Thinking...
Of time
It seems that every day grows longer as the years grow shorter, and I miss the preparation... It's a blur and than the change happens. And the seconds last for years, and so time is no longer truth.
Thinking...
Of past
Those times you glance at a picture full of smiles and you wonder how long did it take the photographer to get them to smile like that? And one picture, one moment of past, can bring back so many painful memories.
You want to scream, "I love you! And don't you know, you're almost gone! And I don't want it to happen, but you'll let it. And I hate you for it...I hate you for dieing!
Thinking...
Of faith
When your heart is filled with faith, are you a better person for it? Are Christ-centered people more level-headed?
Even if there is no Christ?
Thinking...
Of God
If you're there, hear me call for you. I need you here, I need you now...right now...
And the lies are truth to me. Because in the solemn flow of night, I know you're a lie. But with the sun my faith restores, or rather, I force my beliefs into my heart. And you say, "Why? Why do you force yourself to believe in a God?"
Well, it's a hell of a lot easier living this lie that is God than admitting he's not.
Because if I let my brain tell my heart God is not, I will break. And I can't live broken, not again. I do not have enough strength to live broken.
Thinking...
Of pain
The pain that cuts your entire heart in two and bleeds until you are drained of the blood...the blood that you had lived by. And the God that is said to love leaves you; I've seen it happen, to myself and others. He leaves you broken. He leaves you crying into the wind and calling his name. He leaves you knowing he won't help you like he had promised you over and over...time and time again..
He leaves you bloodless.
NewYorkBabe
A/N--- I wrote this last night around midnight. I'm sick, I have a cold and I couldn't sleep. I know I was sick, feverish, and kinda crazy..but when I woke up this morning I reread this. I think it's actually the clearest I've been in a long time. Please review.
Of time
It seems that every day grows longer as the years grow shorter, and I miss the preparation... It's a blur and than the change happens. And the seconds last for years, and so time is no longer truth.
Thinking...
Of past
Those times you glance at a picture full of smiles and you wonder how long did it take the photographer to get them to smile like that? And one picture, one moment of past, can bring back so many painful memories.
You want to scream, "I love you! And don't you know, you're almost gone! And I don't want it to happen, but you'll let it. And I hate you for it...I hate you for dieing!
Thinking...
Of faith
When your heart is filled with faith, are you a better person for it? Are Christ-centered people more level-headed?
Even if there is no Christ?
Thinking...
Of God
If you're there, hear me call for you. I need you here, I need you now...right now...
And the lies are truth to me. Because in the solemn flow of night, I know you're a lie. But with the sun my faith restores, or rather, I force my beliefs into my heart. And you say, "Why? Why do you force yourself to believe in a God?"
Well, it's a hell of a lot easier living this lie that is God than admitting he's not.
Because if I let my brain tell my heart God is not, I will break. And I can't live broken, not again. I do not have enough strength to live broken.
Thinking...
Of pain
The pain that cuts your entire heart in two and bleeds until you are drained of the blood...the blood that you had lived by. And the God that is said to love leaves you; I've seen it happen, to myself and others. He leaves you broken. He leaves you crying into the wind and calling his name. He leaves you knowing he won't help you like he had promised you over and over...time and time again..
He leaves you bloodless.
NewYorkBabe
A/N--- I wrote this last night around midnight. I'm sick, I have a cold and I couldn't sleep. I know I was sick, feverish, and kinda crazy..but when I woke up this morning I reread this. I think it's actually the clearest I've been in a long time. Please review.