SECOND NOTE: Please review. I know I'm a bad writer, so just tell me what you think.
THIRD NOTE: Songfic ("The Voice Within" by Christina Aguilera)
Listen To Your Soul
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
I was trained to be prepared for almost everything
A battle or two
But I wasn't prepared for heartbreak
When your safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
I thought I was good enough when he said, "I love you, too"
I thought he really meant it
I don't understand!
He said he loved me back, we where together
Until that one night
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
I went to the hot springs to bathe
When I heard giggling
In the bushes
I thought that maybe it was Kagome and Inuyasha
Until I heard Miroku's voice
I took a look in the bushes
And from the moment I saw what it was
My life was over
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
I ran back to camp
Cried myself to sleep
And I dreamt my first nightmare
In a long time
Like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within
I felt like my heart was being stepped on
Then put in a grinder
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
He came back the next morning
Saying that he fell asleep in the woods
I can believe that...
Then he put his arms around me
And said, "I'm sorry, but I'm here now."
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
I threw him off of me
Kagome's expression changed from a "good morning everyone"
To a "Sango, what has gotten into you?" look
Miroku got up and asked, "What? Just because I wasn't here last night-"
"No, it wasn't that you left me to sleep alone!"
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
He asked, "What is it then?"
"I saw you with another girl, Miroku..."
He had a shocked look on his face
Ready to deny
So I just ran away somewhere
Young girl, just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day
I ran until it was sunset
I whispered to myself, "Here I am"
I fell to my knees
And continued to cry
I always thought that we would be together
I always thought he was telling the truth
I never thought that I would run away from him
Like I did today
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when your so afraid
I fell asleep that night wishing I would die
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul
I dreamt that I was falling from a cliff
But before I fell,
I woke up
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
It was morning
Sunrise was still clear to see
Even in the woods
What am I supposed to do with the rest of my life?
I planned to spend it with Miroku,
But now I guess I have a long journey
To begin
And never end
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you'relearning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
I walked on
Until I heard a voice
Calling out "Sango!"
It had to be someone I didn't know
Or my sanity
Because this voice was hoarse
I didn't bother to look where it was coming from
I can't waste time finding a place to stay
Maybe to find a demon who happened to target the
Lost and heartbroken
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
(No one can tell you what you can't do)
No one can stop you know that I'm talking to you
The hoarse voice grew louder
Again, I decided to ignore it
Then, instead of calling out "Sango"
It said, "Fine! Do you want to live life not wanting to know?!"
I stopped dead in my tracks
"Do you want to live life not know why I did what I did?!"
Miroku...
"I'll explain it if you just listen to me!"
Explain what? The fact that you ripped out my heart?
"Miroku, just-"
"Just what? Just leave you alone?!"
I turned around and said, "You stabbed my heart out when I saw you and another one..."
"Let me explain..."
"Explain what? Explain about how yu had an affair and left me to believe that you were-"
"Let me explain! Please, Sango..."
What was I supposed to do? My soul is too broken up to trust even myself.
Maybe if I let him talk, it will partially heal...
"Fine, talk."
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
"Sango, I couldn't just leave you with a child to take care of alone..."
"I could've handled it..."
"But I wouldn't."
"You don't know that. Maybe you'll grow old and die."
"We may not defeat Naraku."
"Look, just never mind, I'm done listening."
I turned around and walked away.
He acts like he wanted to do that other girl.
"Sango, wait-"
I ignored him
I looked down and saw a bag hanging to my waist, the strap holding onto my shoulder.
The bag that Kagome called a purse.
I looked into it
A knife...
And like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
I ran, Miroku just five feet away
Until I reached the perfect place in the forest
Where two trees seem to be pinned together
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
I quickly stabbed myself in the heart before Miroku got to me...
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(Miroku's point of view after Sango walked away)
Why isn't she listening? Doesn't she understand that, as confident as she is,
She won't be able to raise a child by herself
Even if she could?
I wouldn't let her, it's too painful
Just then, she ran
I followed, waiting to see what would happen
She came to a stop where the trees seemed to be one
She had a knife
No...
It was too late
She already had the knife in her heart
Her blood dripping to the ground
Tears stung my eyes
Why hadn't I stopped myself while I was ahead?
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall