Author's Note: Hey guys! This is my first fanfiction ever :) I am planning to write Simon/Baz and Cath/Levi fanfictions and I am always open to prompts. So feel free to send me any prompts and I'll be sure to add them to my list. Please leave reviews with your thoughts of this and if you would like me to continue :) Thank you for reading!

Disclaimer: These wonderful characters belong to Rainbow Rowell. As Cath likes to say, I am just borrowing them.

Cath couldn't believe her eyes. Actually, that wasn't true. She could believe her eyes which was the probably the reason her heart had a sudden pang and her eyes started to burn as she did everything she could to hold back tears.

Of course this would happen. Levi was the kind of guy who probably went around kissing every girl he saw. Just because he could. And that made Cath feel like such a fool. Such a fool that she actually thought that Reagan was right. That Levi did feel something for her. That Levi did want to kiss her and maybe just maybe be with her.

Cath remembered the previous night when Levi asked Cath if she felt exploited. At the time, she could honestly say no. But now, she did feel exploited. She felt like she'd been used and that made her feel like such an idiot.

Levi was holding onto the blonde girl as their lips continued to move against each other's drunkenly. The blonde girl was desperately kissing Levi and although Levi looked as if he wasn't fully into it, he was still reciprocating the kiss.

Reagan was standing beside Cath and Cath heard her mutter "Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit."

It was a quiet mutter and Cath figured that neither Levi nor the blonde girl heard her because they continued to kiss each other sloppily.

Cath couldn't bare the thoughts going through her head and she had to get out of there. She turned and left the kitchen before anyone could see her tears fall and she trudged out of the house. Reagan didn't follow her.

Instead, Reagan stayed in the kitchen punched Levi in the arm and as Levi turned to look at her his grin –that was usually permanently glued to his face- faded.

"What the fuck are you doing, you idiot?" Reagan exclaimed angrily and just loudly enough that the people that were still at the party looked over to see what was going on. The blonde girl looked irritated that they were interrupted.

"Reagan…I didn't think you were coming" Levi replied quietly and a little timidly. He had seen Reagan angry many times but usually it wasn't directed towards him.

"Well, I did. I came with Cath" Reagan responded with a glare directed towards both Levi and the nameless blonde.

Realization dawned on Levi's face and his face looked completely stricken. "She's here? She saw…what happened?"

"Who the hell is Cath?" The blonde asked with a pitchy high voice that was so annoying Reagan almost wanted to punch her.

"Look, Megan, can you please give us some space?" Levi asked desperately wanting to get rid of her now that he knew he had a much bigger problem to deal with.

Megan rolled her eyes clearly annoyed and said with an eye roll "Fine."

Levi smiled a small smile that was clearly forced and said politely, "Have a good night. It was nice meeting you."

Megan didn't respond, she just walked off to her friends with a shake of her head.

Reagan was grateful that the girl was gone. "Yeah, Cath is here and she saw everything. You asshole. You better fix this. I might be your friend, but I also care about Cath and good job managing to mess everything up."

Levi looked so miserable and helpless. "Where did she go?"

"Why should I tell you?" Reagan replied bitterly. "So you can go break her heart again..? She's outside, I assume."

Levi ran outside as quickly as he could and sure enough, there was Cath sitting on the steps with her face in her hands. Levi felt his heart break and he couldn't believe how stupid he had been. He had the best night of his life the previous night and now he felt like he was living a nightmare. A nightmare that he caused.

Levi sat beside her and Cath didn't look up. "Cather…please look at me." Cath didn't respond. "Cather…I am so sorry."

Cath forced herself to look up a few moments later and she looked up at him with the most painful smile Levi had ever seen. "Don't be. I get it"

"No, you don't. You don't get it…" Levi insisted sadly.

"I do get it. And it's okay. I understand. Really. I'm just being stupid." Cath managed to say and she was surprised by the fact that she was even managing to push out words.

"Cather, you aren't stupid. Please let me explain." Levi pleaded with his eyes.

"What is there to explain? Explain that the kiss we shared was just a kiss? Explain that you don't like me and you just go around kissing girls for fun? I get it. I am just really disappointed that for a second I thought what we shared meant something."

"It did mean something…It meant everything." Levi said and it surprised Cath to see that he really did mean it.

"Then why did you kiss her?" Cath said as a tear fell down her cheek and she felt so ashamed that she was actually crying over something so ridiculous.

Levi brushed his messy blonde hair back and sighed. "I...I don't know…I just felt alone, I guess." Levi shrugged and he knew that his answer wasn't a good one.

"That's not a very descriptive answer." Cath pointed out.

"You didn't respond to my text and I just felt so pathetic. I thought you didn't like me and I wanted to forget about it how bad it felt to have you ignore me." Levi stared into Cath's eyes. "But Cather, you have to know that I am so sorry by how much of an idiot I was. That girl means nothing. And you…you do. You mean something. I know it's probably really hard to believe now, but you really do."

"Okay." Cath said because it was all she could manage.

"Okay?" Levi asked wondering what that meant.

"Okay. I am going to go now…" Cath stood up and then looked at the guy still sitting on the steps. 'And Levi?"

"Yes?' Levi asked hopefully.

"Don't call me. Or text me. Just…leave me alone." Cath said as if it was physically painful for her to say those words.

"Cather…" Levi whispered but Cath was already walking towards the car and Levi knew it would be pointless to go after her.

When Cath got in the car, she couldn't help but let out the tears that fell down her cheeks and stained her face.

Levi sighed and buried his face in his hands. He knew he had to fix this. He had to do something. He just didn't know how.

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