"For them it is a blessing send by the Gods,for me it is a curse from Chaos himself".
They say it is the miracle that will always bring peace,i say it is the reason for endless wars . They think i am the one that will save the world time and time again,i think i am the one who will bring ultimate destruction . They see me as Light,i see myself as Darkness . Civilians call me a Godess,my Scouts call me The Messiah of Light,my fiance calls me Angel,i call myself the Devil . They say i am the blessed carrier of the most powerful weapon in the Universe,the Imperium Silver Crystal . I say i am the cursed one who has to carry the fate of the Universe on her shoulders,i am the cursed one who controls the Cristal which saves the world,but it is for the same Crystal that the Universe is in danger . Since the beginig of Time, Chaos has been fighting against Cosmos,the first wanting nothing else but destruction,the other hoping for salvation . They have been fighting an endless battle , both of them matching each other both in strenght and wills . And they will continue to fight until the end of Time . For it shall not be Light without Darkness,nor love without hate,no happiness without pain . And here is where my story begins .

My name is Serena Tsukino,i turn 18 in 4 months,i am in the last year of highschool at Jubaan Highschool . I come from a normal family :my mother Ikuko,a housewife,is the best mom in the world,my father Kenji,a reporter at the bigest news paper in city,is a little overprotective,but i would never wish for any other dad,and my little brother Sammy,the BRAT,how i like to call him,just turned 14,is a little bit annoying but i love him with all my heart . I live in a normal house in Tokyo with my family and my cat Luna,i go to school like any normal teenage girl,have normal friends,and i do what every teenage girl normaly does . A normal life some would say . Normal for everyone but me .

You see, i live a double life,have o double identity(triple some would say) . My second identity is the champion of love and justice,Sailor Moon,who rights wrong and fights evil . But i also am Princess Serenity of the White Moon,heir of the throne, future ruler of the Solar System,carrier of The Silver Crystal . And here is where the problems begin.

10000 years ago all the planets were sustaining life,each planet had its rulers,and all those rulers formed an aliance in order to bring peace,the Silver Aliance,and my mother ,Queen Selenity,was the head of this aliance . To make a long story short,the planets lived in peace for many centuries until one day Chaos stroke down with his pawns,Metallia and Beryl ending the peace of the aliance and with it the lives from every planet in this Solar System,except Earth . In order to end this destruction,my mother,the last one alive,who was at the time the carrier of the Silver Crystal,made the ultimate sacrifice sealing Metallia in the dephts of Earth, and sending me,my court and them man i loved in the future to be reborn on Earth,hoping that in this new life i will find peace and happiness . How wrong she was . In order to acomplish this,my mother poured all her life source in the Silver Cristal,her body died on the colums from the palace of the Moon Kingdom,but her soul will never find rest in the afterlife,wandering thruogh time,space and realms .

And here i am today,reborn as crybaby Serena Tsukino,a little bit lazy,the city's bigest klutz,living my life in peace and happiness exactly how my mother,the late Queen wished for... WRONG .My life is nowhere near happiness and peace . 4 years ago my peaceful life was turned up side down by a talking cat,Luna, who turned me into Sailor Moon in order to fight youmas and to find the Moon Princess . Later on we found that i was the long lost princess . Hoe ironic ,that was my childhood dream:to be a superhero who saves the world and also a princess with my prince in shining armour . Oh yeah, got my dream come true,didn't i ? What could a girl want more ? Like they say ,take care what you wish for 'cause it might come true . How i wish i never dreamed of something like this . Now i have to act like a princess,but also be the savoir of the world . But does someone asks me if want to do this ? Of course not . I have to walk and talk and act like the princess that i SHOULD be . I have to have the strenght and to find the way to save the world on a daily basis . Hey,don't get me wrong,i am not selfish,and i would do everything to bring peace . I would die 1000 times to save others,but it's just that i am losing the will to live . I just wish,sometimes,that i could close my eyes and lose myself in darkenss and silence,where i know nothing and i feel nothing .

When i revealed myself to be the princess,the Silver Crystal formed from my tears and it and lured me to take it,to control it . And control it i did . With it's help we have defeated the evil from the world,succeding in sealing Chaos himself . With every new enemy ,i had to learn to control the crystal better in hopes of becoming a better warrior . Little did i know that the crystal was controling me and not the other way around .
Since the moment i released it's power,the enemies started coming from all around the Universe seeking the power of the Silver Crystal and the energy of humans . And who has to defeat them ? Why ,me,of course . I am sick and tired of this game . I don't want to play it anymore . My life has become an arcade game where you beat the monsters to finish the level, thinking that this is the last one and you finish the game and to your dissapointment another level comes . I often ask myself if this fighting will ever end .
I am tired of fighting,i don't want anymore,i can't anymore . How many times will i see my friends and my love dying before my eyes ? How many times will i feel the pain of their deaths ? How many times will i be the last one standing ? And last of all who will save me after i save the world ?

With these thoughts in my head i find myself on the way to Cherry Hill Temple for yet another important scout meeting . Yeah right ... In translation "TIME TO BLAME SERENA" meeting . I love my friends,my advisors,my boyfriend,but sometimes they are too much for me . They want me to be the perfect princess,perfect future queen,perfect future wife and perfect fighter . No one cares about what i want or about what i feel . No one listens to what i have to say . They control my life like i am robot programed to make their wishes . They don't see that the Serena they know it's just a mask to hide who i truly am . They don't see that my powers are stronger then all of them together and that at every attack i retain myself in low levels in fear that i might hurt them or worst, destroy the world . Since i was very young i had dreams of a beautiful woman who was telling me stories about the battles on the Moon and she was teaching me what to make in order to hide myself from the bad guys . And so i learned to wear a mask . But they don't know that being a lazy crybaby and a clumsy bubbly girl was just that,a MASK . They don't know it because they don't want to see the truth that lies in front of them . And so i ask myself how much longer will i be able to keep this act ?

After the battle with Galaxia it came a time of peace,which everyone belived will last,everyone but me . After that fight i couldn't bring myself back from the abyss that i have fell . I couldn't belive that it was finaly over . My friends came back to life , Darien came back to life,but i felt like something inside of me died . I can not forget the pain,it is still fresh in my heart,it is like yesterday it happend,when in truth 2 years have past since then . Everyone got back to living like nothing happend,all but me . I have nightmares every night, i cry every day, not the wailings that all are used to,no,i cry those silent tears that cut deep and will forever leave a mark . Sleep has become a luxury for me,between fighting youmas,school,scout training and my nightmares i am lucky if i get 2-3 hours of sleep . It feels like it is an eternity since last time i had a decent sleep . Every day i spend 6 hours at school, after that i have tutoring session with Amy 'cause a princess must be good educated . After that i go to the Tempel to learn about energies and spirits with the help of Rey . I go the park with Makoto to train myself in combat . Last but not least is Minako, who teaches me how to act in battles,how to plan attacks and how to be a leader . And on top of all that i have to fight youmas and keep my familly oblivious of my extra activities . The weekends should be for relaxing and enjoying life but i get to spend them with the Outer scouts . On Saturday Michiru teaches me the ways of royality and Haruka works on my body endurance,and that is one hell of a training . And finaly Sunday comes with Setsuna,who takes me to the Gates of Time where i can use the Crystal without no one detecting its powers . That is the hardest by far . Usually after a session with her i go home and just collapse on my bed . She says that the exhaustion comes from my inabillity to control the crystal . So she thinks . The truth is that i have to concentrate too much on my powers and how much energy i use . She doesn't realise that to much power released can make the Time Plane collapse and that means the end of everything . She doesn't belive i could ever control so much power . How can she not know ? She is the scout of Time,she should know everything,but who knows ?

The only one which doesn't force me to do anything is sweet little Hotaru . I don't know if this is because the others think she is to small or because all my teachings are covered by the others and she has nothing left . But deep in my heart i hope that she doesn't think like the others,that she has more faith in me . Sometimes i catch her with a frown on her face when the others are blaming me or just plain insulting me . That girl is the youngest of us,but from us all she is the only one who can hide her true feelings the best . She is a mystery . Being the scout of Death probably teached her how to be so .

All in all my life is ruled by my scouts and i have no saying in it . And if someone belives that Darien is on my side,i have to tell you that he is 100% with the scouts . At the begining our relationship was working good . After the battle with Chaos it has changed . Instead of becoming closer to one another we are becoming colder and more distant . From passionate kisses we came to small pecks on the cheeks an kisses on the forehead . My dad should kiss me on the forehead not my boyfriend . We go on dates very rare because he needs time to study and i have to prepare myself for the future . He says that we have all the time in the world,but do we ?
I am lucky that my family doesn't ask questions about everything that is happening with me . I see them more and more worried about me but i try my best to convince them that i am fine . They are oblivios of everythin that has happend with me in the last 4 years and i intend to keep it that way . And this how my "perfect" life goes every day .

AN/ DISCLAIMER:I DO NOT OWN SAILOR MOON