This is pretty much just a drabble, taking place around/after episode 51 of Fullmetal Alchemist (not Brotherhood).
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If I swear to God… If I swear to the heavens… If I risk my life; my mind, body, and soul – if I risk it all… Will it be enough to get you back, Al?
Even if it means that I have to die, I'll do it for you. I promised that we would get our bodies back, together, but I think I'm going to have to break that promise. I'll get your body back; I'll be just fine.
Is… Am I the best thing that I can give to get you back? Is that all? You're… you're better than me, Al. I don't know if I'm enough. Equivalent exchange, right? Me, plus a little more, maybe… can get your body back. I sure as hell hope so.
Make sure Winry doesn't cry for me, okay? Please. Make sure she doesn't cry over me… I'm not worth it. She should only cry tears of happiness, as cliché and stupid as it might sound, once she sees that you've gotten your body back. I made a promise, so keep it for me – I couldn't keep the other one, and I'm sorry for that. I'm so, so sorry.
I think this is it for me… It was nice, Al, thank you. Thank you for coming along with me. Thank you for pushing through it all with that armor of yours. I know it must've been tough; I know that you've felt out of place, I know. And again, I'm sorry. Thank you so much… for doing it all for me. If you hadn't been there, I don't know what I would've done. Hell, I could've been dead so much earlier – killed by Scar or the homunculi.
I know that I'm not making any easier for you, talking like this, but I can't seem to help it. The words just keep flowing out. They won't stop. I need to tell you exactly what's on my mind; I couldn't do it while I was alive so I might as well do it now.
Do go and do anything rash, alright? Promise me you won't go and get yourself killed! And don't you dare try to… bring me back. Don't you even fucking dare! I don't want you to even think about me after this. It's only going to make it harder for you, and neither of us want that. Don't suffer because of me. I want you to be happy. I'm not doing this just for you to go off on a suicidal journey to try and find a way to get me back. If I see you… If you die… Oh, I would kill you again. I mean it. Just know that I don't want to leave you. Don't ever think that.
I love you, Alphonse, you know that I do. Remember that. I don't want to leave… I don't want to die, I don't want to die, I don't want to go. You can hate me to your heart's content if you'd like, but I won't ever, ever, hate you.
Maybe I'll see Mom again, you think? I'll tell her all about you, and she'll be so proud, I know she will. I know it…
Alphonse… Everything… is going to be alright. I can definitely promise you that.