…save me from the very thing that eats me up inside…save me…from…HIM…

Pairings: Soubi/Ritsuka

Chapter One: My December; My Darkness

Rain…

Lightening…

Thunder…

All of these three combined create the perfect December storm…perfect weather to celebrate HIS birthday… (Now I don't really know his brother's birthday so just go along with it) darkness is what covers my room…nothing but darkness…. (LIGHTENING CRACKS THROUGH THE SKY WHILE THUNDER ROARS THROUGH THE AIR) why...why does she put me through this…why can't she just except the fact that he's gone and he's never coming back…just like Soubi's never coming back…after he promised me he still left without a goodbye…or even… a kiss…he blushed at this though…

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

FLASHBACK

"If it ever comes to that……I'd rather give my life then to see you suffer…"

The two held each other for dear life as if the world around them was about to end right now… as Soubi looked up from the young ones head he noticed a fading figure in the distance, instantly knowing exactly who it was that was spying on them…

This is my December
This is my snow-covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

"I promise to always be here with you…I promise to always protect you..." with that vow made he gently life Ritsuka's face upward and placed a gentle upon his cold lips that tasted of winter snow…

Ritsuka closed his eyes and let Soubi place his arms around his small form…feeling the warmth coming from such a kiss…he then placed his fingers in Soubi's hair gliding his fingers through his tresses…letting one single tear fall from his eyes…a tear of pure happiness…

END OF FLASHBACK

And I
Just wish that I didnt feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said to you

'It's been an entire year and I still can't get him out of my mind…why did he leave…why?'

As Ritsuka thinks this he fails to notice the dark figure peering through his balcony doors...the figure slides the door open quietly so not to disturb him and slides it shut again…he slowly walks over to the figure lying on the bed…in deep thought…

Ritsuka still does not notice the new intruder that has invaded his room until he feels a single drop of water hit his sensitive ears… "Huh?" he looks up and is shocked at who he sees... "S...SOUBI?!?!?!?" tears begin to falls down the sides of his face as he feels a frail hand caress his face while Soubi spoke…

And Id give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

"Why are you crying my Ritsuka? Are you not happy to see me?" it was then Soubi's turn to be in shock as the young child jumped into his arms bringing his arms around Soubi's neck in a tight yet loving hold… "You just disappeared after the fight…you promised to stay with me…and protect me…but…you ended up leaving me…why did you leave me…why was I left alone without you…why…WHY?!?!?!?!" he then felt Soubi's arms pull him into a loving hold as well…it was then that Ritsuka noticed Soubi's attire…

Soubi's was drenched in rain from top to bottom…he was wearing a very thin, see through, sky blue, long-sleeve shirt…with his usual black jeans…and no shoes… his hair was of course set down and it clung to his face and back…he was not wearing his usual glasses but it did not matter at the moment for all Ritsuka wanted to see was Soubi's beautiful eyes…the eyes he fell in love with…it was then his eyes noticed something else on his body…which he was not ready for…

This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

"Soubi what happened to you?" he moved his hand to the scar on Soubi's chest where his name BELOVED resided…it had been slashed over by something…or someone… he felt Soubi shiver once he touched the wound… "I'll be right back…" he left the room quickly and just like he promised he came back, and with a medical kit in hand… he then gestured to Soubi to open up his shirt and to sit on his bed…even though he was soaking wet… Soubi did what he was told to do…after all…Ritsuka is still his "master"…

As Soubi opened up his shirt wide enough to where Ritsuka could see the wound he noticed the blush that appeared on Ritsuka's face… "Don't be shy…you have seen me like this before…have you not?" Ritsuka shook his head and began to take out the needed supplies and looked over the wound… "How long have you had this wound?" "Three weeks" "Well your lucky it didn't get infected…or else…I would have had to cut you open…" but instead of the serious look Soubi just smiled at Ritsuka's actions…he then took Ritsuka's hand, making him drop the bandage tape, and brought it to his lips…where he placed a gentle kiss on each and every finger tip…he then looked up at Ritsuka and saw a look of want and need in his eyes…and he wanted to be the one to fulfill that desire…

And I
Just wish that I didnt feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didnt feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you

"Soubi…I have to finish or the wound might get infected…" Soubi then brought his hand over his wound and all that was left of it was a scar… "You don't have to worry about it anymore…and I'm sorry for not being here when you needed me the most…and I'm sorry for not being here to stop her…" Ritsuka then looked up to Soubi in utter shock not believing what he just heard….

And Id give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

"What?"

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

"You don't have to pretend…I've had…THEM…watching over you and they report back to me…plus you were limping when…when you went to go to get the medical kit…" he then began to shed tears he had been holding back for quite some time…he then pulled Ritsuka into his arms even though he was drenched in rain… "I'm sorry for not being there when I had promised you along time ago that I would be here with you….and to protect you…I'm so sorry for the pain and sorrow you had to go through alone…" he then tightened his hold and more tears began to pour from his body and soul… "Ritsuka I'm sorry for everything….hehehe…I bet you're getting tired to the word sorry huh…can you ever forgive me for all that I've done…" Ritsuka then looked up to see Soubi's face light up when a lightening bolt struck close by and showed Soubi's shadowed face…to Ritsuka it was a beautiful sight indeed to see the very person he cared for looking down at him and holding him close…it was then that Ritsuka got the courage to move upward towards Soubi and gently put his lips against Soubi's which turned out to be the beginning of a very passionate kiss…which they both had been craving for a long time…

"Does that answer your question…?" Not even giving him a chance to finish his statement, Soubi quickly brought him up, and switched positions, which had Ritsuka underneath Soubi, and Soubi on top.

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

"Don't play with me…you should know I tend to lose control and I don't want to hurt you…or make you feel uncomfortable in any way…"

Ritsuka slowly brought his hands up to caress Soubi's face, never breaking eye contact; he slid his hands down Soubi's neck and chest, where his hands glided over "BELOVED" he began to speak softly in a tone where only Soubi could hear…in tone where he sounded seduced…

"This mark that says BELOVED is what you are to me… I know I don't show it at times…but I do care about you Soubi…more then you'll ever know…" he begun to cry and shiver as Soubi placed his hand on Ritsuka's face… " So you see no matter what you do…you…you can never hu…hurt me…and even if there is time such as that…I'll still…." But he said no more…for he couldn't…Soubi silenced him with a kiss that could only be shared by two lovers…

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

a/n: well there you go….you really do feel like your there if you listen to the song…tell me how you like and I guarantee I'll continue this story… I need at least 5 reviews…X3X3X3