I DO NOT OWN MORGANVILLE! But I do own all ten books :D
Jason's POV
Why is it I always get blamed? Yeah, okay, I've made a few mistakes in my past but that doesn't give them any right to always blame me for everything. I'm just a kid really, how much damage do they think I can do? Do they seriously believe I'm capable of murder? I've never killed anyone before in my life! Yeah, I've been an accessory for murder before but I've actually never killed. It was all Bishop. So why do I get the blame for his crimes? Why do I deserve to be treated like this? I've tried so fucking hard to change my life round, even Eve was starting to let me back into her life. And now it's all been ruined because they took the first dickhead they found and accused him. Unfortunately I have to be that dickhead. It saddens me really, that I always get the blame for everything. If a cat got stuck up a fricking tree, it would be my fault. If the world ended, it's ultimately my fault. But I've had enough of this!
It's not my fault and I hate that they won't listen to me and they will happily false accuse me of such a crime. I feel so empty; I've just had my whole life taken from under me just because they couldn't be bothered to find the real culprit. Yes, okay, I was an accessory. But I needed the money and the dude just happened to be there at the right time. I didn't know it was going to be anything like this. I didn't know he was actually going to kill Doug. I just thought he wanted to retrieve something, not kill the stupid kid. I can't believe I've put myself back in the one place I never wanted to go back to. I felt like crying, but I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction of it. So I bottled it up and I prayed that they would realise it was all just a mistake and they would release me. That Eve would forgive me and still let me in her life. I've already lost that trust once; I don't want to lose it again…
I feel so alone and I'm absolutely pissed at myself for getting into this. I knew the dude was dodgy, but what did I go and do? I went and did as asked and now look where I am. I'm stuck in a prison cell. I fucking hate the bastards who arrested me. I didn't even do the fucking crime! I'm bloody innocent for once. So, if I'm innocent, then why blame me? Why do I deserve this? Yes I was a bad kid and I do have a bad temper, but why should I be punished for this? It's just not fair… But that's my life. My life isn't fair, my life isn't perfect and yes, my life consists of a shit childhood and loads of mistakes I wish I could take back. But when life gives you lemons and you say thanks, they just squirt them in your face while laughing. That's the bloody story of my life. My very pathetic, useless, corrupt life. How the hell am I going to get through this? I can only pray that I actually do get through this….