I can't believe I'm doing this. Who am I kidding, I have to. I haven't seen him in over a year, he doesn't know. Only a select few did, Maia, Simon, Isabelle, and Jordan. They insisted that I come and are being my morale support. My friends all say that everything will be alright and that he'll understand. But I have my doubts, he's rich with attention all around him. I was just the girlfriend he had in college. For all I know I could be ruining his life with this.

My name is Clarissa Morgenstern and my last year of college I met this guy. At the time when I met him I didn't know he was the famous rich playboy. We dated for two years and they were the greatest of my life. But everything fell apart when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't know what to do so I left him. Now here I am again my friends with me and they agreed that Ari should have a chance at a father.

He had invited them all for a night of drinking and reminiscing. They all said that I needed to tell him, so they dragged me along. Isabelle has Ari and is currently cooing over her. So I stand in front of his mansion, where so many memories happened. Ah yes the Heronalde Mansion. In our little group I stand at the back, Jordan knocks on the door. I really don't think I can do this.

He opened the door with a smile as he greeted everyone, but he has still yet to see me. "Isabelle, Simon I saw you last week and you never told me you had a kid." "Haha no we were are just babysitting the child isn't ours." She hugged him and whispered in his ear. He stiffened, his eyes searching until they landed on me. All the other greeting went by quickly, I could feel myself getting more nervous.

Standing in front of him I knew that I loved him even after all this time. Plastering a smile "Hey, Its been awhile." His smile was forced, "Cut the pleasantries, Clary what are you doing here?" She swallowed, "They invited me and wanted me to come, so I came." Nothing more was needed to say so I walked into the house.

"Isabelle I think that this was a bad idea," she looked at me funny. " Clary, I know that you believe was right. Ari is a little cutie and she needs a dad."

He should be in the kitchen getting drinks like a good host, but instead he was sitting on his bed staring at an engagement ring. The one he bought almost a year ago her. Ugh he wanted to punch something. He had invited everyone over because he missed them, when she had left him he cut off all contact with everyone. He had decided to start anew and make old friendships new again. He hadn't expected them to invite Clary. He had been crushed when she left him and what haunted him is that he never knew why. One day he came home and she was gone all her stuff was here but she was gone. That was the day he had planned to ask her to marry him but it never happened.

When Isabelle had come with that child she was babysitting, he felt his life collapsed all over again. He had wanted a family and a life, like the one that that child would get. He felt tears slip down his face at the prospect of the life he could of had. He was broken out of his thought with a knock, "Man are you going to stop wallowing in self pity at your ex-Girlfriend or are you going to talk to her?" Gosh I forgot at how blunt Jordan can be.

"Jordan I don't think it's that simple." Being the Jordan that he is he just walked off ugh rude. He just sat there for a while life must hate him. He sat there for a while until he heard another knock on the door. "Come in," He put the ring away and flopped down on his bed. "I heard you wanted to talk to me." He stiffened, why? Why him? Life really must hate him. "Ugh Jordan is an idiot I can't believe he pushes this." She sat down, "Well I agree with you that Jordan is an idiot but I don't why you're so upset with him. He wants you to stop being pitiful and for you to get closure. That's all a good friend wants."

He could sense there was something she wanted to say but he wasn't going to push her. He knew from knowing that if you push her she'll shut up like a clam. "So why is Toby insisting that I talk to you?"

"Well he has some crazy notion that I need closure over our break up." She didn't say anything but he could tell that she was contemplating saying something.

"Well is it closure that you want?" He sat there was it what he wanted. It had been a year since he had last seen Mia and he moped for that year wondering why she had left. "It's been a year since I've last seen you and never in that year had I heard from you or asked for an explanation. And for that last year I've been wondering why you left me and now you are giving me a chance to find out of course I want to know." He could feel himself to get a bit hysterical.

She took a deep breath, "I left you because I was scared, so scared. I didn't know what to do and I was afraid." To her he probably looked confused and a little hurt. "If you were afraid and scared then why didn't you talk to me, we could've have worked it out together." Now he knew he was hysterical and probably scaring her. He also knew that she was getting frustrated with how he was acting and is regretting this already. "I didn't you asshat, because it terrified me I didn't know what you were going to do and I knew you were going to act like this. So the way you're acting now just proves that you were not ready then and you are not ready now."

"What makes you say that I'm not ready for whatever happened?" Now he really knew he was pushing buttons, but she was being so frustrating that he kept going. "We probably wouldn't be in this situation if you had just talked to me. I could have been more prepared and you wouldn't have left because we talked this through." NOw she was really angry he could tell, because she was pacing back and forth with her fists clenched.

"I left because I was pregnant you Bastard!"